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For what ever reason I feel like sharing this story, perhaps you all will find it fascinating. Of course it will be met with a lot of "its probably your mind playing tricks on you", which I totally understand, but it is what it is. So anyways, if you've seen the movie Yesterday, its about a man who has an accident and wakes up, but at some point during the movie learns that the Beatles don't actually exist in the world he woke up to, even though everything else is the same. I remember when I saw this movie I was like wow, cool, perhaps thats possible, but didn't think much of it after that. Well, during the pandemic, I was walking with my wife and I was like, oh we should watch Tank Girl, since we had been talking about Gwen Stefani, and wanted to show her something Gwen acted in when she was younger. Problem was, GWEN STEFANI IS NOT IN THE MOVIE when I went back to watch it. Now probably a lot of you haven't seen the movie before, and those of you who have, are like, ya, she's not in the movie, but my whole life its been one of those random memories that I've kept track of and thought of off on and on enough, since it really stood out to me when she did it. I remember when the movie was about to come out, and people where talking about it on the radio about how odd it was that the girl from No Doubt, was chosen to Tank Girl. I remember reading about it in the paper, I remember seeing it with my friends in High School and talking about it. I remember over hearing about it at other places during the course of my life. But again, she's not in Tank Girl apparently. Now whats interesting is there is a phenomenon called the Mandala Effect, which talks about things like this event with other things in the world and how people, large groups of people remember it differently. Apparently theres other things that groups of people remember differently. To me this really points to the possibility that part of the universe and perhaps the human experience is somehow being transported into alternate realities, without any hitch in the system where everything is the same and you don't even know it happened. Like my experience, everything in this world is exactly the same, except that moment, which I know I didn't dream up or imagine, since I have way to many reference points of it happening. Perhaps there's other explanations, but to me I find this really fascinating and makes the world all the more interesting. Hope you enjoyed the story.

What the hell is the bottom right thing... Oh its the hand of god going to catch the guy/god God is flicking off the mountain?

Nothing makes someone a "God". God is already and has always been whats taking place. There isn't anything but "God", so there for everyone, everything and everywhere you could say is "God".

I can definitely relate to this phenomenon, at times its so hard feeling, and at others its so strange. In the end I find it is what it is, and to just let it run its psychological and emotional course. Perhaps in time you will get less concerned with it when its happening, perhaps it will become a background sorta thing, like the wind. Your always free to put your attention somewhere else and not worry that this process is going on, its not a sign of a problem, being on the wrong path or doing something wrong that caused this (these are ones that I notice catch the attention and create a great deal of confusion and going in circles). You sound like a good person on the right track, perhaps some of my words have been helpful.

It really depends if you see division and contrast to begin with. If there isn't one, then there's nothing to do, but if there is, I find that being warm hearted towards what ever that is can lighten the moment or create ease with the division and contrast. It helps to realize through deep spiritual moments that there isn't any real division to begin with. But even without those, softening the edges, say in your judgements, emotional reactions, and perhaps rigid feelings/beliefs can create in the moment ease. Perhaps even doing so more often will create a natural softening, or habit of softening that will create more pleasantcy more often.

Doors still open, always open for a conversation.

Were you diagnosed with some sort of addiction or is this self diagnosed? Whats the problem with having some icecream and cake a couple times a week?

@ardacigin Its interesting you mention VR on this forum. I recently got a occulus 2 and have found it pretty profound. I don't know if you believe in different spritual bodies such as light and what not, but I found that VR has allowed an access to a Self sense I don't think I could of connected with as deeply without VR. I've found being in VR outer space and meditating with eye's open to be uniquely liberating.

You had a momentary glimpse into a real truth.

Yes thank you.

I was watching Leo's video on Does Free Will Exist? - What Is Will?, and he refered to a video on Authority, but I don't know what video this is or any title that had Authority in it (I did see Authoritarianism, but didn' think that was what he meant). SOLVED

Wait who is this imposter. The real veganawake would of said there is no you and there for no one to have a subconsciousness to feel guilty about.

I wouldn’t be to concerned. You just may lack deep in your body stimulation or connection to your own emotions. These activities your doing sound like they could be proving that on some level. there’s a certain forgone and new excitement to violence and stuff you only hear about. Plucking hairs or small pains can be euphoric. Aggressive control can feel deeply connecting to your inner animal drives. I’d encourage you not to treat others or animals that way anymore which it sounds like you naturally are doing since it was in the past.

What about solipsism?

Forget the title of this video. This was probably one of the top five understandings that helped me on my spiritual journey. I'm willing to bet that this video is more relevant than almost any video out on the internet in regard to what the majority of people on this forum suffer from. Put simply, you think your the center the of the universe (in a non-freeing way) and as a result you give so much importance to this character, and you think everyone else does to. I've wanted to and probably still will make a video on this same subject, but they nail it so well for the age group here I thought I'd share it now.

No big deal, it just doesn't look good to have pirated video links on the forum.

@softlyblossoming Dont link pirated movies to the forum.

Would you rather leave or add something positive to the world and maybe help the issues that cause you pain?

I wouldn't go down the road of "even if I woke up tomorrow and everything went perfectly for the rest of my life. It feels like nothing could ever make up for the pain I’ve been through". Is this the way and how you want your story to go? If you still see it as in your head, then let it be just in your head, no need to believe it into being true, leave it as a thought/feeling. Does that make sense? Otherwise your literally letting yourself go down the road of nothing can change this, and even if it were to go away and feel better I'd still let myself feel worse and bring up how bad it was in the past, "now", because the past was so bad. Does that make sense?

Sometimes the most obvious least spiritual way is how to deal with it. Just ask whats making you nervous, and if its a practical thing, then just do it, sometimes procrastination, resisting what you feel like is the important thing, or the safe thing is just going to cause anxiety. So in those cases, just try and get shit done. If its less obvious and hard to figure out, then maybe have them look into stocism or something similar that just doesn't sensationalize uncomfortable experience. Lifes uncomfortable, and its not the end of the world. When really getting this, sometimes anxiety or dull discomforts or little things that bother you, fade more into the background or not at all. Not all discomfort is a indication that theres something in the background thats worse or a circumstance that needs therapy or solving for it to go away. Sometimes you bleed, sometimes you anxiety, sometimes you stress, of no intention, and the reason has no reason.

whats wrong with enjoying yourself while your here? Why call it hedonism or see it through someone else's negatively biased lenses?

Who said it was exploitative?

Look into fear as much as you want, its just fear afterall. But at a certain point it may become irrelevant or boring and you'll want to do something else. But more to the point, getting use to anything/being with a pleasant attitude is probably better than being with something with a poor attitude.

This is a big question, but the one biggest thing that I'd say helped (then again there are many), is look into the outlook of stocism. Get comfortable with imperfection and not quite the way you'd like. Embrace a little soreness, backache, fatigue, disapointment. Get comfortable or at least understanding/more relaxed about that neighbor or dog that keeps barking outside. Once you see that the neighbor and the dog barkin outside are not different than the sounds/feelings/thoughts of "ego" supposedly inside your head/body, you may see it that its possible to relax if its there, or at-least appears to be there. Also let go of expectations and beliefs that something else should be happening like bliss or non-ending comfort. This is just a distraction, a longing that in the end you may find is just creating a discomfort, which funny enough is the opposite of the very comfort your wanting.