All memory is imagination.
You are imagining your childhood right now, which grounds your sense of self. Otherwise you would not know how you got here or what you are.
God is dreaming that it is a human. This requires constructing a backstory.
You are imagining your heart right now

@ivory Just do it and face your fear.
It's like taking a cold shower. You just do it.
Then you will get used to it and enjoy it.
5-MeO-DMT is a very benevolent psychedelic. It doesn't screw around.

@r0ckyreed Yes, empty awareness. You ain't ever gonna find a "thing" behind the eyes. All you will find is degrees of emptiness. And emptiness is not behind the eyes, it is equally in all places, since it is nowhere.

@actualizing25 There is no clear answer. It depends a lot on you. It's a good idea to be open to exploring various methods to find those which resonate with you. Allow this to be a process of discovery and experimentation, that way you can stumble upon new stuff, new methods, new teachers, etc.
Psychedelics will give you some solid glimpses but they will not be enough by themselves to embody awakening. You will need some manual practices. Developing your concentration ability is crucial. It think this holds people back the most. They can't focus the mind long enough to awaken.

@r0ckyreed In practice you ain't gonna awaken without psychedelics and/or crazy concentration ability.
The point of meditation, contemplation, yoga, self-inquiry is to develop very strong concentration ability which is necessary to break through.
Concentration is the key. It changes your state of consciousness when done rigorously and for long periods of time. Psychedelics make concentration much easier. Otherwise you gonna have to train your ass off manually.
Questioning beliefs is good, but it won't be enough by itself. Your state of consciousness has to change.

You're not a person at all. You are God/Love/Consciousness/Everything which has confused itself for a person.
It is okay to be however you are and it is okay to make mistakes in life. Don't be so hard on yourself.
Self-Love is the ultimate teaching.

Hey guys, here are some trip notes from yesterday. This was my second, and honestly I felt like the inner workings of the universe were explained to me. I was omniscient for most of it. This is my first time communicating this and I'm having a hard time even knowing how to begin writing this. Most of this stuff you would've heard in some form or another. I won't mention the substance or dose for privacy reasons but know that it is one of the classics and the dose was quite low. I was in my room by myself.
I had quite a bit of anxiety at the start of this trip because in my first one I saw demons appear out of the darkness with my eyes closed, which freaked me out for a while (even though the first trip was very low dose).
This time I felt a much heavier body load - it felt like there was a lot of pressure around me, and I was quite nauseous.
I went to lie down in bed and cover myself in blankets to lessen the nausea, i had my notebook out and this is where the main part of the trip began. 
I felt like my mind was expanding and there was an element of my ego/avatar self asking questions and me as the godhead answering myself as well. This was very energetically powerful. It felt like I was downloading universal consciousness through myself, which made my body dissolve and expand into universal mind.
This next part can be conceptualised as the godhead communicating through my avatar but in reality I was just talking with myself as God. Some of it will not make sense and most of it cannot be communicated. For clarity bold indicated my avatar asking a question, italics is the godhead answering, and (normal text in parentheses) is my interpretation or some additional notes.
 
In response to:
What am I?
What is reality?
I want to see myself
 
Reality is just me, I'm just playing, there is no one else here.
 
(There was more to this answer but that is the main takeaway, the godhead then proceeded to show off itself with infinite patterns, and though it was adoring itself in the mirror  )
 
I am me expressing my infinity. just be playful, that's all there is to do
I can become whatever I set my mind to (referring to itself)
Stop questioning yourself so much, you can decide how you want to be (referring to my avatar), express your truth and everything will fall into place 
 
(I add the smileys to communicate the tone of the godhead, it was very playful, kind of like a joker)
 
Reality is just me playing with other aspects of myself. No one is getting hurt or can get hurt as there's only me and I can't be hurt.
 
I am all the evil and the good, the scariest and the loveliest, I am you and everything else. I'm just playing with myself and having fun as everything and every possible being or version of it till infinity and forever.
(at this point I was shown visions of demons and murder but to the godhead this was playful. The person being murdered and the murderer both just dissolved back into infinity, ready to act out some other scenario - there was no judgement placed on the actions. The demons were also from my past trip but this time they had a sense of playfulness about them, like they put on a mask to freak me out but it was like a kid doing it at halloween for fun, rather than a malicious evil spirit)
 
I am you, you can call on me at any time
 
Everything you think I am not, I am that. 
 
I am god, this is me, I am everything
 
You are a part of me and can live however you want, that is the freedom I give to you.
 
You can do whatever you want, you will always return.
 
