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  1. Posted

    1 hour ago, undeather said:

    And if Leo runs down the highway with just his underwear on, is this also a pattern of self expression?
    Look, I get what you mean and its a decent point - but can you see the other side as well? I had 3 people messaging me on instagram that day, who thought Leo lost his mind. I guess you can always subjectify your version of an actualized person towards an unachievable standard of eccentricity, but thats not the point. 

    How do you know its self expression and not just delusion after all? You (propably) dont know him either. Those posts are odd and dont fit with his usual pattern of representation.As a public spiritual teacher with a huge audience, there is  a smart and grown up way to deal with such issues. Of course you can go full "expression mode" and do whatever - However, I can already tell that he lost some people right there. If this is what he really wants to do, then fine ....

    There is a difference between individuated expression of someones own identity and repulsive craziness. 

    He's not driving down the highway in his underwear though, this is exaggerating what he is doing to suit your own emotional reaction. (Imo). This isn't a judgement, i just think this is what tends to happen with these things.

    I do see the other side, and yes I don't know leo but i am not trying to explain his behaviour or posts. I am letting the man be.

    I dont think he cares for retaining people that would leave because of silly reasons. As this work is more serious than that and the work can be separated from him as a person.

    I do see the other side but nothing on his insta seemed like repulsive craziness to me. In fact the repulsive craziness, to me, is the backlash he has had / is having. 

    This backlash isnt really repulsive though, i think it was pretty expected, and very telling ?

     

  2. Posted

    45 minutes ago, undeather said:

    No, I completely disagree.
    When it comes to self-help, you can NEVER seperate the person and the content. After all, it's the person who profits from the work - its the good old waking up, growing up and showing up process Ken Wilber has been talking about for ages. The life you live, the character you reap and the insights you gain will at the end influence the person you become - its a direct function of it.

    If a guy teaches you how to overcome procrastination, then he better not be a procrastinator - but rather someone who overcame this obstacle. Now as I said - I am not accusing him of anything - I just critiqued his representation.  

    The guy who teaches you how to overcome procrastination is the guy who still sometimes succumbs to procrastination.

  3. Posted

    26 minutes ago, undeather said:

    It just doesnt fit the picture in my head of what an actualized person looks like and how he/she acts in this world. 

    Then maybe your idea of an actualized person needs some work. He's just posting on instagram and expressing himself.

    An Actualized person may not care to censor themselves regardless of which position you think they may hold.

    If he wished to post these things what is wrong with that, I dont understand?

    If you need a nice, cookie-cut, role model then there are many you could find! Leo is definitely not that and never pretends to be. 

    I think so anyways

  6. Posted

    On 19/03/2022 at 1:17 AM, Matt23 said:

    You can also look up "trip killers".  They'll help you come down from a trip relatively quickly... though i dunno if there are any for mdma.

    Thanks for the advice, i probably wouldn't ever use a trip killer. My most healing trips have been from being able to exert control and 'land the plane' if you get my metaphor.

    Just controlled breathing and reassurance from myself that the experience is temporary even if the experience of time has gone haywire. 

  8. Posted

    On 16/03/2022 at 8:44 AM, Benton said:

    When I did mdma I took a tab of acid with it. I took a lot of mdma and had no come down effects I experienced infinite love and I considered it to be the best day of my life for a while. My friend however took less mdma than me plus a tab. She was so depressed over the next three months she had to get a therapist and such. 
    I wonder if having the breakthrough into higher consciousness mitigates negative effects? Maybe she didn’t have enough water during the trip? Or was nutrient deficient? I don’t know. It’s more damaging to the brain than most psychedelics regardless. I could tell it was harder on my body than any psychedelic I’d done before while on it. Plus mushrooms and acid aren’t really chemically toxic. MDMA is. Dmt takes its toll too  I’ve noticed. But also at the same time seems to cure certain brain issues. My friend said she thinks dmt cured her autism??‍♂️ And another one said it cured his adhd. I don’t know about any of that. I just like, awakened to God and infinite consciousness you know. + aliens. I wouldn’t say it healed my bipolar per say. But my bipolar hasn’t been an issue for a long time. I don’t know if that can be specifically attributed to psychedelics though. I’ve been doing yoga and all that as well. Also I realized I’m imagining bipolar?

