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    @Javfly33 Someone said people only exist when you're aware of them. But even that's not true.

    It's like patterns of light dancing on an invisible surface. Shadows on the wall in plato's cave. Nothing really there, never was. Direct experience or no.

    There is no overstating the degree to which none of this exists.

    Direct experience is like the lunatic reminiscence of an eternal soul, of what life could have been like if there ever were a universe.

     

    Thus shall you think of this fleeting world:
    A star at dawn, a bubble in a stream,
    A flash of lightning in a summer cloud,
    A flickering lamp, a phantom, and a dream.

    -- Diamond Sutra

     

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    2 hours ago, zeroISinfinity said:

    Well did gaved advice, well whole text smell on lies but can't say it. Have to be clown. 

    Big daddy zero doesn't over transmissions he offers healing from frustrations. Lets heal painbody. 

    Lets have fun. My grandpa allowed me some play. Cares of me for some reason. 

    1st world problems lets make peeps laugh a bit. 

     I don't remember ever having seen a single useful post of yours on this forum.

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    29 minutes ago, zeroISinfinity said:

    You don’t because you are me. ;)

    PvP? 

    Now help me get swedish chick as forum mistress who needs mandy. If I get that no need to be mod here ever. 

    Spiritual frustration far more i teresting topic for me then pms and patriarchy. 

    Placing boyfriend on rotation That's God damn honesty. Wanna hear more of that stuff.

    Stop derailing threads?  ?‍♂️ 

  20. Posted · Edited by Johnny5

    2 hours ago, beastcookie said:

    Yes, I'm working with my ego triggers and inferiority complex and "lack of love, lack of attention, lack... something's missing" it's in my focus :) Purging IS happening and has been happening since february this year, but have a little left to purge!

    Yes :) I meant the purging of specific, persistent things that may not be going as well as you had hoped. Inferiority and neediness was a big thing for me, and what helped me was self-love. Even if you need external "props" to reflect love back to you, whatever works is fair game and you can't afford not to.

    And indeed sex can be a big part of how that gets expressed. There's no downside here ?. Whatever you can do to love yourself, embrace who you are, be good to yourself, etc. by all means go for it. Self-love is what enables the "purge" ("releasing" might be a nicer way of thinking about it, considering).

  22. Posted · Edited by Johnny5

    4 hours ago, beastcookie said:

    If I don't sense a high interest in my partner, emotional pain is instantly activated. I really work on myself spiritually so I can be the witnessing presence to this most of the time, but it's challenging.

     

    4 hours ago, beastcookie said:

    I guess core question is about telling productive purge from just creating new emotional pain, being desperate for attention isn't very enlightened for sure but perhaps there can be some kind of yin yang balance to it...?   

     

    Could be that "being the witnessing presence" is really just a way of keeping your distance from that pain sothat you don't have to feel it fully. In other words a coping mechanism. Alas, the only way out is through.

    If something got purged, you'd notice. If nothing changed, even after some time to recover, then nothing got purged, or you're holding on to something.

    Don't be afraid to completely wallow in your feelings for as long as it takes, if it helps to purge them. They need to be let in and processed fully, not pushed away. Trying to purge them won't work, only letting them in works. It's your full attention that they're after, and only you can set them free. (Sound familiar...? ? ) 

    Doesn't matter how "unenlightened" you think it may seem. You don't wake up by trying to act a certain way. Purging is messy, that's just how it is.

    Also, it's entirely possible that this is part of a deeper, more general issue like neediness / lack of (unconditional) self-love. If so, you may want to look into that too. That could also be a reason why purging isn't happening or why you keep recreating that pain, as the case may be.