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I bring people the freedom/authenticity they had as children through music and entertainment (work in progress :))

yeah this is the small bets thing - its in the book So Good They Can't Ignore You. Do those and make sure they're not lasting that much longer than 2 months, ideally 1-2 months because they can really drag on and invite complacency. Be honest as to how much passion you felt during do those projects and also look back at your values to see if you are really aligning with your top values with small bet projects you are doing. That's what has helped me

I'd go back over the steps he outlines in the course - its really easy to have resistance to taking the simple steps, like just doing enough research, making the small bets from the book 'so good they can't ignore you' - watch all those videos again and take notes and then work out how to apply them. Also you have to allow things to unfold so start and commit to things but go easy on yourself and just see how it goes, don't beat yourself up if you aren't getting anywhere yet, just don't quit, commit to finding the life purpose, what else would you be doing in life?

I also do do a lot of meditation as well so yeah doing both

One of my problems right now is that I do need to build more relationships - I'm not bad at making friends but the issue is finding people who are actually growing in their lives so are a good example for me. I find it hard to find these people, I can be more resourceful though.

thank you so much for sharing guys

Yo dude this is awesome thanks

Will keep this in mind, thank you for your responses

Thanks for this, I appreciate the detail of your response

I've had a couple of trips recently that have led me to the same place. One was on Mushrooms and the other LSD, I have been working on a core trauma for a while now, its a shame-based trauma that I have come to realise has ruined my life and my families lives, it affects our behaviour so deeply and I'm the only one who has become aware of it. The thoughts and emotions of this trauma can be very hypnotizing (though I have let go of a lot of it already), basically a lot of self-attacking thoughts come up and I essentially find ways to resist any pleasure or love that comes my way and I get myself into a more and more uncomfortable state. I had a mushroom trip that was very profound, during which I felt like I broke through into some new level of consciousness. Shortly after that part of the trip, however, the trauma pattern came up and I got lost in it for hours, it seemed to be a backlash/resistance to the new consciousness I'd experienced. A few months later I experienced a very similar thing on LSD, a beautiful first 3-4 hours of the trip and then dragged back into the trauma pattern and this time hastily reaching for dopamine hits like a drug addict. What should I do with this? Do I lower my dose? How do I use these substances to work through this trauma that is coming up? Do I stay at the same dose and if the trauma comes up should I just work to remain aware of it and keep myself conscious despite it? Should I meditate through it? Or contemplate it? I'm just looking for different opinions on this, preferably from people who have some experience working through trauma on psychedelics - ideally not from people who haven't, thank you. And @Leo Gura as well if you have time to provide your thoughts that would be very helpful, thank you. I hope all of your journeys are going well

Quite a lot of people on this forum and people I've met have reported taking 5 meo for the first time at a ceremony or in a retreat-like setting. As I understand it, at most of these events they give you a fairly large dose as your first ever experience of 5 meo. Do we not think this is a bit irresponsible? Or is it just that it's fine with 5 meo to take a slightly higher dose as your first experience in contrast to other psychedelics? I took it for the first time recently but took a very small dose (10 mg) and didn't really feel much, certainly didn't lose my ego or get scared. The person who organised the trip for me, who runs 5 meo retreats, said he thinks I would benefit from something more like 40 mg. My instinct is to not do this and just work my way up (doing 20 mg, then 30 mg etc.) but since most of these retreat centres/ceremonies apparently give you a higher dose as your first try and you don't hear of these places getting shut down because people are dying or having mental breakdowns, it makes me think its probably okay. What do you think?

my guy! Thank you for reaching out - I'll check your website, maybe we could organise a call

