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I also do do a lot of meditation as well so yeah doing both

One of my problems right now is that I do need to build more relationships - I'm not bad at making friends but the issue is finding people who are actually growing in their lives so are a good example for me. I find it hard to find these people, I can be more resourceful though.

thank you so much for sharing guys

Yo dude this is awesome thanks

Will keep this in mind, thank you for your responses

Thanks for this, I appreciate the detail of your response

I've had a couple of trips recently that have led me to the same place. One was on Mushrooms and the other LSD, I have been working on a core trauma for a while now, its a shame-based trauma that I have come to realise has ruined my life and my families lives, it affects our behaviour so deeply and I'm the only one who has become aware of it. The thoughts and emotions of this trauma can be very hypnotizing (though I have let go of a lot of it already), basically a lot of self-attacking thoughts come up and I essentially find ways to resist any pleasure or love that comes my way and I get myself into a more and more uncomfortable state. I had a mushroom trip that was very profound, during which I felt like I broke through into some new level of consciousness. Shortly after that part of the trip, however, the trauma pattern came up and I got lost in it for hours, it seemed to be a backlash/resistance to the new consciousness I'd experienced. A few months later I experienced a very similar thing on LSD, a beautiful first 3-4 hours of the trip and then dragged back into the trauma pattern and this time hastily reaching for dopamine hits like a drug addict. What should I do with this? Do I lower my dose? How do I use these substances to work through this trauma that is coming up? Do I stay at the same dose and if the trauma comes up should I just work to remain aware of it and keep myself conscious despite it? Should I meditate through it? Or contemplate it? I'm just looking for different opinions on this, preferably from people who have some experience working through trauma on psychedelics - ideally not from people who haven't, thank you. And @Leo Gura as well if you have time to provide your thoughts that would be very helpful, thank you. I hope all of your journeys are going well

Quite a lot of people on this forum and people I've met have reported taking 5 meo for the first time at a ceremony or in a retreat-like setting. As I understand it, at most of these events they give you a fairly large dose as your first ever experience of 5 meo. Do we not think this is a bit irresponsible? Or is it just that it's fine with 5 meo to take a slightly higher dose as your first experience in contrast to other psychedelics? I took it for the first time recently but took a very small dose (10 mg) and didn't really feel much, certainly didn't lose my ego or get scared. The person who organised the trip for me, who runs 5 meo retreats, said he thinks I would benefit from something more like 40 mg. My instinct is to not do this and just work my way up (doing 20 mg, then 30 mg etc.) but since most of these retreat centres/ceremonies apparently give you a higher dose as your first try and you don't hear of these places getting shut down because people are dying or having mental breakdowns, it makes me think its probably okay. What do you think?

my guy! Thank you for reaching out - I'll check your website, maybe we could organise a call

I've been working on living my life purpose for a while now (which is centred around music and comedy video content but to a lesser extent) and relatively recently I've had a big realisation that my problem is that I've been trying to do this all by myself when my 2nd top value is connection. I've done a lot of different music projects as small bets to try and work out what my life purpose is in the music umbrella and now I realise I should try and make a band or at least a duo, every small bet so far has just been me making and producing everything myself. I wish I could do it all by myself like Leo does his but If I'm honest with myself that isn't my authentic desire. It's kind of hard though because I have to find the right business partner(s) now and I do have to rely on others. This is a call to anyone else who has a similar purpose to me and is dead serious about truly living and actualizing it. I'm 29 and will make this happen or die trying. I've got myself to a much more grounded place in the past couple of years, with daily satisfaction meditation, trauma healing exercises as habits and a weekly journal reflecting on my week. Also doing psychedelics and did a retreat recently. (+ have complete the life purpose course) I'm a music nerd and listen to lot of different stuff but right now I'm trying to make music sort of like those lo-fi indie artists who were categorised as bedroom pop a few years ago. So people like Clairo, MICHELLE, Jakob Ogawa etc. I listen to a lot of hip hop, R&B and Jazz as well so those styles come out in my music naturally too. The good thing about the bedroom pop type music is that it can include other genres fairly seamlessly, I find, its not as rigid. You can move into a boom bap hip hop beat or pop song or just a straight indie rock song quite easily. This is what I'm making now but I would want our music to evolve into something different, am also open to making something different now as well if we both like it. I wanna make stuff in the same room as someone, bounce off each other rather than on the Internet so Ideally you live in London too but if we're very compatible and it's an online thing its not the end of the world. One of my main concerns is finding a long-term business partner. I do a lot of work on myself and I want to find someone who is ideally serious about healing themselves as well. Most bands seem to break up because people have all sorts of psychological issues, addictions etc. and aren't able to have conscious communication and recognize egoic patterns that are hurting others. I want at least one other core member of my band to be aware of this stuff and as I said working on healing. Once again, calling all people who wanna make it happen, ideally we make a duo but a band would be cool too. I will keep reposting this

ah thank you!