    I think that’s what really did it.

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    On 16/03/2022 at 3:09 AM, Kamo said:

    I personally have run trial sessions with methodical use of MDMA, to explore its potential benefits for personal development. After only a few sessions, spanning across 3 months, my conclusions where, to sum it up, "Not useful for personal development due to strong negative side effects that follow use." MDMA can cause neurotoxicity, and depression. It will definitely unbalance your neurochemistry for a few days as you already experienced. It Inhibits motivation and progress in other areas of your life. This is unsustainable long term. The high overwhelms your receptors and leaves your dopamine, norepinephrine and serotonin levels drained, all which influence emotions and psychology. Interesting insights were achieved but at high cost, the reduction in normal mental functioning. It delivered no long term useful benefit. MDMA can open up the emotions and potentially bring mystical experiences but I would suggest limited use. Once a year max, for experimental purposes only, however if you do do more you can directly experience for yourself why this substance is not useful. The backlash makes it not worth it.

    The blocks your referring to will only be temporarily removed during the high itself and will most likely return and possible be worse than they began, because now your neurochemistry is disrupted and you have a significant contrast reference experience to how you normally feel. That high state cannot be maintained from consistent MDMA use over time and will not raise your baseline as an outcome. Although potential "healing" is possible in certain cases, depending on the individual. It is damaging normal brain functioning during the process. You cant notice the harmful effects till it wears off. An unavoidable outcome. Its kind of like raising the voltage on a light bulb, Yes you'll be burning brighter and maybe get to see things you didn't expect to see but your also degrading the integrity of the filament faster. MDMA works the same way on your receptors. 

    However but not recommended combining with LSD and Psilocybin Mushrooms, with proper dose and timing, In 3 different combinations brought insights into the nature of reality and state changes in consciousness that proved to be beneficial experiences in understanding nuances of consciousness.  You can learn more about "what consciousness is doing"  But these insights are due primarily to the psychedelic addition and I would suggest that using those is what actually delivered the insights I gained during the sessions they were implemented along side MDMA. MDMA itself may show you what higher states of consciousness may be like but it will only hinder true progress into actually getting there. To address your question more directly, You said you feel "blocked" emotionally, mentally, and psychologically, All 3 of these are influenced by and dependent upon healthy neurochemical levels, which MDMA will absolutely alter, I would suggest MDMA is not a viable method to "unblock" these and will most certainly cause more damage. I might add a quick analogy, If your baseline is a 5 it will raise you to an 8 then drop you to a 3.

    Hope this was useful to you.  Always keep in mind "Set, Setting, Safety and Dosage"

    Thank you for clearly articulating this! I think this is what I needed to hear. Really useful information ?! Such a nice way to explain the ideas. ❤️

  9. Posted

    9 hours ago, kamwalker said:

    MDMA gets demonized a bit because of its potential for abuse and supposed neurotoxicity. People who take too much, too high of a dosage, too frequently and sometimes already have a mentally unstable mind are going to be at a higher risk of a bad experience.  If you use it responsibly you can avoid almost all of that.

    I have taken it several times a year for the last 5 years without a bad experience. My last time was a few weeks ago and was ground breaking for me in terms of my connection to reality. I'm the happiest I've ever been. Not saying I'm immune from a bad experience, but I take basic some precautions. 

    1) Keep the dosage reasonable. I don't cross 120 mg, I actually prefer to stay closer 100 mg. 

    2) Stay away from redosing. You will feel a noticeable difference in your physical and mental state the next day and I think this is honestly where a lot of comedowns stem from.

    3) Test your shit of course, make sure it's actually MDMA. 

    4) Exercise, eat well, meditate. Take care of yourself and don't rely on the drug alone to create a positive experience for you. I'm usually already beaming with joy before even taking it. 

     

     

    Thanks for the reply! Means a lot!

