Conscious life

my ego traps are trying to be someone like Jesus, osho etc. especially after I start to cast out demons and start healing. even though I understood I am the son of God, I create a mental negative identification to become a Messiah like Jesus. Misunderstanding life is nothing. I misunderstood completely that what nothingness is. I renounce life like a monk, instead of living it with passion, love and others postive qualities. most of us don't understand what nothingness is. nothingness is for the ego not for the higher self. the ego will love to cling to something that, there is important thing out there. not taking care of myself. not doing everyday life responsibilities. not eating too much, not keeping hygiene, sleeping, obsessed with only Sprituality. judging and trying to change others. After seeing great changes in me, trying to point people to become like me, not understanding everyone is completely different than me. everyone change itself by its time, desire and need. almost I can say I fall on to more than half of traps listed out there. I wish Leo make a video about it. it is life saving. even the greatest master have fallen in to it. Jesus, budhaa, osho, Martin Luther King, gandhi all the greatest failed in ego traps. I would consider Leo too, especially suggesting the acceptances of phidophile.

@Sucuk Ekmek knowing what?

this is good guess towards the degree of consciousness. I think consciousness ultimate will dissolve to its root, like a salt is dissolved in water. my identity as human gradually change everytime, human - god - godhead - the one. now I am already aware this identifying and dis-identification process goes to infinity, and will melt forever by infinity of consciousness.

@Gesundheit that is why truth is difficult to know it. the devil consciousness sees god as devil and the God consciousness sees the devil as God. there is no point this duality will meet.

@Leo Gura my Deepest desire is to see myself be conscious hundred times than I am now.

@Leo Gura I don't consider science to be imaginary. science is real, but the quality of science we make depends on our understanding of reality. what exactly is imaginary? I agree science can't fulfill to understand the nature of reality, and religion is needed to complete it.

After realising the nature of reality and its non dual nature, the nature of our tendency to go from society healthy extreme to the other unhelathy extreme is very high. how to avoid Zen devil. if I give example Leo suggestion about phidophile is toxic and unhealthy.

@Yarco don't conflate consciousness with mechanics.

@Enlightenment have you seen inception? have you got the idea?

@Forestluv it feels like I am talking myself. when I want to talk to the other person if feels like they didn't exist. only me talking to myself. reality is figment of the mind is absolutely correct. let time answer it.

@Forestluv OK. to the point. what do you think about on what I mention?

@Forestluv different word.

@Meditationdude I mean non dual traps. like Leo has talk about on his becoming Zen devil video, like phidophile. I think this kind of issue aren't solve by creating system like Leo has suggested. instead by transcending, by becoming holy and Saint otherwise society values will fall apart. you have to sell some of your free will to servive. phidophile issues are solve by holy communion. when you communion, you are merging with infinity and becoming one. even some animals don't eat other animals baby. the have a compassion.

@Leo Gura Leo couldn't we have another word to explain this experience than saying God. the word God is associated with unconscious assumptions about God. leo have you experience Spritual race and read about gnostic mythology. I found that to be true on my direct experience.

Leo I heard on one of your videos you have said that, the budhaa might not be fully enlightened, and others Spritual master aren't fully enlightened and access full potential of consciousness. on your guess estimate where do you label Spritual master such as Jesus, budhaa, krishna, mahvira on the Sprial. on one of gnostic text, it said Jesus failed on ego traps and didn't actualize who he was and condemn by his spirit body. later he actualized he is the godhead. this things happens to me too. every time I construct identitie it fall apart. I thought I am the son of God then, it fall apart, godhead it fallapart, to what degree do you think it will go. my identity isn't based on concept but actual conscious experience. on my estimations I think we have the capability to understand to be conscious, until we become conscious of every cell. I call it trillion consciousness or universe consciousness. I am very conscious of my sprit and soul, seeing it and knowing it which is which clearly. I also conscious some of our invisible body part and soul.

are 9 stages of ego development the ultimate human development possible or is it open-ended framework? what else could be any growth after Union with God?

@Nahm How? @Byun Sean Yes. why god is the devil in that case? God separate himself to be human. just insight won't change your ego development simply. ego has to melt by infinite light by disidentification. from my Current state of consciousness I aware I am the godhead. but there is no one to be godhead because I am one person. I am developing my own stage of consciousness model.

@Byun Sean we are going off topic.

@Nahm @Byun Sean @Nahm God realizing means it doesn't mean you have absence of ego. the ego is highly powerful motivational force, gives you drive to do something. even if you debunk every conceptual belief and idea, you won't able to cast out the ego from your instinct, physical, Spritual deep within. that is why you have yoga for physical instinct, holotrophic breath-work for Spritual ego, etc. so the ego is always is there but as deactivate state. ego is necessary for advance growth and purpose. my ego first comes as son of God, then I realized I am the godhead then, I am the one because there is no one to be the godhead, the process goes and goes. it does not mean, it stop, if we have no scientific model for the next development or it doesn't exist, humans consciousness and civilization evolve in to infinity with stage. for example Jesus sopke, he is totally everthing, he said if you the split the bread I am there, if lift, rock I am there.

@Leo Gura I fall in to it. even though I watched the video, which state warning. I think I should watch it again and correct myself.

leadership models and how to be effective leader, what are leaderships models? how to use them, thier merit and demerit. a series of leadership in broder detail. vote

@Rilles sawed it. not this kind of video but like Sprial dynamics series. what is leadership? how to lead? how to lead oneself?

@Rilles a right guy at the wrong time. you have won your bet.

@Rilles I am devil too.

@Rilles auto complete is creating the problem.