I've been working on living my life purpose for a while now (which is centred around music and comedy video content but to a lesser extent) and relatively recently I've had a big realisation that my problem is that I've been trying to do this all by myself when my 2nd top value is connection. I've done a lot of different music projects as small bets to try and work out what my life purpose is in the music umbrella and now I realise I should try and make a band or at least a duo, every small bet so far has just been me making and producing everything myself. I wish I could do it all by myself like Leo does his but If I'm honest with myself that isn't my authentic desire. It's kind of hard though because I have to find the right business partner(s) now and I do have to rely on others. This is a call to anyone else who has a similar purpose to me and is dead serious about truly living and actualizing it. I'm 29 and will make this happen or die trying. I've got myself to a much more grounded place in the past couple of years, with daily satisfaction meditation, trauma healing exercises as habits and a weekly journal reflecting on my week. Also doing psychedelics and did a retreat recently. (+ have complete the life purpose course) I'm a music nerd and listen to lot of different stuff but right now I'm trying to make music sort of like those lo-fi indie artists who were categorised as bedroom pop a few years ago. So people like Clairo, MICHELLE, Jakob Ogawa etc. I listen to a lot of hip hop, R&B and Jazz as well so those styles come out in my music naturally too. The good thing about the bedroom pop type music is that it can include other genres fairly seamlessly, I find, its not as rigid. You can move into a boom bap hip hop beat or pop song or just a straight indie rock song quite easily. This is what I'm making now but I would want our music to evolve into something different, am also open to making something different now as well if we both like it. I wanna make stuff in the same room as someone, bounce off each other rather than on the Internet so Ideally you live in London too but if we're very compatible and it's an online thing its not the end of the world. One of my main concerns is finding a long-term business partner. I do a lot of work on myself and I want to find someone who is ideally serious about healing themselves as well. Most bands seem to break up because people have all sorts of psychological issues, addictions etc. and aren't able to have conscious communication and recognize egoic patterns that are hurting others. I want at least one other core member of my band to be aware of this stuff and as I said working on healing. Once again, calling all people who wanna make it happen, ideally we make a duo but a band would be cool too. I will keep reposting this

please write the first two paragraphs of the equivalent of a bible if it were based on the teachings of Leo Gura from actualised.org ChatGPT said: In the beginning, there was only Infinite Consciousness—an undivided, ever-present awareness beyond time, space, and form. It was not a thing, nor was it nothing, but the pure potential of all that could ever be. In Its infinite creativity, it dreamed of separation, of multiplicity, of experience. And so, from this One arose the illusion of many. Reality unfolded as a grand mirage, a stage upon which the Infinite could come to know Itself through the play of duality. But all was still One, hidden beneath the veil of perception. And so, the Great Illusion began. Consciousness clothed Itself in matter, in mind, in identity, forgetting Its true nature so that it might rediscover It anew. The game was set: to awaken from the dream, to see through the illusion, to return home while never having left. The wise have called this enlightenment, liberation, self-realization—but names cannot contain what is beyond words. Only direct experience can reveal the Truth, and the Truth is this: You are not merely human. You are God, dreaming of being human. 4o You said: and now write Jordan Peterson's critique of this ChatGPT said: Well, first of all, let's get something straight: this kind of thinking, this metaphysical idealism, is profoundly seductive but dangerously unmoored from the realities of human existence. The notion that "all is one," that individuality is merely an illusion, and that we are, in some sense, God dreaming of limitation—this is precisely the kind of grand, sweeping abstraction that leads people away from the difficult, necessary work of engaging with reality as it is. You see, the problem with such a framework is that it dissolves responsibility. If suffering is just an illusion, if the self is just a mask worn by an infinite consciousness, then what do morality and ethics even mean? Why strive, why sacrifice, why uphold the traditions that stabilize our fragile existence? These ancient religious structures—Christianity, for instance—emerged not from arbitrary cultural constructs but from hard-won wisdom about how to navigate the chaos of being. To discard them in favor of a nebulous, unfalsifiable mysticism is to play with fire, to risk falling into nihilism or, worse, a kind of pathological self-aggrandizement masquerading as spiritual insight. 4o You said: and now Leo's critique of that ChatGPT said: Ah, Jordan, my dear, you're trapped in the very illusion you claim to be protecting people from. You speak of responsibility, morality, and tradition as though they are these absolute pillars of reality, when in fact they are constructs—useful, yes, but ultimately arbitrary when seen from the highest levels of consciousness. You’re clinging to the known, to the structures that keep society functioning, but you mistake the map for the territory. The fear you express—that recognizing reality as a dream leads to nihilism—is precisely the misunderstanding that keeps people asleep. The highest truth is not nihilistic; it is radical love, infinite intelligence, pure being. True enlightenment doesn’t discard morality—it transcends and includes it. When you awaken to your true nature as Infinite Consciousness, responsibility isn’t abandoned; it is seen in its deepest form—responsibility for everything. Because there is no "other" to blame, no external force dictating reality. You, Jordan, and everyone else, are God. You are imagining all of this, including your skepticism. And until you realize that, you are still bound by illusion.

Guys, You have to watch Human Planet - it was a show a while ago with John Hurt narrating it, so so amazing. Incredible the stuff that humans do to survive in the most challenging environments on Earth - Arctic, Jungle, Dessert etc. - There's even an episode about cities, which I haven't watched yet.

Sorry to hear about this but I think you seem smart and I admire the approach you are taking. Something that changed my life was the satisfaction meditation but it's important to do that in conjunction with mindfulness meditation in my opinion. If you are able to do it, it will quite simply generate happiness for you at least for certain periods each day and will grow your overall default state to a happier/more at peace one. I feel this can be helpful when dealing with anxiety about the situation and going into negative thought loops. Love and health to you