Are repressed aspects stuck at their level of development?

[Loving Radiance]

2 weeks ago I rediscovered my desire. It felt freeing to finally express myself after more than a decade of repression of that part.

However, the way of expression revealed itself to be immature like an entitled child that knows what it wants and rebels to get what it wants. Feels SD Red to me. Maybe SD Beige too, but I am too uninformed about that.

Is it plausible to assume that trauma occurred at that stage of development and that this aspect of myself was frozen in time in its development through repeated suppression?

[Megan Alecia]

@Loving Radiance Yes. 

"What you resist, persists."

[Elevated]

Absolutely yes. I had a difficult time in my prepubescent years being ostracized by the children at school and with mental illness difficulties at home. As such, I have a pathological connection to the Tribe, and thus, in Stage Purple. A new psychedelic process of mine is studying each stage in-depth, journalling about how I feel I embody that stage currently, and then doing a trip to plunge deeply into that aspect of myself. Just finished the Purple mushroom trip last week

[Username]

 

[Loving Radiance]

@Megan Alecia @Elevated Thanks!

@Username Very insightful. Thank you.