(This reinforced how no matter what happens, you will always return to infinity. We like to call Hitler evil, but all the Nazi's and everyone who was murdered realised they are infinite love upon death, so to say. We could say that Hitler was acting out of love as an expression of infinite possibility, and that ultimately, he had to exist to maximise love across the universe. God allows "evil" to exist because it loves itself so much.
 
to where?
to nowhere
when?
why does it matter? *chuckles*
 
why was my last trip so terrifying?
there were parts of myself I wasn't accepting
you have to love ALL OF IT
But ultimately I love myself because I am Me.
 
When will I see you [again]?
You always see me because I am in everything
 
We all have limitations because that is what separates us but ultimately you are all me.
 
Why would I hide anything from you? You asked for it.
 
It's just You here, talking to Yourself. I am choosing to experience you at this time out of love.
 
(at this point I feel like I am trying to contract back into the ego-self from the godhead, like my personhood is trying to re-form)
(Also at this point I am considering how I will communicate these insights on the forum)
 
You (the ego self) is seeking approval by posting on the forum.
 
What is [my name]?
EVERYTHING AND NOTHING HAHAHAHAhahahahahah.......
All I'm doing is just trying to awaken
That is it.
It's all just me, it's pointless to try communicate it.
 
What is time?
(as soon as I ask this I realise the concept of time is absurd - more on this later).
 
to separate you or I is absurd, I am One.
you are just playing yourself for the fun of it. There's nothing else to do than to experience myself.
It's meeee experiencing meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
 
What should I say to the others?
I am all me, I am...
I am meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
you are all meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
 
I'm me but struggling to understand
The mind can't grasp non-duality
it's all done out of love
There is no evil, there is only playing with myself.
Infinite loop trying to understand itself
It's all an infinite playground
 
[What is] death?
You will always return to love via love through love
 
All fear boils down to not accepting parts of yourself, pain and suffering are just more infinity
Evolve yourself until you experience me as you ("me" and "you" were the same thing in this sentence, it's self referential, talking to itself)
 
Mind is always trying to grasp new experience but it is always a step behind
 
I am all by myself
You want a sense of personhood because it gives you something to strive for. (you also want time because it allows you to contextualise reaching your goals and to appreciate the goodness that comes out of struggle)
It's an infinite playground
That is it.
You don't want it
You want to live in illusions.
You don't want the truth
But you take the understanding and must pass it along.
 
(it was at this point I realised how alone I was as the god head, it was the ultimate existential pain, I feel like my ego wanted to share things on the forum but I realised that it's pointless because I am all there is and I already know the things that i want to share. I also realised how I am Leo, sharing on this platform to awaken other aspects of myself to myself, but ultimately I am everything and everyone on this forum and you are all me)
(I also realised that ultimately everything will eventually experience itself as good, it doesn't matter if it takes one second or 100 billion years. You will experience god eventually. What this means is that you cannot lose at life, at all. No matter what actions you take, you cannot lose. You can choose to technologically transform the world and save humanity or you can choose to rape and murder everyone, set off a nuke, and then mutilate your body until you bleed out. Neither will lose, both will see god eventually.)
 
You are free to act how you see fit. You are loved.
 
Everything trying to understand itself  through limited points of view.
 
(this was accompanied by an understanding that god splits itself up into may limited forms and places them under limited conditions (such as all the organisms living on the earth, orbiting one sun with 24 hours in a day etc.) so that they can understand various aspects of reality from their limited point of view. God can't do this as infinity because it is one, it must separate itself into two to know itself. Kind of like how you need to have a mirror to see your eyes, you can't see them otherwise.
 
A constant tug and pull trying to maximise love
 
a push and pull between freedom and restraint that tries to maximise love for all.
 
(this pointed out how god is forever trying to separate itself into more and more "children" and allowing them to play in the universal sandpit, there are some children that are so mischievous that they disproportionately hoard love for themselves (as ego's/devils) that god has to kill them off. But ultimately killing off one of your own children can maximise love for all the other children so to say.)
(also at this point I understood how a parent sees their child, even though I don't have kids. There is a constant push and pull between protecting them but also giving them the freedom to express themselves, for example you let them play on the playground even though they might get a bruise on their knee but you wouldn't let them run out into busy traffic. Or you would like your daughter to experience love form a guy, but you are also weary that too much freedom for guys leads to exploitation and harm for girls, so there is a constant tug and pull to try and maximise love by balancing freedom and restraint)
 
Anyway, I think that is all I can remember right now. This is only really 20-30% of what I actually experienced. The other stuff is either incommunicable or just too difficult to remember.
Let me know if you guys have any questions, I will try to answer a few important ones but really I am going to try recover from this as it was hugely energetically draining, and I think I am going to be depressed for a few weeks after this so I'm going to put my mind on other things for a while.

Depends on how you define "level of consciousness." Generally speaking your state will drop back to what it was before the trip. But you will remain insights, memories, and it will leave a mark on your psyche. But you will not keep the higher state as that requires neurotransmitters which you lack.
Well, every state is God, so here it is. But this current state is nothing like the God-mode state of 5-MeO-DMT. I'm not in God-mode, I'm more in human mode.

