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I would do the life purpose course - it will help you get clear on what you want to do and the potential work place environments to find with that in mind.

I guess I could you're right - I have had it more recently as I've been slowly letting go of a trauma pattern I've been working on for a while. the technique is this one

I've been doing the satisfaction meditation for about 6 years now and its completely changed my life. I just completed one year of doing it for an hour 6 days a week and 1 day of 30 mins (before that I was just doing 30 mins 6 days a week). I've recently started having more difficult meditation sessions, where my ego starts fighting back and as I stay with it I go through very difficult emotions and process trauma. This is good but is very hard to sustain for more than an hour and even that can be too much. My trauma healing coach says that you don't want to overdo this and fully overwhelm yourself as it becomes counterproductive to the healing process after a point. I was planning on doing 3 meditation retreats this year but I don't know what to do if a ton of trauma comes up - it doesn't seem productive to force myself to still do a full day of meditation if a ton of unexpected trauma comes up that I can barely handle for 1 hour, let alone 7 or 8 per day. Maybe its like weight lifting and I'm just not advanced enough yet to handle that amount of meditation and I will eventually be able to do that? What do you guys think?

I bring people the freedom/authenticity they had as children through music and entertainment (work in progress :))

yeah this is the small bets thing - its in the book So Good They Can't Ignore You. Do those and make sure they're not lasting that much longer than 2 months, ideally 1-2 months because they can really drag on and invite complacency. Be honest as to how much passion you felt during do those projects and also look back at your values to see if you are really aligning with your top values with small bet projects you are doing. That's what has helped me

I'd go back over the steps he outlines in the course - its really easy to have resistance to taking the simple steps, like just doing enough research, making the small bets from the book 'so good they can't ignore you' - watch all those videos again and take notes and then work out how to apply them. Also you have to allow things to unfold so start and commit to things but go easy on yourself and just see how it goes, don't beat yourself up if you aren't getting anywhere yet, just don't quit, commit to finding the life purpose, what else would you be doing in life?

I also do do a lot of meditation as well so yeah doing both

One of my problems right now is that I do need to build more relationships - I'm not bad at making friends but the issue is finding people who are actually growing in their lives so are a good example for me. I find it hard to find these people, I can be more resourceful though.

thank you so much for sharing guys

Yo dude this is awesome thanks

Will keep this in mind, thank you for your responses

Thanks for this, I appreciate the detail of your response

I've had a couple of trips recently that have led me to the same place. One was on Mushrooms and the other LSD, I have been working on a core trauma for a while now, its a shame-based trauma that I have come to realise has ruined my life and my families lives, it affects our behaviour so deeply and I'm the only one who has become aware of it. The thoughts and emotions of this trauma can be very hypnotizing (though I have let go of a lot of it already), basically a lot of self-attacking thoughts come up and I essentially find ways to resist any pleasure or love that comes my way and I get myself into a more and more uncomfortable state. I had a mushroom trip that was very profound, during which I felt like I broke through into some new level of consciousness. Shortly after that part of the trip, however, the trauma pattern came up and I got lost in it for hours, it seemed to be a backlash/resistance to the new consciousness I'd experienced. A few months later I experienced a very similar thing on LSD, a beautiful first 3-4 hours of the trip and then dragged back into the trauma pattern and this time hastily reaching for dopamine hits like a drug addict. What should I do with this? Do I lower my dose? How do I use these substances to work through this trauma that is coming up? Do I stay at the same dose and if the trauma comes up should I just work to remain aware of it and keep myself conscious despite it? Should I meditate through it? Or contemplate it? I'm just looking for different opinions on this, preferably from people who have some experience working through trauma on psychedelics - ideally not from people who haven't, thank you. And @Leo Gura as well if you have time to provide your thoughts that would be very helpful, thank you. I hope all of your journeys are going well

Quite a lot of people on this forum and people I've met have reported taking 5 meo for the first time at a ceremony or in a retreat-like setting. As I understand it, at most of these events they give you a fairly large dose as your first ever experience of 5 meo. Do we not think this is a bit irresponsible? Or is it just that it's fine with 5 meo to take a slightly higher dose as your first experience in contrast to other psychedelics? I took it for the first time recently but took a very small dose (10 mg) and didn't really feel much, certainly didn't lose my ego or get scared. The person who organised the trip for me, who runs 5 meo retreats, said he thinks I would benefit from something more like 40 mg. My instinct is to not do this and just work my way up (doing 20 mg, then 30 mg etc.) but since most of these retreat centres/ceremonies apparently give you a higher dose as your first try and you don't hear of these places getting shut down because people are dying or having mental breakdowns, it makes me think its probably okay. What do you think?