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I've had it happen a few times before. The time will change way too fast. I'll wait about 10 seconds and it will already be 5 minutes after. Haven't figured out what it means but it's pretty cool I guess.

been like 2 weeks now

Have you experienced being unconscious? How is such a thing experienced?

Something that helped me a lot is realizing deeply that a lot of your social worries are just projections. It's something you are literally imagining right now, you are imagining that other people are currently perceiving you a certain way, as if that way of perception is something set in stone. For example, someone could say something you perceive as weird, but then everyone else who perceived that didn't think it was weird at all and actually thought it was an appropriate thing to say. You are actually just projecting your own social fears onto what someone else said, and then doing that to yourself as well. This was true in my case at least, whenever someone else said something that I personally believed to be socially inept, I would be surprised to see that no one else really seemed to perceive it that way. I'm sure the same is true for you. This is a pretty deep problem, because you are actually imagining yourself taking someone else's perspective, and then also at the same time convincing yourself that they are thinking badly of you. You are basically taking responsibility for other people's projections of you. That's their problem, not yours. Next time you send a text or something that causes you anxiety, just realize that the reason you're feeling fear is because you've projected something onto what you've said that doesn't really match reality. There is no fear or anxiety outside the realm of thoughts and projections. So just make sure to notice that and detach yourself from the fantasies of your mind.

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It is a very direct and practical pointer. It goes to the root of how new realizations are made. It is simple and it does a good job of conveying lots of complexity in one sentence. You could probably contemplate this one sentence and reach multiple branches of realizations just from doing that. These psychedelic entities are apparently really good at giving succinct pointers like this. Terence McKenna had one tell him "If you don't have a plan, you become part of someone else's plan."

I'm not sure where you're downloading from, but part 2 and 3 are up on Youtube

That's a good one

I probably would not take such a thing unless there is some serious extensive research done before, and even then I would be reluctant. A magic pill to addiction that messes with dopamine receptors? Red flag IMO. There are equal costs and benefits to everything. You really have to weigh out your situation here. How bad is your addiction, is it really worth the risk? I'm reminded of people who take SSRIs and then get indefinite anhedonia after. You're messing with something we still don't fully understand.

You can even achieve prostate orgasm externally by massaging the perineum. Hard to get the hang of, but possible, and easy when you do get the hang of it. I've done it. Prostate feels way better imo

When you look at the Mona Lisa, you distinguish Mona Lisa from the background and label her as a "human" and the things behind her as a "background", even though the painting and everything inside it is actually one thing. You project that distinction onto it. Now apply that to reality.

I thought it was a guy with a suit and a hat lmao

I never intellectualized it in such a non-dual way, but shower water does make me hard if I angle it properly. Interesting, maybe there is something to be learned regarding sexuality.

The same exact method also applies to sleep paralysis, you can focus on your thoughts and imagine yourself "entering" them and it will throw you into a lucid dream from the sleep paralysis state.

Leo briefly talked about him in the Curt Jaimangal interview and questioned whether his lovey dovey persona was authentic or not

Just cause someone thinks what they are doing is good doesn't mean it isn't selfish. You can practice corruption without being aware of it, that's usually what happens. In order to be corrupt you have to first fool yourself into thinking that you're not corrupt and that whatever you're doing is justified. You bring up a good point about perspectives. Maybe the lawmakers believe their laws to be just, and the vigilante believes their laws to be unfair and corrupt. In either case, both parties believe the other to be corrupt. But also, just cause you think someone is corrupt or selfish doesn't mean they actually are. The idea that someone else is corrupt could simply be an excuse for you to practice your own corruption on them, which could be the case here from either party.

Corruption is when someone or something perpetuates selfishness. There is also the second definition, which is about something being destroyed or changed from its original state, such as a computer file being corrupted. But, I don't think you're asking about that one.

Lol this, and now Trump's new app "Truth". Interesting coincidences.

I've seen so many videos of this guy with these radical and uninformed takes. Don't know if its for attention or if he actually believes, either way pretty bad.

I think this is a function of constantly chasing some other experience. You've probably heard this like 100x from spiritual teachers, but knowing it intellectually is different from embodying it. You don't allow yourself to enjoy yourself right now because you feel there are responsibilities, things, work and whatever else left to do. You don't want to let yourself enjoy now, because there is some other experience you want to chase and arrive at. This is a never-ending cycle, because once you get that experience, you are most definitely going to envision some other experience which is "better" than that experience, and so you chase things ad infinitum. So, give yourself permission to enjoy everything right now. Treat every moment as if it is the peak of your life, as something to be enjoyed.

It happens to me sometimes when I'm tired or doing something boring or monotonous. Doesn't happen much anymore though, probably because I am not involved in such activities now. It almost seems like a way of tuning out of reality in order to save yourself the pain of doing something boring or annoying.

I love the beauty and intelligence of it. I think both of these qualities go hand in hand. And then also, being able to create that beauty and intelligence through your own mind and intellect, whether it be through music, videos, etc. Expressing yourself in that way is great. You also don't necessarily need any logic or reasoning for something to be beautiful. Just the experience itself can be beautiful. Take music for example, just these random sounds zipping about can make you feel like you're in heaven. The perception of beauty when it comes to music is completely intuitive, there is no prior logic or reasoning necessary to enjoy it. But also, in order to even appreciate how good the music is, you need to have bad music to contrast it, and so you need the bad and good all together in order to actually appreciate its beauty fully. I love how reality coincides with itself in this way, which is part of its intelligence and beauty.

How are you conscious of being unconscious?

True. You are actually experiencing nothingness right now, to a certain degree. And yes, you can perceive nothingness, as you have realized. The "nothing" behind you is actually being perceived, that is the only way you can know of it. Try to find the edge of your visual field, you can't. There is no edge. The edge is nothingness, and that nothingness is infinite and expands forever. There is simply a lack of sensation or "nothingness" at the edge. But the fact of the matter is, you are able to perceive this nothingness, and you use it to distinguish finite items in your reality like your lamp or table. It can be very hard to notice this nothingness in the finite domain, especially without a solid experience of pure nothingness or pure consciousness or turiya or whatever you wanna call it.

Yes. It is called "turiya" in hindu spirituality, or "pure consciousness" in other spiritual circles. You can't imagine it though, you can only experience it. When you try to imagine it, you are already putting it in a dualistic container, so it does not work. The experience of nothingness has no duality or finitude present. It's like trying to imagine what having no eyesight is like. It's just absent, but there is still the experience of it being absent. You don't see any colors or shades, it's just completely gone. That's what nothingness is like, but your entire reality is gone along with your eyesight, and you just exist there. If you extend the lack of eyesight to every single one of your senses, that is what nothingness feels like. It's just a complete absence of everything, but at the same time you are perceiving that absence.