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  1. Dude you don't know how 5-meo will mix with your medication. There was a guy on here before covid who couldn't sleep, he boiled it down to the 5-meo mixing with another western medication he was taking.
  2. From my perspective none of this permanently justifies eating inflammatory food. Inflammation is an immune reaction, meaning you're either making yourself sick with what you're eating or allowing your body to heal. If someone is recovering from literal starvation restricting calories wouldn't be wise advice. As for people healing from trauma, how will they fully integrate their trauma if their food choices killing their gut flora and therefore making them depressed, or exposing them to heavy metals so they have adhd, its hard to do inner work with adhd. I have never tracked calories or successfully limited my quantities of food. I eat as much as I feel like, am in love with preparing whole foods and enjoy everything I eat. I used to skip classes at school to stuff myself until I ached.
  3. https://www.smh.com.au/politics/federal/australia-becomes-first-country-to-recognise-psychedelics-as-medicines-20230203-p5chs6.html?fbclid=PAAaaEID0BcqCfqDIzLTNJE5xB-sCmOcrIVQow1HfbMmuxTWPMHK_78rd0RLw
  4. I recently listened to the 6 Pillars of Self Esteem Audiobook a couple times through. One of the pillars is Self-Assertiveness. This inspired me to list my boundaries in my commonplace book (I can't believe I hadn't already done this). These are three solid boundaries I have drawn from 22 years of my life experience, definitely open to change: - I don't consume anything that I don't want to. Someone buys me a drink, I don't have to drink it, it is Christmas lunch with my family, I will sit there with an empty plate and socialise. I choose what goes in my body and nobody else has autonomy over this. - I don't let people discourage me from doing anything constructive. No appointment with anyone can interfere with my current practices e.g. Yoga, Self-Help courses I'm doing. - if somebody hasn't researched or thought about a topic, I don't have to continue the conversation.
  5. That's a good point, there are definitely nuances and exceptions. E.g. with my boundary about people stopping me from positive habits. Usually I go to sleep with a taped mouth for health reasons, but when my girlfriend stays over she asks me not to. I'm sort of happy to because she only stays over once every week/fortnight.
  6. Dude I've seen this kind of mindset applied IRL, I lived with and have been around Red Pill guys. Your fundamental beliefs around masculinity are flawed, and it will undoubtedly sabotage your results with women. 'The Boxing Ring' will ruin your chance at cognitive development. Any dreams of a deep perspective or profound contemplation will be ruined. Even your communication will suffer from frequent trauma to the head. There are other Rites of Passage for men, a good one is Game. Ice baths, public speaking, wilderness survival, jiu jitsu... there are other ways to challenge and shape yourself without hurting your brain. David Deida is a good role model for masculinity.
  7. I was wondering this today @Leo Gura A self help video game would be a dope niche for someone's LP regardless.
  8. How does Tate end up on this forum? You would have watched Leo's Spiral Dynamics Series years ago, but you're noting "insights" from some Stage Red guy who would pimp your mother. People like Tate are mistaken for world philosophers tragically, Tate isn't a guy with a worthwhile perspective, he is a person with niche skills. Sure if you want to emulate his skills, take notes - write his biography, sure. But you'll end up with brain damage from combat sports, health issues from the shit he eats, and as we've seen recently you'll end up in jail.
  9. This is all fair except for the drinking part, you not being self assertive enough to not drink is on you.
  10. Dude drop this shit, you know it is silly. You are exposing yourself and those around you direct to Antimony when smoking. Leo mentioned some sort of organic vape once, maybe research stuff like that as a transition. How can you self actualize whilst breathing heavy metals?
  11. Good fun, make sure you do high volume and quality sets, and prepare for funny adventures and some liberating blow-outs
  12. I think there's like quercetin in red grapes, so if you had a little bit of red it could deflame your cells. I mean in saying that the alcohol itself would be inflammatory, and not that good for your liver. I can demolish a bottle of Biodynamic wine, not other wine compares imo, can see it becoming a problem so I cut it out.