  10. Posted · Edited by Brenzo2

    I have been researching the safety of MDMA in humans, short-term & long-term. And there isn't too much solid consenus. I've just basically done a lot of googling, reddit, trip-reports.

    The basics I've worked out to keep health optimal are:

    • Ensure you're taking supplements to minimise comedown symptoms.
    • Take a minimal dose, but effective, i.e. in the 80/90/100mg range.
    • Don't fall into repeat usage under any circumstances. (At most once a year).
    • Ensure your stuff is clean and tested.

    I don't plan on using this substance purely recreationally and will probably do this in a controlled apartment setting focusing on areas I feel I am blocked emotionally, mentally, psychologically.

    My main intention is to access states of healing that I've not yet experienced using LSD, shrooms, or other psychedelics. 

    I did have one experience a few years back in a non-optimal setting & uncontrolled dosage due to a friend 'wanting me to have a good time'. This resulted in a couple weeks long imbalance, chemically induced feelings of sadness, and small amounts of anxiety.

    I have never experienced any negative longer-term effects since the comedown had worn off. And it had definitely been a larger dose as I had found out from my friend afterwards.

    This was incredibly teaching and while I did learn a lot from the mdma-induced 2 week long comedown; I would not like to repeat this.

    I know there are posts about MDMA but nothing too recent and up to date.

    Can anyone provide any info on how to take this more safely or is it pretty Impossible to judge? I'm a newbie when it comes to MDMA.

    Just don't want to do any long term damage to myself as that would contradict the self-actualisation aspect to the point of this whole experiment.

    Literally any help will be appreciated if you're willing.

     

  12. Posted

    50 minutes ago, bambi said:

    So does that mean this previous videos should be dismissed? As you claim that God is an infinitely re-incarnating sentient being, probing itself forever, lifetime after lifetime. You state that all humans and animals are different perspectives God is gong to re-incarnate into

     

    I understand that essential there is only one singular point that is imagine a single moment, but this moment essentially changes an infinite number of times, to encapsulate what we call an infinite number of experiences, comprising an infinite number of 'beings' or 'egos' or 'probes' -- is this what your saying

    Have you got a final position on this or are you still trying to figure all this out ?

    I think the phrase 'God is an infinitely reincarnating sentient being'; more refers to God being every living thing (everything) at once.

    Not sure if you'd reincarnate literally if you are being it all at once. 

    My understanding is that you won't reincarnate because you aren't even really in this incarnation. There aren't any other incarnations to re-incarnate. Just you. If it's all you anyway who are you going to re-incarnate into? Hahahaha.

     

  15. Posted

    47 minutes ago, RMQualtrough said:

    Look into a mirror. You know the person in the mirror is just the image reflected in the mirror, you know it is not a sentient being. You don't find awareness in the head of the image of the person in the mirror, you find it here.

    When looking at other people, that is also where they are.

    There is NO NEED to rob them of their lives and perception as Leo has been teaching. As long as you understand it is happening "here" and NOT in the image's head. The person is just an image... You think you experienced more than whatever finite set of experience is on your mind right now: e.g. if you aren't currently looking at green, you believe you have experienced green in the past and that it was experienced by you from the perspective of here.

    The only way you can attach you-ness to that memory of seeing green once is because you remember it. And that is when people believe in p-zombie solipsism, when they believe in linear time and also neglect the memory function. See another person's perspective is just like your perspective last week, except you don't remember it.

    This is allowed for by there not being any real linear time. Linear time is the only way the infinite can be experienced (if you overlayed a bunch of separate colors, none of those individual colors remain as they all intermingle).

    When you say "There is NO NEED to rob them of their lives and perception as Leo has been teaching", what teachings of Leo are you talking about?

    I understand & appreciate your reply!

  16. Posted · Edited by Brenzo2

    Why is Solipsism often associated with loneliness, detachment, and feelings of indifference to the outside world, why may it be interpreted this way, with this kind of spin on it by some minds? I have even known someone who had this experience.

    Since discovering Solipsism in my early teens and contemplating throughout my twenties; having lots of new insights etc. I have become less lonely, less detached, had less indifference to the world.