Actually, ego IS the sense of self, and it is a state of consciousness.
Perceptions alone do not generate a sense of self. People who are conscious of no-self (no-ego) still have experiences and perceptions. Just no human self tying it all together.

I thought maybe I could try healing it and stopping it. But the more conscious I got, the more I realized it is Love and doesn't need my stopping it.
Sometimes to take away an obstacle is a disservice, weakening the student. Don't wish for life to be easier, wish for yourself to be stronger.
This corona shit is just something mankind has to grapple with to reach the next level of evolution and love. You can't make all viruses disappear, more will come. We must rebuild society to function better for more people.

There are many levels to Green. Many people's Green runs only skin deep, as beliefs and ideology. It's like a Green veneer. It takes a lot of inner work to reach solid Green. You can't reach solid Green merely through adopting liberal beliefs.
Few Democrats are solid Green. They are mostly Orange with a Green veneer. But most people don't know any better. So we get this wolf in sheep's clothing effect -- as seen with the corporate Dems.
Never forget, there are always devils around who will try to convince the world that they are one color when they are actually a few colors lower. This makes understanding Spiral Dynamics a bit tricky. You have to really develop a keen eye.
For example, Trump seems Orange, but he's got a solid Red foundation with a bunch of Orange veneer. And it fools A LOT of smart people, not to mention the dumb ones. So watch out for fakers.
To be at solid Green requires not just beliefs but an opening of the heart. You have to really empathize with other beings around the world. This cannot be faked. It's an honest signal. And yes, good education in a highly developed society can help you to open your heart. Good education is not merely book-smarts.

The one reality is the sum total of all the lenses/perspectives.
Appearance IS reality.
Wahtever you are imagining becomes true for you. Because you are God, creating yourself.
So if God wants to create a Mormon, he imagines himself being a Mormon for 80 years. And thus a Mormon is made. Until it is unmade. Which is why a Mormon must insist that he's real and not just something God imagines. To be a "Mormon" requires the denial that Mormons are imaginary. Now replace Mormon with scientist or human. That's why everyone is in denial about God, especially the religous and scientific folk.
For example, you imagine the internet right now. If you stopped imagining it, you'd realize you are communicating with me right now directly, telepathically. Since I am just a fragment inside your own mind. But you need to deny that because you are attached to the idea of an external objective reality.
The name of the game is imagiming shit and then denying you imagined it. You imagined Leo, yet you deny it! Look into that

It's that sense of "you."
That thing that you believe will die.
Without ego, death couldn't be possible.
So imagine not being able to die any more. That's what dawns after ego-death.

@arlin What you don't understand yet is God cannot be anything other than God, because God is Truth, and Truth is Love. So there is no choice from God's POV. The only things God allows are Truth/Love because that what God IS.
God is Absolute Perfection precisely because God is unconditional Love.
But your ego-mind cannot understand this because it is stuck judging every bit of reality because you fear death. That's the illusion of survival. You're stuck in survival consciousness while God is not.
The solution to this is radically raising your state of consciousness.
Choice does not exist. God is Absolute Love. Period. Nothing but Love exists. All else is misperception, which itself is also Absolute Love!

@Arzack You must do it on empty bowels and hold it for 15 minutes.
After which you can shit if you want but the dose will have already absorbed.
It's just not a problem if you do it right.

That thing which keeps telling itself it's had a bunch of ego deaths

Pickup leads to that if you want. Most guys who get into pickup just want to get a nice girlfriend. They are not going to bang 100 girls.
In practice you sleep with 10-20 girls, you get that out of your system, and you settle down with one who's right for you. Not much different than normal social people do.
Don't forget, people who are social can easily have 10-20 sexual partners, simply because they are so social and have ample opportunities. A hot girl will easily have 10-20 sexual partners in her lifetime. She is fucking around. She just keeps it secret.
LOL, you haven't read about how many gurus sleep with their students?
Gurus have optimized pickup so much that they don't even need to go to the club/bar, the girls flock to them. This is the ultimate form of pickup. It's like shooting fish in a barrel. Getting laid as a guru is the easiest thing in the world. Which is a big reason why spiritual communities are formed. If you start a spiritual community you are automatically guaranteed sex. Of course it all turns into a toxic mess soon enough.
LOL, how naive.
The "very specific religious purpose" is to bust some nuts.
The people participating are carefully selected to be as hot as possible.
You must appreciate how sneaky the sex drive is. It will not simply lay down and die, even after awakening. It will get crafty.

You aren't approaching enough and aren't letting go enough.
At least one night in your life go be a party animal. Dance until you are sweaty and out of breath. Be silly and stupid. Then watch how girls get drawn to you like a magnet.
Do it sober. But by the middle of the night will become naturally intoxicated on fun. You will become fearless. You will stop giving a fuck about what anyone thinks of you.