  13. Dates fall through, get used to it. Also get used to walking a tight rope of trying to organise a locked in date, and being too needy and messaging her too often. IME it's a fine line. If you don't have lots of sexual options your mindset should be "okay well if this date falls through I'll just go out tonight and meet someone else". If you have lots of options it would be "okay who else might be free".
  14. Very difficult to get 99%, especially in Australia. Leo managed to track some down and basically said it enhances your experience of love a fuck ton. Same precautions as any psychedelics I presume, understand what you're taking, draw off the experiences of people who've taken it before. MDMA in Australia gets cut with nasty stuff, they tested a bunch of pills at a music festival a few years ago which came back 100% meth. Its critical to test your pills.
  15. Dude I'm so sorry you're going through this. I had problems with binge eating for years, I was on this forum like once a month looking for answers. I really feel for you I remember skipping school classes and sitting in my parent's cabinet just stuffing my face until my belly ached, the shame that followed. Someone on this forum recommended the book Brain Over Binge, can even listen to the audiobook if you don't feel focused enough to read. Pretty much set me straight. You've got some big lessons to integrate here, don't feel like you can't come back from this.
  16. I have commented on a lot of posts about my experience with game so have felt like writing this. Where I came from: I had various sexual experiences, aside from intercourse from the age of about 16. From the age of 16 onwards I kept running into this barrier where girls would consent to sex, and then I would lose my erection, then as a reaction to losing my erection would assume the sexual interaction was over. This happened about 6 times from ages 16 - 21. So I never had penetrative sex. I started to develop this limiting belief that I had ED, but also a hig part of the problem was as a teenager I didn't know how to lead, I couldn't see that it was up to me to initiate sex, I would sort of lie there and wait for the girl to do it. I moved to the city this time last year almost weeks after watching Leo's game video, I met a really great Wing on Game Global Telegram, who was also into psychedelics and other personal development work. And I started going out at least four times a week. My first thousand approaches were probably half-assed. I had weeks where I would binge eat and stay home, not going out because I felt like I had 'no value'. In the beginning I was frozen scared and would do like 3 approaches a night. I then moved into another apartment with a wing I met who was closer to my age and we went out everynight. For a few months I committed to at least 5 approaches a day. I would talk to girls during the day, every night I could. And would stay out right until close. My wing and I would aim to approach whole clubs, sometimes we would rock up, get blown out by literally a whole club and then leave. My first week of living in the city I pulled a beautiful girl, she came back to my place and I couldn't get it up. I dropped her home, didn't catch up again. My second week I went back to a beautiful girls place and she said to me "I want you go fuck me like you mean it", still couldn't get it up. I got kicked out of here place at 3am and was sitting on the gutter waiting for an uber, feeling this strong shame in my chest. I thought "I could be a victim about this, or I could adress it proactively". The next day I went to a doctor and got my testosterone checked, I did a video course on improving T levels, got even supplement, taped my mouth at night, ate more protein. Every night I went out I looked sharp, my eyebrows were threaded, product in my hair, I did Leo's humour affirmations/visualisations, I made sure my place was always clean and smelled nice, I smelled nice. I went to the gym, did yoga, did Holotropic breathwork workshops (not specifically for game but I'm obviously interested in othe PD work). But it was funny, the night I lost my virginity I was walking home from the gym at like 8:30pm on a weeknight, I was dressed in a hoodie, my jeans frayed a bit at the bottom, I probably smelled a bit like chlorine. The city was dead but I hadn't filled my '5 a day's approach quota. I saw a girl who was definitely 5 or so years older than me, and who I wouldn't normally approach. I thought, "I'll just do it to be consistent". Mind you she was clearly waiting for a date. I said "hey, I'm walking home, I walked by I thought you were beautiful, I wanted to meet you" (something like that). She said "oh are you?... never mind, do you want to go somewhere?". I took here to a bar nearby, bought her a non-alcoholic drink, and concluded, she just wants to talk there is just no way this is happening, I'm wearing a hoodie ffs. We just talked about work, and chatted, I fully relaxed because I didn't expect it to go anywhere. Turns out she was a violinist in an orchestra, who was travelling in a band, and she was waiting for a tinder date, but he