Rigel

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@Aeris The grind and pain are part of it and not to be denied nor be feared. I don't know about producing but I have been dedicated full time to mastering my craft and writing and I have come to enjoy the times of struggle.

Sometimes when I get into a trip I have this urge to shout/sing and express the energy in quite disturbing ways(for an external witness that is). So a motel room wouldn't be ideal for me. I think you need to check with yourself if it is the right place to be. I wouldn't want someone worry and come knocking at the door while I am tripping ahah.

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Maybe try keeping a journal and write every morning what's on your mind, what you want to accomplish that day and the reason why you want to do it. I find that journaling is amazing keep some sort of clarity of though and get things out into your consciousness.

The seductive trickster?

I have been addicted to it for a long time and managed to quite 10 days ago. I feel 10x better, more productive /creative then when I was using it. So yeah it's relative. I am sure that one time a week is fine depending on the person but make sure not to delude yourself.

Totally agree with that. The process of mastering an instrument will put your ego on his knees and confront you with the resistance issue. To master something like that you need to transcend the instant gratification that most people fall prey to and surrender to the process. Plus you get to experience what it's like to do something for it's own sake, without any expectation or achievement in mind but rather because you love it.(If you love it that is. If not than I don't think you will stay with it very long). It could be true for many other things but if you feel drawn to an instrument go for it I think. At a certain point it can be reality meditative also. You don't think about anything you just let your inspiration and innate creativity guide you and you watch that happening.

Have you tried meditation?

Was he?

I have been working on original music for months now and I have managed to record some demos 2 weeks ago. I sent those to a festival that takes place in small region where I live. Nothing fancy not even paid. I didn't get selected for the festival. I genuinely thought that those compositions were pretty good(Given the low quality recording) and now I feel like... well kinda worthless. I am doubting myself and also doubting if I have what it takes to make it as a musician/artist. If I recall the life purpose course and the hero's journey I would see that as a threshold guardian. Right know I don't know how to proceed though. P.S I don't expect anybody to tell me what to do as I believe it is for me to find the next move. I am just sharing my thoughts at the moment.

The suffering of others is hitting me lately. I can see the dogma I understand quite clearly that it's what causes suffering. It's clinging to what one thinks that makes one suffer and I want to help them, I really do. But obviously if I tell them that it's not helping them they are just going to back off in their beliefs(I tried ahah). I came to the conclusion that I cannot help them by trying to help them but rather by being present, loving and by not letting their egoic games trap my own ego. For the common masses I think ideas and theory are quite useless(In the context of a casual interaction or even an arguing of some sort - there is no point in arguing with their drama). And the reason for that I think is that most people can't see other perspectives beside their own. So automatically if it doesn't fit the preconceived modal it will be rejected and demonized. Obviously there is cases where one is ready to ear some pointers or wisdom but in my experience it's not the case most of the time.

Thank you every one❤️

@Salvijus I will contemplate on that thank you

I say that because I argued with parent last night. Well they got mad at me and I was watching this happen to me the most mindfully that I could. I just realized that there was no point in telling them that they created there own problems. I could see it and I wanted to help them so I remained mindfull.

Yes you are right. I didn't mean to judge anyone. I also have a lot of growth ahead.

You can also put the link of the video in one note and there's a player that will pop up.

I am currently doing 20mins every morning. I was wondering if I should do it multiple times a day. What are your routines?

The empyrean - John Frusciante

He says that when entering the nondual state of consciousness with psychedelics its always with a bilateral symmetry in the body. Is that accurate?

Monday december 31st I took what my scale measured to be 13mg of 4-Aco-DMT and the experience was unlike anything I ever experienced in my entire life. I would consider this my first mystical experience. Now this isn't going to be a trip report I wrote one for myself the next day and I've been thinking about it for the past week. Contemplating what the fuck does this mean for my life. The reason I am writing this is because I freaked myself out. I remembre very little of it by now (In fact it cannot be remembered the way I usually thought of as remembering). But I know that what I saw was not a simple psychedelic experience and I had plenty of those. My ego came back stronger then ever and I am going through a backlash right now. I feel like I can't do it. Not because it is too much work or because I lack discipline or something like that but because I am afraid of going for it. I still have this intuition that it is the thing to do but I am feeling like I just can't do it. I don't really know why I am sharing this. Probably because nobody that I know would even begin to understand if I told them. Perhaps I just hope for a little bit of moral support.

Thank you very much . @Maya_0 I will do that.

I bought the life purpose course two days ago and I just finished watching and taking notes on the mastery part. There Leo says that you better pick on thing to master and focus on that. How does this fit in with enlightenment? In my mind enlightenment for now seems like a mastery process. But what if my life purpose is not that? What if it as to do with art? Should I just ignore enlightenment for now until I master my craft to a sufficient degree and then go for enlightenment?

@John Lula I already now want I want to master and I've been doing that without even knowing for the past year. But I don't know if I should pursue enlightenment as a side thing or wait till my life purpose is actualized and go full on enlightenment.

I am going to give this a shot thank you!