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One problem with psychedelics is that the visions quickly fade from memory. I had a huge experience nine months ago with 5-meo-DMT. It changed me from someone who thought scientific materialism was obvious, to someone who can’t believe he was so naïve. I had contact with divinity but I can no longer recall the full force of it. There is no magic bullet. Spiritual techniques are still necessary to stabilize the mind so that whatever state you achieve, you can make it permanent.

I don’t have any feelings about Trump or any other politician. Things are happening just the way they are suppose too. Nothing moves in a straight line. There is a dialectic process happening in America with two conflicting forces battling each other, that will have some resolution. Maybe it’s time for the empire to end. Similarly, the corona virus is a result of man’s abuse of the earth, and what is happening is a natural process.

I took Sadhguru’s Inner Engineering course. As for money, I thing the touchstone is "what is reasonable?" At one end of the spectrum you have Scientology that will literally take everything you own and the institutional churches will say one tenth. How can you tell if someone is enlightened or not? Even in the Bible, there were plenty of people who talked to Jesus and didn’t think he was anything special. Any maybe they were right.

In my opinion, this is an interesting historical encounter of blue vs. turquoise. It’s a debate in the 1960s between William F. Buckley, Jr. and Timothy Leary. Buckley was a famous conservative in the 60s and the perfect example of a pure intellect disconnected from his heart and body. I saw him speak in person and I could barely hear him even with a microphone because he mumbles and could barely speak above a whisper. Timothy Leary claims that he is not advocating use of LSD and actually warns that psychedelics should be taken seriously and used with care. Buckley takes the position of the establishment that psychedelics are extremely dangerous and treats Leary with contempt. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BnoCHlybAnU

I completed my third Ayahuasca journey. I am becoming more skillful at navigating the altered state. The physical effects are different for every person, but for me, when the medicine initially begins to take effect, my heart beats fast and my body temperature rises. If I can sit through this calmly, I enter the altered state. My first two journeys were learning to sit with the pain. They were purgative, releasing blocked energy and pain from my body. In this journey, I felt feelings of love and being loved. The journey started with a clearly audible voice crying in my heart. It was as real as any external sound. I was downloaded the teaching that life can become simple if I learn to forgive. I felt that “I am awake” and didn’t want to lose this state. The music that was being played at this moment had the phrase: “We are born human to experience our infinity”. I realized what a waste of a human life it is for people to fight each other to defend their different reality tunnels. The shaman said that we need to realize these visions with homework so that we can make the state we experienced permanent.

The opposite of loneliness is connection. Bill Plotkin talks about sacred speech and speaking from the heart. He recommends to only have conversations from the heart to connect with people and avoid small talk. If someone isn’t interested and doesn’t respond, you can move on. “We speak from the heart and address what truly matters — our feelings, imagery, dreams, life purpose, our relationships, soul stories, our discoveries of how we project aspects of self onto others or learn to withdraw those projections, and our meetings with remarkable humans, animals, plants, and places.” Bill Plotkin. Soulcraft: Crossing Into the Mysteries of Nature and Psyche

I stopped taking cannabis edibles. I week after taking an ayahausca journey, I was in a state of joy and connection with the universe. I then took some cannabis and the next day I was depressed. The minute I took the edible, I realized that I had made a mistake. The problem with cannabis is that it shows you all your problems but there is no catharsis. Ayahausca is called “the purge” because it just doesn’t show you your issues but purges the energy from your body, with vomiting, diarrhea, shaking, screaming, crying, sweating, yawning, etc. With cannabis, you are a pig always rolling in the mud. Mother Aya washes the mud off.

I had my second ayahuasca journey. On the day of the ceremony, I fasted. It took about 1 hour for the journey to begin. I could feel my heart beating fast and strong. I then began to feel a weakness like I was going to faint, and it was really unpleasant. Then Mother Ayahuasca started to envelop me with a fog and she was pulling me into another dimension. Because of what I was experiencing, I panicked and opened my eyes, fearing that I would be trapped in suffering that I couldn't escape from. I was able to pull back from an experience I wasn’t ready for. When I pulled back, I was thrust into a void of blackness where I experienced the pain of loneliness and disconnection from the divine. I think that fact I didn’t eat could have lowered my glucose and caused the fainting. The journey continued in waves. In one of the peaks, I started hearing audible voices speaking gibberish, first 1, then 10, then it seemed like a thousand voices at once. I put my hands over my ears to try to stop the noise. Then I realized that the voices I was hearing were my thoughts. The medicine was showing me that my mind was full of noise, which gets in the way of solving my problems. I feel that I am started to learn the skills of navigating a journey. It is important to surrender to the process, and when suffering comes up, remind oneself that it is temporary. This comes from developing a personal relationship of trust with your plant teacher. Also, it is important to not analyze while on the journey because the analytical mind can create misleading thoughts that interferes with the journey. Mother Ayahausca is a teacher and downloads the information that we need to know.

This is my first post. When I lived in Mexico, I went to a local medicine man to get treatment for anxiety. I asked him about Ayahausca. He then asked me If I had ever taken psychedelics before, and I said no. He then said that Ayahausca lasts about 5 to 6 hours, but he had a medicine called “sapito” which lasts for about 30 minutes, and if I have never had experience with psychedelics, it might be better for a first experience. He said the “sapito” has masculine energy and gets right to the point, whereas Ayahuasca is feminine and takes longer. Sapito is 5-MEO-DMT. In Mexico, it is called “sapito” or “sapo”. The word “sapo” means “toad” in Spanish. “Sapito” is a diminutive form which would roughly be translated as “toady” or “little toad”. He then put the sapito in a glass pipe and told me that as soon as he lights it to inhale and count to three. I inhaled and almost immediately fell back into a deep trance. I felt that I was in a void and I had no thoughts. My mind was complete silence. I felt I was dying. I started to move towards a light. When I approach the light, I flipped into another dimension. I was astonished and gasped “this is reality, and the everyday life I have been leading is bullshit, it is all an illusion”. I felt something like a presence of God. I then felt myself descending back into my body. I could actually feel the ego with its thoughts coming back as I descended into the body. When I was in my body, I felt an overwhelming intensity of emotions. It was like every emotion I had ever repressed over the years came up at once. I released them by my entire body violently shaking. Sapito didn’t change any of my long term negative habits or negative emotions. However, it altered my basic beliefs about reality and set me on a spiritual path. I am no longer a materialist. This was my first psychedelic experience. Since then I have recently gone through an Ayahuasca ceremony. For me, madre maestra Ayahuasca was much more useful and is now my medicine of choice. The differences: Sapito lasts 30 min, Ayahauscua lasts about 6 hours. During the 6 hours, Ayahuasca downloaded information useful to my life. Saptio goes for the head. Ayahuasca went to the heart center. Ayahuasca worked to release deep pain and energy blocks in my body. Ayahuasca was conducted with a ceremony and there was a group of people. I found an empathetic connection to the other people in the group under the medicine which aided inner healing. The ceremony creates a safe circle for sacred healing.