Chris365

So only Christians can be bipolar?

You're imagining Teal Swan to keep you from awakening. Awakening is not at some point in the future, once your 'shadow' is 'worked on'. Awakening is now. The mind's nature is to solve problems, real or invented. It'll keep you busy for decades if you allow it to work on/dig up whatever it thinks it can prolong its existence, to keep the illusion of separation. Pay less attention to your mind trying to find intellectual and logical answers to questions you didn't even ask. You're saying you're not resonating with Teal's message, but still the mind is slowly but surely convincing you that there's more work to do before you're "allowed" to realize who you truly are. Your true nature is always and already here and now, there's no process to go through before you're "worthy" to realize it.

Are there apparent past and future unicorns, relatively, and on the same level as past lives?

Which part of 'you' reincarnates? If it's Universal Consciousness, does it even make sense to say it reincarnates?

Fear is of the ego, in your many ego deaths, did you feel any fear?

If you think aging is suffering, work on becoming more conscious, past stage greed of Spiral Dynamics. Plus, suffering is a great catalyst that leads to awakening. Without suffering, nobody would have the drive to wake up. All hail 3rd density, for the great evolution opportunities!

Here, 'trying to love myself' feels backwards. "You know, that unconditional love you can't feel, hence you're in this predicament? yeah, try to apply it anyway, create feelings out of past egoic, grabby, clingy feelings of love you might have felt, and apply it to ... whatever you think you are at this moment". A great opportunity to re-enforce the spiritual ego, now even more loving! What that achieves here, is it only adds to the resistance already felt. Instead of forcing this, I am reducing resistance every hour, every day, by realizing, by seeing that the separate person I imagined myself to be, is 'only' a bunch of thoughts and feelings, an energetic contraction thinking itself in the body. Coming from the 'no resistance' perspective feels more natural here, than applying the 'love yourself' mantra, given to an ego that doesn't know how to love anyway... Just a different pointer

The 'you' that tries to 'love itself' is the same ego that is realised to be ilusory, its absence reveals the true nature of unconditional love.

It's the devil leaving the body

I'll learn Albanian on the off chance I get to meet the one and only Albanian enlightened master

In the suicidal depression state, was your knowledge of 'all is love' intact? Did you see the depression as love as well? Do you (still) consider yourself enlightened? I've had states of mild depression that felt like the depression isn't "mine", it's just life expressing itself, and it just so happens to be felt through this body Like the spiritual saying goes, don't get attached to pleasure, don't resist pain... was there an element of this in your depression? Thanks. @WaveInTheOcean

Because neurotransmitters/brain chemistry return to the pre-enlightenment state. Start spiritual practices so you can maintain that state all the time, takes years but worth it, in parallel with trips to see what you're aiming for ...

10mg plugged or insuflated is too little, try 25mg and then increase by 2mg until breakthrough 10mg smoked you should feel, but if technique is not up to par, you may waste some of it, if that means 5mg smoked, that's not a lot. Perfect your smoking technique

@WaveInTheOcean how do you see your enlightenment now? You were 1 shining example of getting enlightened with 2cb.

Sounds like you spend lots of time reading and feeding the mind with spiritual concepts. Orient more towards practices, experiences, realizations , and less on intelectual understanding

Which part of 'you' would reincarnate in the next lifetime?

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Anthropic_principle

'you' are not a real entity, that's why your question doesn't make sense... "why are you a human being right now and not a shark for example" Your illusory sense of separate self thinks there's some substance to it, and you identify with it, that's why you ask this question and cannot find a satisfactory answer... It's like a wave asking itself "why am 'I' this wave and not that wave over there, or a whirlpool, or a tsunami?" There is no real identity to an individual wave, it's just a movement of water that it (if it had the self-reflecting capability we have) imagines it's separate from the ocean

https://samharris.org/subscriber-extras/waking-up-jim-newman/ Jim Newman apparently still has anger arising caused by bad drivers, Sam can abide in non-duality 'when he remembers' and sees anger as impossible then. 1h40min of pure delight This chat was the most useful to get Jim Newman's non-message, compared to any other talks or interviews I've seen of Jim.

Where do thoughts appear from? Relax and say "I wonder what my next thought is going to be". Then wait and see. The thought that appears, be it after 1 second, 1 minute, or 5 minutes (well done), is not controlled or generated by anyone. Where does it appear out of? Thoughts appear out of Emptiness. The person, the individual that claims ownership over the thoughts, doesn't exist. What is Emptiness? it is Everything/Reality/Source/God. The separate person thinks that to perform an action, a thought and/or an energy is needed. Since thoughts or energies are appearing out of Emptiness, actions are spontaneously happening, out of the same Emptiness. The person that likes to take credit for any perceived positive actions the body-mind is performing, and assign blame and guilt for any perceived negative actions that are happening, is illusory. There is no owner, no doer, in the sense of a separate individual. Life is just happening, and it is absolute freedom... You are not living life, Life is living you. And the kicker: all those thoughts that set you up for the evolution of Consciousness, are coming from Emptiness as well! that means that Consciousness is becoming conscious of itself, by itself, because of itself! Or another way of saying it: Life is waking Life up.

Prolong as compared to what, an alternative reality where awakening is realized quicker? Apparently there is only one reality, and whatever happens, it's because it had to happen. Stories take as much as they do, and no less. A story here is this: starting off with a thinking-heavy existence (like most people), it is seen as needed to go through the intellectual understanding of non-duality (as impossible as it is), for the separate person to "buy into" it. Going straight for the story of "thoughts are empty, there's no doer etc" wouldn't have gained much traction. The whole existence works so well, like I have designed IT Myself with infinite intelligence

Until the separate individual is realized as illusory, it needs stories, to make the conditioning more transparent and conscious. Which seems to happen there "it gives me a sense of mission that makes me feel as if there's so much to Do (must awaken!) ". Ask yourself, who must awaken? The person that thinks it must awaken, won't make it

Of course it's a story, words cannot express Truth, only point to it. If 'no stories' is a condition for interaction, may as well close down this forum... if it's here, it's a story... 'Use a thorn to remove a thorn '

Interesting how sure you are of your opinion... and how wrong, see above quotes... All I see is a bunch of egos expressing ignorance, and feeling justified in doing so Wake up!

In that case, Jim Newman also ain't got shit...