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  1. @d0ornokey I just watched one of Mark Freeman's videos on YouTube. This guy is a game changer. Thanks. Btw do you suffer from OCD?
  2. @sausagehead What if you can heal? I have healed some old deep trauma from my childhood using holotropic breathwork & shrooms. There are many techniques available and YES it is very diffucult but still worth it. But what's the alternative? Noone can guarantee you that you will heal.
  3. @Nahm I meditate once a day. Do you think meditating twice a day is better? If yes then why.
  4. @Jkris Game = Life If it wasn't murder,torture,terrorism then no evolution would occur. If everything was rainbows & sunshine noone would appreciate the Goodness of life. You appreciate good only because there is evil. Leo says everything is Perfect.
  5. @Serotoninluv Maybe Perfect with the capital P is also relative & a concept imagined by human minds. Maybe things just are & everything else we attach to reality is a projection of the human deluded mind.
  6. @Serotoninluv Is it Perfect? Is it Imperfect? Or is it both? Or maybe none of the above?
  7. @Serotoninluv This is an anomaly. God is not Perfect. Everyone gets to decide & have their own (biased) opinions but in the end it's all relative.
  8. @Serotoninluv I am up for all of that. Nor do i consider anyone inferior or superior to anybody else But still it makes me wonder why there are so many anomalies in this world. It's crazy.
  9. @Inliytened1 To be honest my concern is not than an intellectually disabled person won't get enlightned but i can't wrap my mind arounds so many anomalies & defects. It seems like a mistake or something generated from randomness. Maybe God does mistakes so he can learn from them. Maybe it it Imperfect & Perfect at the same time like you said.
  10. @Nahm @Serotoninluv Thank you a lot both! I really appreciate your time & effort into helping others on this forum. I take notes and will do some serious changes otherwise its not going well for me. I need to break this stupid cycle of thinking/obessing & overanalyzing. Great point. I constantly get the urge to overanalyze, to think about something that causes me anxiety in order to "fix" it somehow.
  11. I was reading this article & made me kinda depressed --> https://www.scienceandnonduality.com/article/perhaps-our-fears-are-not-ours Does this mean we are somehow doomed to our genetics? @Serotoninluv I would like to listen your input aswell since you are a scientist. The below quote is also from the same website. "Rather than going to war with fear – and deeming it a mistake or problem that you must eliminate, transform, or transcend – the invitation is to enter into relationship with it. Fear has been wired into your nervous system for millions of years and is unlikely to be undone in a few decades through spiritual process. You can rest in the strong likelihood that fear may arise most every day for the rest of your life, in some form or another. Welcome. You are alive."
  12. @Nahm True.Thank you. @Serotoninluv To be honest after reading your 1st reply on this topic i got anxious and obsessional again because my mother indeed suffered a lot of stress when she was pregnant with me & apparently she got hit in the belly once aswell (while carrying me). Now i am extremely anxious about how this event might have permanently affected/altered me in some way. I know it's irrational and stupid but still i worry about it.
  13. @Nahm I have already started a meditation practice. It helps but i definetely need more of it. I also want to somehow reprogram my mind & stop being anxious/obsessed over every single detail.
  14. @Serotoninluv So... we are doomed! Now i have to spend thousands of hours working to solve unwanted conditioning & i might not even be able to reverse most of it. There are no guarantees. This is quite depressing but hey it's life.
  15. I am working towards my Life Purpose right now & am trying to find my top values & embody them. I also have a deep desire for Truth which has been developed a lot the last 3 years wathing actualized.org. Now my question is what does it mean to say that you want Truth for Truth's sake? I think i know what it means but i am not sure. I constantly ask myself Why do i want / value the Truth & can't get an answer besides that i want the Truth because i want the Truth. Is that "irrational" or wrong ? At which point do you hit rock bottom & stop asking the Why question?
  16. @jbram2002 You assume that it is nonexistent. Maybe there is an Absolute Truth.
  17. @Preetom Wanting the Truth because you feel hatred towards falsehood is a negative motivation. I am not saying that it's wrong though. I don't really know anymore.
  18. @Robi Steel Finally someone answers my original question It's difficult for my egoic mind to accept that i want Truth for no reason other than Truth itself. It goes contrary to my social conditioning & culture in general and sometimes it feels like its just "wrong".
  19. From the Absolute standpoint i can understand how Everything is Natural and "unnatural" is just a concept. BUT still i am wondering Why 99% of people live in falsehood, delusion & ego ? Why almost everyone has a "us vs them" mentality ? So my conclusion is that being deluded and all ego-driven seems to be the most natural thing in the world and awakening on the other hand seems very very "unnatural". Why God designed it this way ?
  20. @Preetom Why do you want the Truth? (Let's assume you do, i am trying to get an answer).
  21. @Robi Steel Yes God has no limits but it puts many limits upon us. I would love my potential to be unlimited But I don't know which is the case .It seems we are very very limited (as humans). My ego doesn't like this scenario but i think to a certain extent we are doomed by our genetics & old ancestors.
  22. @Truth Addict I don't know at this moment. I just don't wanna be deluded.