was taking too long to show up. We then went to the street and I was expecting to say goodbye, I said "your hotel is near here", and she replied "yeah do you want to come?". I woke up in the morning on like the 38th floor of this baller hotel, I realised that if I lose my erection, I can just relax and wait and it will come back. Obviously I'm still a newbie, but my goal was to lose my virginity and I did it. This took me about 3-4 months of going out consistently. This might sound like I'm a natural or maybe you're someone who has never got any attention from girls. I have spent lots of time with people who are "hard-cases" when it comes to attracting girls. This was not a smooth ride for me, I've had people mistake me for being homeless and begging for money, I've had girls run away from me, say that they just don't like the way I look, say that I'm creepy, groups of girls cuss me out for saying "hi I'm Thomas". But I've also been dancing all night and making out with stunning girls... If you're a hard case you need to fucking listen to people who are successful with women, I have seen guys try the exact same routine every single night for months, and get literally 0 response or only negative reactions, then repeat the process. You must be willing to change. You need to look at every single aspect of your life relative to attracting women and 'touch' it is some way - "okay my voice is quiet, how could I project it more? perhaps vocal exercises, okay maybe I'm sort of fat and have an incel haircut, maybe I should start running and get a new haircut." Just be on top of every aspect of your life, Leo's literally gives you all of the work you need to do on a silver platter in his game video.
  17. Watch Ergogenic Health, Testosterone is like his whole career. Basically limiting toxin exposure, keeping your balls cool, and eating more protein and fat than carbs will get you up there. The most effective supplement I've taken for T is Pine Pollen tincture that I set in organic vodka for 6 week, coupled with Nettle Root, not leaf, Nettle Root, for a similar amount of time, this is an Estrogen blocker. I also stack Maca Powder and Ginko Biloba.
  18. Your iron penis, tribal ancestors would be disappointed
  19. I am certainly introverted. People aren't obligated to like you though, the majority of people I have talked to whilst going out have been plain rude, I see it as them communicating to me that they aren't interested in me, nobody owes you anything really. If you are in a populated area and talk to enough people you are likely to find someone who is interested though, or at least just have a funny conversation. All of the limiting beliefs you have written down in this thread can be used as prompts for inner work, could list them in your journal. That being said your doubts sound similar to mine, the vast vast majority of people are nervous socialising, all these doubts you're having sound normal. It's your choice as to what they stop you from doing.
  20. I mean if you have serious, debilitating health issues you can work on those separately, or while you are approaching. Owen Cook used to say work on the full spectrum of your personal development e.g. finance, career, trauma, health etc. but keep approaching whilst you're doing this. You are not going to 'want' to go out every night, game can be a slog, it take APPROACHES and conversations for it to be fun. But you're travelling ffs like what else are you doing other than sightseeing and socialising. I don't want to gaslight you because you could have genuine issues that you should prioritise over dating, but its sounds like you have a lot of excuses. Like 'fear' isn't an excuse not to approach, you're not going to get over a fear of people by not talking to people. And you probably are a creep, think about it you're literally talking to girls to have sex with them, a creep isn't an outlandish description, but this doesn't mean you intend to harm anyone physically or traumatise them in any way. Contemplate how you could be respectful, its not that difficult though, if someone's not interested "have a good night", if someone doesn't like your Kino stop and "oh sorry". Fear, rejection, coming off as a creep, you can do inner work on this which is a great idea, but a remedy for these is talking to people. Get in a light-hearted conversation, relax your body, it is hard to think about this stuff when you're talking absolute shit. You're travelling dude!! Take girls on funny adventures - round up your friends and some chicks and do a night swim, bounce girls to some bar for old people just because it would be funny, rent those electric scooters (if your city has them) and zoom around on them at midnight. My favourite part about socialising or game is ending up in situations I wouldn't normally put myself in, it is a very positive, light-hearted process, it's nerve wracking but it is definitively adventure it you want it to be. Rematch Leo's game series, it is literally the sole reason I am no longer a virgin. You either haven't watched it or have just forgotten what he said, he addresses like all the concerns you have.