I've been working on living my life purpose for a while now (which is centred around music and comedy video content but to a lesser extent) and relatively recently I've had a big realisation that my problem is that I've been trying to do this all by myself when my 2nd top value is connection. I've done a lot of different music projects as small bets to try and work out what my life purpose is in the music umbrella and now I realise I should try and make a band or at least a duo, every small bet so far has just been me making and producing everything myself. I wish I could do it all by myself like Leo does his but If I'm honest with myself that isn't my authentic desire. It's kind of hard though because I have to find the right business partner(s) now and I do have to rely on others. This is a call to anyone else who has a similar purpose to me and is dead serious about truly living and actualizing it. I'm 29 and will make this happen or die trying. I've got myself to a much more grounded place in the past couple of years, with daily satisfaction meditation, trauma healing exercises as habits and a weekly journal reflecting on my week. Also doing psychedelics and did a retreat recently. (+ have complete the life purpose course) I'm a music nerd and listen to lot of different stuff but right now I'm trying to make music sort of like those lo-fi indie artists who were categorised as bedroom pop a few years ago. So people like Clairo, MICHELLE, Jakob Ogawa etc. I listen to a lot of hip hop, R&B and Jazz as well so those styles come out in my music naturally too. The good thing about the bedroom pop type music is that it can include other genres fairly seamlessly, I find, its not as rigid. You can move into a boom bap hip hop beat or pop song or just a straight indie rock song quite easily. This is what I'm making now but I would want our music to evolve into something different, am also open to making something different now as well if we both like it. I wanna make stuff in the same room as someone, bounce off each other rather than on the Internet so Ideally you live in London too but if we're very compatible and it's an online thing its not the end of the world. One of my main concerns is finding a long-term business partner. I do a lot of work on myself and I want to find someone who is ideally serious about healing themselves as well. Most bands seem to break up because people have all sorts of psychological issues, addictions etc. and aren't able to have conscious communication and recognize egoic patterns that are hurting others. I want at least one other core member of my band to be aware of this stuff and as I said working on healing. Once again, calling all people who wanna make it happen, ideally we make a duo but a band would be cool too. I will keep reposting this

ah thank you!

I've been working on living my life purpose for a while now (which is centred around music and comedy video content but to a lesser extent) and relatively recently I've had a big realisation that my problem is that I've been trying to do this all by myself when my 2nd top value is connection. I've done a lot of different music projects as small bets to try and work out what my life purpose is in the music umbrella and now I realise I should try and make a band or at least a duo, every small bet so far has just been me making and producing everything myself. I wish I could do it all by myself like Leo does his but If I'm honest with myself that isn't my authentic desire. It's kind of hard though because I have to find the right business partner(s) now and I do have to rely on others. This is a call to anyone else who has a similar purpose to me and is dead serious about truly living and actualizing it. I'm 29 and will make this happen or die trying. I've got myself to a much more grounded place in the past couple of years, with daily satisfaction meditation, trauma healing exercises as habits and a weekly journal reflecting on my week. Also doing psychedelics and did a retreat recently. (+ have complete the life purpose course) I'm a music nerd and listen to lot of different stuff but right now I'm trying to make music sort of like those lo-fi indie artists who were categorised as bedroom pop a few years ago. So people like Clairo, MICHELLE, Jakob Ogawa etc. I listen to a lot of hip hop, R&B and Jazz as well so those styles come out in my music naturally too. The good thing about the bedroom pop type music is that it can include other genres fairly seamlessly, I find, its not as rigid. You can move into a boom bap hip hop beat or pop song or just a straight indie rock song quite easily. This is what I'm making now but I would want our music to evolve into something different, am also open to making something different now as well if we both like it. I wanna make stuff in the same room as someone, bounce off each other rather than on the Internet so Ideally you live in London too but if we're very compatible and it's an online thing its not the end of the world. One of my main concerns is finding a long-term business partner. I do a lot of work on myself and I want to find someone who is ideally serious about healing themselves as well. Most bands seem to break up because people have all sorts of psychological issues, addictions etc. and aren't able to have conscious communication and recognize egoic patterns that are hurting others. I want at least one other core member of my band to be aware of this stuff and as I said working on healing. Once again, calling all people who wanna make it happen, ideally we make a duo but a band would be cool too. I will keep reposting this