Peo

I self inquired into my true nature for 50 minutes, with a silent mind. My intuition then told me to look at my feet and close my eyes and opened them again many times. After some few minutes with looking at my feet suddenly I realized that there were no one looking at my feet. Then i got overwhelmed by this emptiness all over me. My heart began to beat like crazy and it felt like dying. This was also my first panic attack. I failed to surrender to the emptiness unfortunately. I just ran away from the emptiness and watched youtube videos to calm my self down. This was my first enlightenment experience.

I know at least were to go when i want some pilocybin

let us say i have done a 3 dayes solo retreats and then my next solo retreat i just go straight for a 30 days solo retreat, with using pure self discipline. I just ignore my emotions and my monkey mind and keep going. Will this lead to a really strong ego backlash so strong ego backlash, that it will just knock me right off my spirtual journey permanently? Or will i just become so depressed that i will considere suicide? Do self discipline have limits or can i push it endless? Maybe i should try this out and see what happens. Maybe i will just go from 3 days solo retreat to 30 days and see how far i can push it.

unfortunately these scientist are getting lost in the math.

when quantum physics debunks materialism

I only feel this in my spine when i do self inquiry and something scares me, but i don't know if it is energy or if it just a tingling sensation. For me it usually starts from my butt and then this energy or whatever that thing is it goes through my spine to my head. Although i don't know if i can will it.

I read about people on this forum have had a nondual experience and realized god on weed. I just wonder how do you guys get these nondual experiences on weed? Do i need to take a higher dose of weed to realize god or do i need to meditate and self inquiry while i'm on weed.

Yes i am a newbia at this marijuna. I have only somked some few weeks ago for the first time

I have taken hashish. According to wikipedia hashish has the same effects as cannabis. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hashish

What type of substances?

Here is a better question, can anmials attain enlightenment?

@Leo Gura have you become conscious of past life times yet? Have you become conscious other heads of the hydra?

Maybe you should seek professional help. A good psychology might help you. You could also try shamanic breathing. I hear it is pretty good and can heal a lot of your inner deamons.

Do the do nothing technique. That one is much easier then to try to do something like to detach from your thoughts.

your right about that lying down meditation is much easier and less painful. The only problem with lying down is that it is much easier to fall asleep.

I just wonder is fearlessness an good strength to have while you take 5 meo dmt. If your fearless you wont fear the truth even if it will kill you and mindfuck you.

No, my sources is coming from Leo

You dont know how deep samadhi state you can attain. You would just fool yourself if you think you have arrived at the end. You can take a 5-Meo dmt and experience something deep shit and the next day you take a another 5-Meo dmt that is even deeper. Enlightenment is really big.

I think the reason people dont fully die is because they havent surrender totally and some other factor we dont know yet. Some people totally surrender and die, while others just come back to the illusion.

I thought leo said that these high states of consciousness you achieve with 5-Meo DMT were almost impossible to reach with meditation unless you were some yogic living in a cave for 30 years of your life. It is impressive that you have experience these things without Psychedelics.

I just wonder can i use LSD+Meditation technique to get these high state of samadhi?

which psychedelic should i take?

These deep spiritual questions like why is there something rather then nothing, or what is reality, or questions about god. Can i answer these questions intellectual or do i need a mystical experience to answer these questions? Is it a waste of time to ask these questions when I'm not in a mystical experience? Sorry if my english is bad

Would not you just replace porn with a girlfriend. Insted of looking at porn you will rather then look at your girlfriend.

The only way i mange to cure my porn addiction was, that i watched porn so much that i got tired of it. I just watched it so much i eventually it just became boring and my addiction faded away. But if you have watched porn for over 9 years of your life i quess you dont get tired of watching porn.