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I was also abusing coffee. Recently I got a smallest possible moka (1tz / 50 ml) instead of 100 ml one. I started with drinking more often but smaller amounts. Very often I wanted some coffee but I had to drink whole big thing. If you drink 4 cups a day it's better to split it into 8. However in reality you will drink less cups (instantly). It also makes easier to cut amount of caffeine if you do it in very small steps. Reducing by 25% is hard. Another idea is mixing ordinary coffee with decaf. I'm not sure why (maybe due to Armodafinil usage?) I became very sensitive. 25 ml of moka feels like way too much now. Probably I will start mixing coffee and decaf in 1:1 ratio.

I'm not sure if 5 meo is necessary. With LSD you peel your layers gradually. Vaped 5 Meo gave me less insights but it was more obvious and undeniable. Personally I would get an apartment (a place to trip) and a good amount of 5 Meo. I got 3 grams for about $200. It's relatively inexpensive.

@Rolo Are you using porn when you are anxious? You may have deep fear about something and this is the way to release. Maybe you are scared of being dominated by a female, or you are afraid that your girlfriend will be transgender, or you hold strong indentification with being heterosexual. Maybe you should imagine yourself being gay? When you hold strong preference you create a tension. Watching uncomfortable videos (confronting with your great) help you to release it.

And Aren't you selfish too? I'm not saying that there is anything wrong with you. I think that [currently] you have a mindset in which you lack something and expect someone to fill that gap. Probably they have similar expectations, they might be even more "needy" than you. Try to improve quality of their life without expecting anything in return. E: take into account that I do not have any family problems. I feel that I got more than I deserve.

I think that it turns you on because you think it's inappropriate. That's how repression works.

https://www.actualized.org/insights/taking-a-break-2020

@Breakingthewall Really good explanation. What I mean by telepathy is a glimpse of oneness. It works in a similar fashion to electrical circuit - certain parts have higher or lower resistance between them.

Maybe we look at it totally wrong and this is very biased linear perspective. If someone in "past" had similar energetical structure I might be able to communicate "telepathically" with them and because of that I think that it was past me. Traditional understanding of reincarnation makes sense only when we believe in time (which is false perception). *By telepathy I mean communication based on similarity. You can communicate well with yourself because you are very similar to yourself It's relatively easier to do that when you have similar core / or there is a polarization (eg. masculine - feminine) / or you are being in a state of no self. It depends how you define it. There can't be any existence without a falsehood. If you are too enlightened you may get disconnected from your body accidently.

I did use binaural bits. I had a mystical experience once - I was kicked out of body It's not super strong, it may give you that 10-20% gain in effectiveness. If you don't have an access to psychedelics it can give you a taste of altered states of consciousness. I use mostly alpha and theta waves when I need to focus on some task.

@Breakingthewall It is all relative word game. However I don't think that ego = energetic structure. I would compare human to plasticine. You start with some amount of it, you change it's shape and add/remove some over time. After death plasticine (energy) is left and it forms something else. There might be some kind of continuity. However it is relative thing to say that a person incarnated into something. You can't be "FULLY enlightened" without complete destruction. If I take LSD I am enlightened but energetic structure is very similar and I still experience my body.

Just realize that you aren't always there. You are not conscious all the time. When you take a psychedelic gaps are filled and weird things start to happen. You gain control over reality and you can more control over it. I experienced something like jumping between timelines - lack of stability. This is also why it's good to meditate - to learn how to be present no matter what. I believe there is something like reincarnation after physical death. When your body is destroyed and you can no longer be attached to it, "you" will find something energetically suitable.

We are reincarnating constantly. When we have a glimpse of pure presence we are born again. Identification is what keeps us grounded in same (or rather very similar) reality.

Snacking itself isn't healthy. I would stick to two or three meals a day. https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=ZKpiH7R8HS8

It happened to me to share something. The issue is that people do not have any first hand experience so they can't relate. There is a risk that they will get things totally wrong. If it is possible I would encourage you to share it. It's dishonest to keep it for yourself. Treat it as a possibility to become more authentic.

@Gesundheit Most females in 8 to 9.5 range I wouldn't even call attractive. I think as long as someone is healthy attractiveness it's quite subjective.

You have a broken circadian clock because of artificial light. I have very similar sleeping pattern. However if I spent whole day outdoors I can easily recalibrate to wake up very early. I don't have any suggestions how to fix it. I'm using red bulb to induce melatonin production and use screen filter but it's not enough for me.

@Hardkill "You Can Predict This Man's IQ Just by Looking at His Picture": https://www.mic.com/articles/86593/you-can-predict-this-man-s-iq-just-by-looking-at-his-picture

You can guess someone's personality type from photo. In case of males you can also predict their intelligence just by looks.

Instead of drinking you can keep coffee beans in your mouth.

Leo is venting out constantly. He is making 2 hours long videos and he is also vary active here. Instead of sharing his emotions, he is sharing his thoughts. (which is basically same thing)

I think I made some improvements. HIIT and weight lifting helps me to enegize my body. I will try to reorganize my day - wake up earlier and start my day with exercises. Exercises help to enegize but there is still a lot of tension in my body - it doesn't help it nearly at all. Some physical form of yoga is definitely needed. I also found this video https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=aQyVUxcKbWU It seems that I have a domince of Ida. Probably this is my real issue.

It happened to me to be attacked by a group of people two times. First time they attempted rob me. I was kicked in my head but somehow I managed to scare them away. I just got a tiny graze on my cheek. The second time I was in a wrong place and a larger group of people confused me with someone else. Luckily I was able to escape to a safe place. It didn't happen early in my life, so I wasn't building my personality around those events. It's not a big deal but sometimes I tend to freeze when I see two or more potentially aggressive males. This makes me a potential victim because I might look scared - in reality I'm mentally preparing for a fight. Any ideas how to become more comfortable in such situations? I heard about methods in which victim has to relive traumatic situation - in my case nothing wrong actually happened

For me It was a worst nightmare. It wasn't scary, I was just tired of 10 minutes of infinity. It felt like never ending cycles of suffering - exactly the same as in "real" life but much faster. I just visited that I could vanish. However just after a trip I felt instantly ready to trip again. Something like a rollercoaster ride - you were scared but want to do it again. I'm still scared to repeat vaping and I'm postponing it.