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Imo; you don't want to be going through your day in that mode. Because Society. And many more reasons. But... every time I do the method; I feel the afterglow for a while. My senses are sharper. I am more in tune with reality. And that's perfect for getting shit done in life. Well I assume that's because you're perceiving separation. Myeah, I get what you mean... But I think that's being used as an excuse for not doing the work far too often. 'Oh, I'm already it. I'm already God. Already enlightened. This is it. There is nowhere else to get.' While all that may be true... At the end of the day; it's just mind-chatter. And many get stuck on it.

@Natasha Thanks! Lovely thread

Awesome! Thanks everyone!

Die To Self I gave my light to you I gave my breath to you My time to erode Your time to be born My blood in yours My word; your voice Unsee me in this light Shine through me End the night In Love we are One Forever with you Now that I'm gone

I laughed so hard I entered full God mode

@Kalo Happy for you. Glad you extracted what you needed from the experience. Ultimately; it is a game, yes. But it may not seem so while you're being swallowed whole by it. Hence the information.

@alomorti Thank you. That is very kind of you. I am glad that you find it helpful/useful. It is my absolute joy, pleasure and honor to share insights here. It helps me a lot in my personal journey. And it always warms my heart when I see others benefiting from that. Much love and respect to you. And best of luck with your work.

@kieranperez Thanks for adding that. I like a few points you made. But I would disagree that shadow work cannot be done on your own. I understand if you find it a bit woo woo the way I put things here. I am simply sharing stuff from my experience. As well as what I heard of some people who's opinion I value a lot. There is a reason why things sound the way they do. Surely there are many ways to go about doing this work. There is not only one right way. - As with anything. One can reflect back on their behaviour and recognize unconscious tendencies. It's not rocket science. While you might go unconscious while in the heat of the moment; you can bring light to it and understand the behaviour when the dust settles - so to speak. Do this often enough and the unconscious tendencies will slowly but surely dissolve. Also; I do not equate shadow work with healing trauma. Yes, a link can be drawn and there certainly are some similarities when it comes to doing the work; but I like to differentiate the two. I find it easier to tackle things that way. Here's a few words I shared of healing deep trauma - in case you or anyone else is interested in reading it; I imagine I will be diving deeper into that in my future posts related to the topic. In this thread I'm kinda focused on another thing. Mainly; how to cope, act or respond when you are in a conscious position and are encountering darkness or unconsciousness. How to stand for Light when darkness attacks. And also; how to tame that beast and turn it into your servant.

Yeah, I'm getting real good at those

Can you feel it? Do you see it, too? If I tune into my personal experience, as well as that of the collective; things are clashing left and right. Lots of walls tearing down. Lots of dualities collapsing. Aliens are now here and that's totally chill. More and more people are all of the sudden Gods and that's nothing weird. I'm not saying it should be - don't get me wrong. I'm just amazed by witnessing how something that used to be unthinkable is now becoming the jam your neighbor's rockin'. It's becoming mainstream, I guess. Common sense. It's kinda beautiful, too. I'll call it: 'The Great Merging'. The point where the old dissolves into the new. The outdated into the updated. The limited into the evolved and expanded. The basic into the advanced. I'm excited about 'the future'. I think I will live to see incredible breakthroughs on a collective level. I can tell we are accelerating. We are getting closer to the Light! But, in the meantime, things might get a bit ugly. - Just sayin'. Those who are not aware of this transition and are caught in the middle will not exactly enjoy the ride - I imagine.

