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Why "should"? If you don't want it, no one's making you. When you do want it, I'll be here to help.

@Identity In a very similar mindset, brother. Good luck with your journey.

@DrewNows Wow, didn't now how his change ended up. Thanks for the heads up!

Immediately when you ask those types of questions, you're throwing yourself in a rut. No matter what answer anyone gives you, it ain't going to change anything, because the problem is in the context and not the content. Change your approach, go out of your comfort zone, do something that is difficult. The conscious states that are described by forum members have northing to do with the personal context. Don't mix 'em.

Experiment, try out new expressions of this dynamic. It's only natural when attraction occurs between polar poles. Your girl knows best what she likes. You may be in for some very fun experiences.

He had mini-series on Occult an mysticism. I found them very interesting.

I've had episodes like those. Normally they pass, however long it takes. It's only natural you'll see through the various survival mechanisms. You just have work through it.

@Forrest Adkins Far from it.

@Spiral Wizard The book list is what I use to jump-start my practice. There's always the option to go traditional with some organisation, but I guarantee you alone is better.

@skywords Any question can receive any answer when we change the context (aka conscious state). Your job is not to like one answer and stick to it, but transcend it. You have better ways to focus your attention.

I see. Good for you.

How much of this is actually your experience? Can you love death, pain, suffering?

@Rasheed There's a very big gap between structuring your life (something that you need prior to consciousness work) and the structure of consciousness (aka conscious level). In fact how you structure your life is content /filling only to what your consciousness allows. So there's a very big difference. This does not undermine the words of Conor, they are just not applicable.

By all means go for it. If you already have a wide selection of artworks, it takes nothing to post it.

@Light Lover Painful, but very purifying. It meets the intuition I had about it in 2018. 2020...Oh, boy. I'm in for the ride

It's kinda hard to answer, because only you can foolproof your practice. The best way to do that is to try different forms of meditations, go on a few retreats and reads some books about it. Leo's Book List has some great titles. By testing out and then comparing, you'll find what's best for you. Try out psychedelics, long retreats. Meditation is not the only form of a spiritual practice.

@actualizing25 Enjoy life - make friends, start a business, travel, improve your dating game. Work first on structuring your life. You're no where in a hurry. There's a very good reason of why you're scared. It may not be the time for you and that's okay - if you force it, might as well turn out as the horrific stories.

This boils down to preference. Same a it is with spiritual teachers. The Natural Lifestyles (TNL) were recommended from a forum member a while back and I like their content. There can be other good sources, just be careful with some of the major red flags as to the maturity of the content.

@Jahmaine Try out first with normal hot girls. Attraction is not different whether you're talking to a witch, a hippie or a model. The relationships play out differently, but you get what I mean. Probably the closest to what you'll find is at hippie festivals, concerts, retreats or communes. For a hardcore witch it may be harder, cause there's a lot of stigma around the practice of Occult. Ask @Matt8800, I'm sure he can help .

@Strangeloop Asking questions is commonly perceived as the right thing to do, because it puts the light on the person you're talking to. This will work great in an interview, but it will make the people you talk to uncomfortable in every other occasion. You have to be open at focusing the light on yourself - how else can you stick out and show you're different? Otherwise you're just like everyone before. Talk about yourself, share thoughts, experiences, ideas - that of course will build your confidence, because you have to be ready being rejected for your personality - something that feels scary at first, but is the right thing to do.

That kept reoccurring in my case for years. It always seemed as if I changed nothing, but it is part of the purification. Keep on. Repeat. In the process you will slowly drop the evaluation of your growth through habits and it becomes an experience. It's literally piecing yourself back together.

@Harikrishnan Let that occurance pass your consciousness. The purpose of meditation is precisely to help clear your mind of unnecessary stories and leave you with the unfiltered experience. The need to create a story is useful for the ego, but I assume you want to go beyond that. No matter what you put as reasons, it is still empty. Like trying to hold sand with open palms. That's why I'm stressing on focusing. Because receiving and answer does not change a thing and is ultimately empty.

Your question assumes that for something "to exist" than there has to be a category of "non-existence". I'll meet you in the space beyond this abstraction. Then you can ask. Honestly, stop creating unnecessary discourse.

How does that help you?

@Florian Whether you see it as a path to infinity or as a meaningless existence it makes a difference only to the ego. For your context this story is great to have, because it's more emotionally mature than nihilism for example and will help you grow. But the end you'll have to drop it... You are Infinity