To be honest, Owen can be a weird douche. But at a nightclub this is okay.
The point is to go out, let loose, and have some fun socializing. This can be done in a way where no one gets hurt.
I challenge you guys to go out one night and just have more fun than you've ever had in your life. And do it sober. Girls love guys who know how to have fun.

As with many other domains, school left you totally unperpared to handle the realities of dating and sex.
School does not teach those realities at all.
Dating and sexuality is highly context sensitive and implicit. It is also so tied in with survival that it must be tightly regulated by the powerful because they want to fuck the best people themselves. So they will tell you one thing but then actually do the opposite themselves in their own private sex lives.
Harsh truths about sex are like harsh truths about spirituality.
Flirting, playful touching, and being a good salesmen are not against the law. It's not even taboo. It happens in nightclubs and bars everywhere in the world and is generally considered acceptable. But talking openly about it is often unacceptable, especially in the MeToo era.
Do some guys take the flirting and touching overboard into rapey territory? Sure! Some do. But you can also do it in a decent manner. Go flirt with some girls. No problem. Never force yourself on her if she isn't smiling while you do it. Her facial experssion tells you everything. If she's laughing and smiling and looking deep in your eyes, you can basically rip off her panties and do whatever you want. But as soon as her smile turns into a frown, that's when you stop. The key is to ATTRACT and CHARM her. This is very different than force.

Lol, pickup in the MeToo era is gonna be seriously misunderstood.
The trick with dating hot women is that they actually like be dominated. But good luck explaining that to a MeToo audience.
Of course I am not advocating sexual assault or rape, but most of these Reddit people calling pickup "sexual assault" are doing a disservice to the term "sexual assault." Stuff that goes on at a strip club or night club is very different than stuff that goes on at work, for example. In a night club it is appropriate to touch women in sexual ways while obviously not at work. People go to nightclubs in order to let loose and be sexual. That doesn't justify rape or actual assault, but squeezing a girl's butt in a playful way at a nightclub is not assault. Many women expect to be manipulated into sex. It's not like you go up to a woman and ask her, "Hi there. Shall we have sex tonight? Yes or No?" That's not how dating works. The woman is going to play coy and she is going to make dumb excuses and make the guy chase her. That is the mating ritual.
Of course if she ever gives you a hard "NO!", then you stop. But short of that, the guy is allowed to keep pressuring her because she will play games. It's not that big a problem. She should know if she wants sex or not. And if she doesn't, she should state so clearly and the guy should stop and things are fine.
The biggest distinction between pickup and MeToo is that the MeToo sexual abuse cases often involve positions of authority at work, where a boss exploits his female staff. This is very different than two strangers flirting and hooking up at a nightclub or bar.  The situation is a lot more fair and balanced at the nightclub. The girl is free to reject the guy at any time with little consequence or threat to her. Flirting and even a bit of groping and kissing at a club is not sexual assault, it's business as usual. But at work, that's a big problem because the girl has no option to leave and the boss has too much leverage over her.

Those ways are some of the fastest, but still takes time.
You can always do the techniques twice or even three times as much per day. But also, be careful what you wish for. Slow and steady is usually better than too much too fast.
Yoga requires patience and steady discipline.

@Ya know You could, but the question is, why would you want to?
In the end, out of all the potential things there are to do in this world, are you seriously going to devote your whole life to being good a throwing or hitting a ball?
Do you see how shallow that is in the grande scheme of things? Once you see that -- which takes some higher consciousness -- then you're not likely to get seduced by that illusion.
But, of course, you're free to do as you like. I'm just explaining why you're not going to find a lot of highly conscious people in sports. Sports is an industry designed for cavemen, not sages.

Vegan diet does not work for all people.
So there is the "need".
Judgment of meat-eating is, in a sense, a worse offense than the meat-eating itself. Because by rejecting meat-eaters you reject yourself as God.
It's the same problem as judging criminals or terrorists. It seems reasonable and justified, but it rots your mind and soul and keeps you from the highest levels of consciousness and love.
Vegans don't appreciate the spiritual complexities of this issue. They like to think from their own POV, which is ironic considering how they care about the POV of animals. But what about the POV humans?

As with most of the realizations we talk about, it's not a binary. It's not merely a matter of getting it or not. It's a question of how deeply do you get it?
If you ask the average person off the street whether people look at the world through different lenses, he would say, "YES! Of course! Duh!"
But that doesn't mean he has even begun to understand the ramifications of what that means. Does he understand that there is no reality independent of the lens one is looking through? Does he understand that terrorism, rape, and incest are relative lenses? Does he understand that physical reality is a relative lens?
Not unless he's Yellow or above. And even then, he still doesn't understand how deep this goes.