  21. Jordan Shanks is one of Australia's greatest journalists. He has been fearlessly vocal at exposing corruption in State governments, one member explicitly stated in his resignation that Jordan's content influenced his decision to resign. Jordan's house was recently firebombed with probable link to his journalism. Videos like these can be a bit gossipy, he likes to attack people's character, but he does very well at putting things into a larger context. This video is appropriate for an international audience. This video is insane. Two war veterans openly admit to war crimes on a 'comedy' podcast whilst facing no prosecution, whereas a man whistleblowing war crimes faces prosecution.
  22. Aussie Aussie Aussie! Oi oi oi! They just passed psilocybin and MDMA her in Australia, hopefully the rest of the world will follow.
  23. Tried shrooms for the first time last night. My experience: - 150uq lsd - 200uq lsd Male, 22, 80kg approx. Did research including trip reports, and what happens to the brain on psilocybin. Did a sauna, went for a quick snorkel in the ocean, some of The Work of Byron Katie to build my state during the day. I had a healthy meal midday and didn't eat until after the trip which I took at 7pm. Chopped shrooms and soaked them in a bit of lemon to reduce nausea, whilst I did Hatha Yoga, right before taking the shrooms. After ingesting I wrote my intention in my journal: See what will arise when I ask questions regarding my life purpose, specifically what I want to create for the world. (these times are all approximations, I did not record the experience live) The come-up: Laying on my bed, took approx half an hour to feel state change. Begun feeling giddy and blissful emotionally, slightly drunk. 40mins: when I closed my eyes I could see faint, beautiful patterns, colours such as red and green, like a checkered spiral that twisted. Having random, shallow self revelatory thoughts such as "be kind to yourself". I remember thinking it was so crazy that my roommates literally picked these mushrooms off of the ground and now they are altering my perception. 1 hour: My mind started morphing with reality, it felt like my mind was being twisted, stretched then squeezed. At one point it felt like my mind was twisted, and my awareness was twisted past, almost ducking under my cognitive thought and touched reality, followed by a burst in amazement (tough to describe). The sensation of my mind being twisted, and particularly squeezed was very enjoyable. At one point it felt like my mind was being twisted as if you were to take two opposing corners of a bed-sheet, one with both hands and then cross your arms over, but from multiple 'points' of my mind. 1.5 hours: Room slightly vibrating, very noticeably, when focusing this effect stopped. I begun to ask the question: Must the human race continue? This is a question I have been stuck on when Visioning my LP, because I am not sure whether I want to somehow ensure the future of the human race with an explicit intention of helping people evolve and transcend. I concluded the human race can disappear, there is no governing body that claims that they must live indefinitely. But then I asked the question - what if there is and I don't know? I realised I have a genuine passion for philosophy during this trip. It is amazing that I get to question reality, and it is my ultimate tool for navigating life. I could see myself learning to keep returning to my unique perspective by asking "what is happening for me now?" instead of letting my mind wander off into other people's theories. I have been thinking for a while whether I actually authentically value questioning and philosophy. I have felt like an imposter taking an interest in this stuff in my teens, I haven't put in the effort to pursue it like it is my mission in life. I genuinely don't know if I am cut out for deep spiritual work, maybe I'll end up like one of those people on this forum, or someone I'm sure you've met at any sort of new-agey seminar, who in ungrounded, deluded, and thinks they know everything already. But the fact that I can ask a question, then flip the question on myself, really test myself by saying "okay how do I know that?", gives me a great deal of encouragement at the potential of my own intellect. I thought about the people in my life who I've literally shown Leo's contemplation with a journal video or have seen it and haven't even tried it, or are in no way interested in philosophical work. This released a fair bit of doubt that I had. I contemplated for a while do I really want to sit in a room and ask questions for thousands of hours? because that really is the life I have been visioning. 