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For enlightenment deindentifying with the ego (and the products of it) is key. For meditating it is key to accept everything and let everything be. Aren't these two practises in conflict with each other? I'm kind of struggling with this question.

This kind of reminds me about one of Leo’s videos where he said you first need to accept the duality (recognizing it) before you can let the duality go.

@Villager Albert there is a whole movement called NoFap, started by young guys. Apparently it is an epidemic.

Too much masturbation can cause problems too.

This book is recommended: The Social Skills Guidebook: Manage Shyness, Improve Your Conversations, and Make Friends, Without Giving Up Who You Are

Perhaps you already read it in this thread but I picked IT consultancy. I want to specialize myself in the broader field of IT and business. Programming is part of this "big picture" understanding of IT. The reason why I want to learn programming on the side is to differentiate myself and get insights which will be useful when talking about it and writing about it. Also if I have the basics down of programming (in 10-15 year life span), it will be easier to switch over to programming(if I chose so). And you are right, skills and exp in programming is more important than a degree, but it is a pro to have an IT related background. This is my game plan.

Same with ADD. I did some research on it and the only valuable thing to do (in my perspective) is to use CBT. Try to google on ADD ADHD CBT.

Thanks for the heads up. Becoming a good software developer is long term project for me. Like on a 10-15 years plan. I also see it as a hobby. Some people say I'm wasting my time because as an IT consultant I won't need software developing skills. There is probably some truth in that but it doesn't hurt to have some knowledge about programming. By the way, I picked IT consultancy. I'm two months into my study. From what I hear from students who chose software development is that their workload is much more intenser. I can't talk about what is more or less stressful once you graduate and start working.

I’m following couple of YouTube channels on self development. I have a hard time categorizing my notes and keeping track of which videos I watched and which not. Most don’t have a signature like an episode number. I don’t want to rewatch videos because of opportunity costs. I was thinking about creating a system based on date of upload + name of the video and keeping track in excel. Do you guys do something similar to this? There are so many videos. It is easy to lose track.

How do you guys deal with them? Do you compress them? Or just categorize them and leave it like that? It is hard to categorize because some topics overflow and it is hard to keep it neat. I’m using Evernote by the way.

Is it actually possible to smell fear without being influenced by other people directly? Obviously one can “smell” fear when we see people in fear but today I could feel the fear in the air. It could be a figment of my imagination or that 10ug of lsd I took. Scientist say that brains (feelings) emanate energy. Science is not developed enough to catch fear in the air but is it possible for humans to catch fear in the air?

I highly advice Leo not to follow raw diet. It doesn't work on the long term and it will make your health issues worse. I recommend he tries the mediterranean diet. Lots of legumes, meats (including liver), fresh greens, olives, and so on.

I was addicted to it for a short while. I’m too busy to waste time like that now.

I read the book the road less traveled book by Scott Peck. It is should become a stable self-help book for spiritual and personal growth. Basically all of Actualized's content in one book (in broad lines). It puts everything together wonderfully.

Going to pop 200 ug soon. I was thinking about recording my voice. I’m afraid I will lose my insights if I don’t. What do you guys think? I couldn’t find anything on this subject on this forum.

@Yog solid plan. Could you share your list of questions when you have it?

I did a recording last year of my 15gr truffel trip. It was a pain in the ass to listen back to 3 hour recording. I never talked like that because I’m not a talker but I literally talked for 3 hours. A lot of things I said was repetition but that gave me the ability to auto correct my thoughts. It was a bad trip and talking gave me relief. Biggest downside was to having to listen back to 3 hours of mostly gibberish, to get the lessons out of it. Mind you: this was one of my first psychedelics trips so that is a factor too.

You can’t skip stages. It wouldn’t be a spiral anymore.

Short answer: yes long answer: yes, but thickness of your penis, skills in bed, your personality and so on matters as much.

I’m using this right now: https://www.actualized.org/articles/ I made my own index in OneNote and make notes accordingly to these sections It is useful however sometimes I come across a video (on YouTube or this forum) and I don’t know in which section it belongs. Is there a way to look it up? The search function doesn’t seem to give the info about in which sub section the video is listed in.

Devil doesn’t exist.

Is this really who you are or did your environment (since childhood) shape you to be this way?

You are right that we don't have control over our immune system but I don't think it is self evident we have control over our ego. Most people live on autopilot and they are not even conscious as described in the book Power of Now. Personally I don't even think highly conscious or enlightened people have free will. The universe might be deterministic and everything is just a chain reaction. Free will might be an illusion.

Eat bone marrow (soup or grilled) to boost up your immune system.

I noticed people give you that thousand mile stare at you. I guess trying to figure out what is going on. It really starting to get on my nerves. Recently I started uni and most people have jobs because it is just 1 day per week attendance. My plan was to not have a job for the coming year so I can go balls deep into spirituality, read a lots of books, do a lot of contemplation and meditation but I’m having doubts now. I think I can live with the reactions of other people but how will it look on my cv? I’m in IT by the way. I’m meeting new people and they ask what I do. When I just tell the honest answer people who are within the matrix (aka batteries of the system) just don’t respond well. Should I perhaps lie and say I have some job I don’t have?