My previous post kinda ties in nicely with what I wanted to share next. And that is the topic of... Judgment. *Dun dun duuun!* That's a big one. Judgment goes in all directions. Anything it can judge; it will. Itself included. Then again; it can also be a useful tool. Judgment separates. Or creates an illusion of separation - if you will. It divides. It splits reality into two (and more). It creates a boundary between the stuff that you prefer and the stuff that you don't. It is an illusory point of view from which one observes two sides and tries to pick one over the other. One has to go. The other must remain. Hopefully; you can see how that can be an issue when integrating aspects of yourself and reality that are seemingly contradictory and/or undesirable. But something that might not be so obvious is the times when judgement actually can assist you in your evolution. At some point in experience; it can be helpful to judge. To divide. To separate yourself from something that you do not prefer to be or identify as. It might not be the most clean and classy way to go about things; but judgement gets the job done, nevertheless. When it comes to doing shadow work though; it will more often than not cause trouble. If you judge the shadow, the darkness, the unconscious that you're witnessing; you will be unable lift it into light. You will be unable to transform and/or integrate. You will find yourself entangled. Stuck in a loop of judging the one who judges. Judging those who judge you or others. Or any other version of the loop. You also cannot truly stand your ground if you judge the words or actions of the one you're relating to. You cannot be whole and judge at the same time. Not actually. Only in lala-land. Which is cool, too. It has its place. But it's not where one should be stuck at. When there is no judgement towards any perceived darkness or nastiness coming from someone else and seemingly aiming at you; there is clarity. There is spaciousness. There is time to respond wisely. There is breath. There is space for feeling. There is no need for that feeling to be rejected and banished. You simply breathe through it. You melt it away by the power of your heart's radiance. It dissolves into The Light of God. Consciousness. My last point - I guess - is when you actually decide to give yourself the permission to judge the crap out of everything and everybody. Silently; on the inside. That can be a part of shadow work, too. The important thing here is, ofcourse, not to get lost in this and turn it into your reality. It is just a practice. If done correctly; judgement should dissolve naturally, over time. One should feel relieved, at peace, but also wiser, more mature, whole and integrated. If you don't get to that point; you judged things poorly. More on judgement later... Also; Fear.

@lmfao Thanks for sharing that. I appreciate the transparency. I noticed on this journey people don't exactly like to expose themselves. To be real, down to earth and vulnerable. As if doing that would make them seem less enlightened, or less awake. They avoid anything that has to do with the individual. Not to suggest that they identify with it. Which Ironically only makes it more obvious that they have not transcended the self. What that actually is, is a giant spiritual shadow. So yeah, thanks again for demonstrating what truly counts and matters. - Honesty. Authenticity. Transparency. Truth.

Always keep seeking. No matter what anyone tells you. No matter what you find.

Can you get to a place where you feel frustrated - or angry, even - for not being able to feel life fully? If yes, that would be a great starting point.

To me it felt a bit like this;

@Pericles Sri Lanka

@kinesin I hear ya. Great stuff. Thanks for clarifying.

You must allow yourself to be spontaneous. Stop calculating all your steps in your head before taking them. Leave some room for improvisation. Learn how to tap into the flow. If you can; embark on a spontaneous journey into the unknown. Don't plan too much. Just go. Just do it. Experience will grant you the qualities you seek.

Well that must suck. Been living in a third world country for 2 years. Witnessed all kinds of stuff. I don't know what else could I suggest other than to move somewhere else. Hopefully you find a way to do that. Apparently a lot of people from India find a job in Dubai/Abu Dhabi. I imagine the conditions are not the best; but I think it's still an upgrade. You could establish connections there and slowly climb up the ladder. I would not suggest staying where you are for too long. You need contrast. All your mind know now is poverty. And you must change that if you want a better life. Hope you find your way. Best of luck.