2 hour: I went into the bathroom and looked at myself in the mirror. I repeated words like 'I' and my own name whilst looking at myself, I begun to feel into my awareness, there was some significance of my breath, started to feel some oneness and it was fucking awesome. Vision as a Healer What came to me regarding my question: Love People. My roommate came back from the movies and we were talking in the kitchen. She has very different intentions in life to me. But she is here, she is exactly the way she is and I love her haha, Idk if that was an insight or I made that up. Just seeing her how she was, was beautiful. I remember the first time I tripped having a similar yet stronger feeling for someone I didn't know that well, but having such a strong feeling of love. This feeling is really the most profound thing I have got so far, the most intense love I have felt is in the presence of another person, on psychedelics, I thought back to my job as a disability support worker, and one of my clients asking me to squash and cuddle them and tickle them, and the joy of giving affection to another person - so I begun to vision a career with this experience at the centre of it. I can see myself scouring the planet for healing modalities, travelling all over the world working with academics to tribal shamans to construct an opus of healing the human being. Before I went to sleep I lay on my pillow and realised I didn't feel as depressed as I usually do, i actually didn't realise I was depressed, when i would put my face on my pillow and let out a little sob I thought I was faking it because I felt most of the emotion in my face, but I just felt calmer and more at ease - this added a layer of meaning to my vision of helping people ground themselves, I thought "shit if this is how I feel after a little bit of mushroom, imagine years of health work, trauma release etc, then being able to help others do this." I moved a picture of someone making music on my vision board and put it in the bin, then replaced it with an image I had in my 'emotion' section of someone getting guided through breath work, the vision felt so complete. I know I made it up but as I was visioning being a healer I could feel myself tearing up, if you look at my bookshelf and basically what I pursue in my life it feels very congruent. I visioned using intense love to heal people. And to love/help people 'from top to bottom', their health, heal their trauma, help them develop their intellect. I wrote things down like Integral Psychiatrist, Integrate Occult Healing with Western Medicine, start my own Primary School which teaches children bulletproof psychological tools. I saw myself as almost a mother to people, and played with the idea that perhaps it is not my role to keep all of society alive as humans are allowed to become extinct, but whilst humans do exist to love them whilst they are here.. "my life is not dedicated to humans, but a human, the one in front of me who I am helping in every single way". I would be using my passion for philosophy and questioning, my kundalini experience and altered states experience as a teenager, my interest in health an nutrition, to help people heal and grow into a more grounded, insightful version of themselves. Life exactly the way it is is dope I saw my foot, and begun so ordinarily conscious that I had a foot. And how that alone is so awesome. I have a fucking foot. I was flexing my toes. Life exactly the way it is, is so beautiful. This made me think of the Sadghuru quote "it's not about becoming superhuman, its about realising being human is super". It so fucking is. It made me think, why isn't this apart of every conversation? Like shouldn't every conversation just be two people screaming at each other "why the fuck am I here! are you real?! am I real???" like we all just go about life working so fucking hard, throwing this matter around and its literally incredible. It is so amazing just by itself that I can question, like perhaps I won't even get any "answer" or the 'answer' won't be a word blah blah blah, but the fact that here I am, and this mind goes "hey what's up? Wtf is this?" it's wild. I was able to see questioning as an end in itself. I don't need to change reality at all for it to be incredible, but this is perhaps my motivation to do spiritual work, if I gather correctly that spiritual work is intentionally aligning me with these kinds of realisations, the experience of appreciating my foot, the euphoric feeling I had in the mirror when feeling oneness. I've been not practicing anything regularly for a while now but I think I want to start taking it more seriously. other random thoughts - I want to be more be gentle with the kids I look after at my work, I can be a bit firm in my tone of voice - I want to stop trying to change my brother or push him in any direction, he has his own vision - I should stop expecting people to understand me, nobody is obligated to understand or agree with me - my body is pretty fucked, i should probably address the obvious pains and imbalances - no I shouldn't have that beer, eat that etc. It is a stupid fucking idea - if I was to sit upright and erect my spine, sit like Sadghuru, it would release a lot of pain, but would also take courage to do that in front of people. A lot of the pain in my neck and spine is potentially lack of courage to sit up tall and proud.
  24. Dude did you watch Leo's game series? Literally none of what you have said here has anything to do with attracting a woman, you stood in a club and thought things, you've done no work to attract anybody here. You can literally approach any woman in your vicinity, get their attention then talk to them. There is literally nothing stopping you except your decision not to do it. You can't attract any one if they don't meet you.