    The reality that 'other' doesn't exist is not sad or negative. 'other' doesnt exist because all is the self. And if there is nothing but self then there can be nothing outside of the self to compare it to. This is the same as it not existing and as there being no self.

    This doesn't mean to say we act as if, or believe that there is no self as is conceptually understood though. We still play roles and get along with life as we did before just fully recontexualised?

    Can anyone else share their thoughts or their own personal experiences / insight with Solipsism?

    I do see the irony & paradox in this thread. And while I'm not really looking for confirmation or to change my mind, I welcome any thoughts anyone would like to share, or questions.

    Excluding Leo as he doesn't want to speak on this topic anymore & that's totally ok.

  17. Posted · Edited by Brenzo2

    Ok dude. Try a different consumption method.

    (1) Lemon Tek.

    (2) Shroom Tea

    Both have kicked in within 15 mins. I'm fairly experienced with psychedelics. & Even this kicks my ass sometimes.

    I think the science is that the psilocybin breaks down into psilocin. Saving your body the digestive work and extracting that sweet sweet nectar.

     

  18. Posted

    6 hours ago, Esilda said:

    @Gabith  Time to find a drug dealer on the street :P j/k, I've honestly never had any drugs before basically all of my friends though have at least has a little bit of pot! I don't even drink either because its so sensitive to my nervous system, I would only be a social drinker and if that I'd just be pretending to drink it lol.

    I would like to try it though, I just totally wouldn't know who to speak to where I am.

    If you seek, you shall find ☺️???

  19. Posted · Edited by Brenzo2

    Or microdose San Pedro cactus powder. Like MDMA, the active ingredient Mescaline is a Phenylethlamine. Very social, euphoria boosting, consciousness increasing, present moment awareness. There is definitely a more social aspect compared to shrooms or LSD I find. Without the negative effects that MDMA can produce too! No bad comes downs :D

    (San Pedro or just Mescaline)

  20. Posted · Edited by Brenzo2

    4 hours ago, Preety_India said:

    @RoerAmit  I like logical guys.

    I don't like "stupid and fun" the way Leo says it.

    I don't even know what that means. 

    But I would be turned off if a guy was acting stupid because it would mean  I'm stupid.

    So the answer to your question will be that you be your authentic self.

    I don't know about hot girls. But my advice will for authentic women.

     

    I think 'stupid and fun' is just refering to being silly & not taking yourself too seriously.

  21. Posted · Edited by Brenzo2

    19 minutes ago, Leo Gura said:

    Only because you haven't fully realized it yet.

    You've licked the jawbreaker once or twice. You must lick it to the core.

    What does that feel like??? I've been sitting in the dream-like nature of reality for a few years now.

    It's just pretty obvious & peaceful now. At first it was terrifying and awful but it's more freeing than anything but that took a perspective shift & a leap.

    I'm still sitting in it & contemplating in it regularly but I can't see where the road will go? (roads in dreams don't have to lead anywhere :P). Even acquiring more in this dream doesn't make me fear the 'dreamness'. It's just fun in the dream!

    Do you have any pointers that could guide me to investigate further? Or maybe you can tell I'm missing something by what I've said? Would be appreciated :).

    I understand that the whole of reality is a dream. It is not physical. It is not mental. It is pure dream stuff. No atoms. No particles. No conscious entities. No cups. No night & day. All dream. Not sure how to put into words my understanding of it. Even understanding is a dream, nevertheless a useful one in the relative domain. 

    Am I speaking out my ass? I get nobody can validate this but myself & I know I have, but I could be self-decieved. Feedback helps a great deal sometimes :ph34r:. Even if it is dream feedback.

     

  22. Posted · Edited by Brenzo2

    1 minute ago, Leo Gura said:

    Don't be so surprised.

    You were told life is a dream. That is EXACTLY what it is. This is not some cute metaphor.

    Just clarifying! I feel like I've had direct experiences of the dream nature of reality. That's not too much of a shocker!:P Thank you for responding though :D.