So here's a short intro to how you could go about this consciously and willingly; Let's say you discover through introspection and contemplation that one of your shadowy impulses is telling you to pursue meaningless sex and waste your money on whatever the heck you feel like spending it on in the moment. Let's say you truly wanted to have that experience and integrate it into who you are. But let's also say you are deeply passionate about your purpose and have a grand vision for your life and the world you live in. The conscious way to go about this (assuming that you can afford it) is to make a vow. A vow that will serve a purpose of waking you up when it's time. Once its purpose is served it simply dissolves back into nothingness. The vow should sound something like this; 'Ok... I obviously feel a strong resonance with having meaningless sex and not caring about money.. I will commit to that experience fully and dedicate *this much* of my time and invest *this amount* of money in it. If things get too out of hand or I realize I made a wrong choice; I will wake up.' Essentially; you're putting yourself under hypnosis. You're putting yourself to sleep. But also; setting your alarm. The vow is your tiny light guiding you through the experience. Ofcourse; this is just one example. The scenario can look like anything. Point is; you make a conscious decision to give yourself the experience your shadow wants to act out. You calculate and create the time and space for the experience to unfold. You make sure yours and everyone else's safety will not be jeopardized. And then... you dive in. As mentioned before; another great way to jump into and/or merge with the dark side of you is... music. Lovely, awesome, epic music. Intense music. Dark, loud and heavy music - even. But also; sad and depressing music. You name it... This is - in my opinion - a much safer and much more gratifying way to explore and express certain dark thoughts and feelings. You can really get deep and far with music. Here's a good example of the loud, heavy, dark and somewhat disturbing kind; https://youtu.be/VRPxao3e_jY And here's a wonderful example of the sad, depressing and hauntingly beautiful kind; https://youtu.be/zEmtfA8FETc Get creative!

@BipolarGrowth Right back at you ?

On a second thought; I'll just keep posting in this thread shadow-related content. It will be easier to see the whole picture this way. Also; if anyone feels like adding any resources that are relevant to the topic, or just wants to add their thoughts - please do. I'd appreciate it. So... A few more pointers crossed my mind earlier today... One of those is regarding this 'issue' of losing yourself in your shadow. Being completely taken over by it. Not seeing a way out. Not even being aware of such a possibility. You are simply locked in.. Until the shadow's grip loosens and lets go of you - naturally, over time. I'm sure you can think of being in a situation like that before. It happens to all of us at some point in experience. We get sucked in, chewed and then spat out. Until we master our craft - that is. So here's the thing: You need contrast. You must be very familiar and comfortable with The Light in order to be able to transform the darkness. It is only when the light of awareness pierces through those dark clouds that you can flip things around - so to speak. Simply put; you must cultivate conscious awareness in your direct experience. In your everyday life. Awareness (Light) should be the number one 'thing' you're focusing on. It should be emphasized and checked in with on regular basis. Meaning; you should strive towards being (more) conscious at all times. You should be in touch with your thoughts and sensations, but not lost in those. When awareness (Light) becomes the source of your experience; there will be little to no chance for you to be taken over by the shadow. By darkness. But still... it can happen. You could be having the most casual, chill day - and boom! Something happens out of nowhere that triggers you and pulls you down under. You should never underestimate life's ability to surprise you. To catch you off guard. Or to test you, even. To see how well can you wave your magic wand. How deeply have you mastered Light. In those times; if the Light within you is truly known; contrast will scream in your face. It will be so damn obvious that you're no longer in heaven - so to speak. It can literally feel like you entered a totally new, independent reality. One that has nothing to do with where you were just moments before. The same rules do not apply. Things can work in drastically different ways 'down there'. You may not be able to love n light it all away. Sometimes you will have to get your hands dirty. But... You will be following the Light. No matter how small or how distant it seems; you see it. The Light will guide you back home. Yes, you are already and alway home. But that may not seem so when darkness dawns on you. Not at all. To summarize; Emphasize awareness and conscious living. Know your heart and mind. Love your heart and mind. Understand how relating to others works. Understand their point of view. Know your boundaries and your values. Be aligned with your purpose... All that will grant you the tools and skills you need for anything life can throw at you. One can also jump into that endless black pit willingly and consciously. Maybe you're worried you'd damage yourself seriously or simply not be able to climb back up... And your worry is only natural. More on that later...

Against thought...