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@ArabiaNytes You took the words right out of my mouth ArabiaNytes. I feel at home here on this forum.

@Christian Hey Christian, I personally believe that the answer to your quention lies in this book : The psychology of man's possible evolution. The past month I have read this book like four times, and it is like Leo says : A must-read book, will change your life. Cheque out this video as well : http://www.actualized.org/articles/understanding-awareness

Hello Thirdeye, I know exactly how you feel, I have been there myself for many many years. I am an alcoholic myself, but I am sober for quite a while now. I haven’t touched a drink for over ten years. Before I tell you my story about how I concord my alcohol addiction, I would first like to ask you these following questions: Those meetings were organized by whom? What is/are the reason(s) you quit going to these meetings? What where you searching for in those books, and have you found it? Please take your time to think about your answers to these questions before writing them down. Talk to you later!

I see more clearly now! Thank you everybody for your precious words full of light.

When we die, we become pure empty transparent awareness again. Like before we were born. Isn't it so, that in our original state we have no recollection what so ever of the life that we have lived, before we died? Like it never existed.

@Ayla Thank you for answering my question Ayla. No, I havened read about NDE nor have I watched YouTube videos. I will check out that book from Anita Moorjani though, and I’ll continue my quest for who I really am.

I lived a near death experience while giving birth to my first born. It was awesome by the way. I never had experienced such an intense feeling of happiness and freedom before. I never experienced those feeling afterwards neither. This was heaven, living in my body was/is hell! I was very upset when I was sucked again into my body (doctors reanimated me). A few years ago somebody told me that I am automatically enlightened after a near dead experience, because I spend time on the other side. I don’t think this is true, and yet, it puzzles me. Can somebody give me feed-back on this please?

@OceanJjb Hello OceanJjb, how are you feeling today? I was thinking of you the other day. When you husband will have passed away, your life doesn’t need to be empty. It is just a perception. You have already started organizing your life (maybe) without you realizing. By joining this forum you already left your solitude, and by doing so, you met people who really care about you. Big hug!

@Anlib

It's about 10 years ago that I discovered the way to self-actualization. It was love at first sight! For me, it is not something I do, but it is what I am. It is a way of life, my way of life. I never felt the need to share information or just talk about this with other people. Samuel, if you do feel the need to inform other people of your new way of life. Ask yourself the question why you want to do this. Beware that it is not your EGO that feels this need, and not you. Don't underestimate the power that your EGO has over you. Self-actualization is life threatening to your EGO, and it will defend itself by all means!

@OceanJjb Hello OceanJjb, I am 48, in 5 months 49. I have divorced two times. My second marriage lasted 9 years. When I got pregnant of his child, his behavior towards me changed completely. First he was that loving husband, and suddenly he was that evil narcissistic creature. I suffered physical en mental abuse on a daily basis. My alcohol consumption took on a whole other level, and every day I was drunk. Giving my husband additional justification why I deserved to be punished. Nobody was aware of this situation, his demon came out when we were just the two of us. After 7 years of marriage I was convinced that my only way out was suicide. But then something happened that changed my perception completely. On my 39the birthday I was diagnosed with AD(H)D. From that moment on, I stopped being the victim, and 3 weeks later I joined A.A. Me being sober and now defending myself verbally, I became useless to my husband. I didn’t fear him anymore. A few months later, my husband left me, already on the hunt to cash his next prey. Now, ten years later, I enjoy the love and company of my 3 wonderful boys. I am in a loving relationship (for almost 8 years) with a man who adores me. He is 8 older than me. And I have a successful carrier. Now why am I telling you my story? Because it is a school example of how miserable life can be, if we choose not to take our responsibility for our own life and our own happiness. We all have our demons from past experiences. But it is our personal choose how we deal with them in the present. Demons feed on fear. You overcome fear with love! If you want your demons to leave you in peace, you have to love yourself, your life. Nobody else but you is in charge of your life. So, if you are not happy with your current situation, move your ass, stop existing and start living!! I am grateful that I stopped choosing the easy way. Meaning: staying in my comfort zone by means of playing the victim, and blaming all my shortcomings, drinking and mistakes on my husband. OceanJjb, I care about you. I tell you my story, because I hope to open your eyes. If I didn’t care, I would be sleeping by now. In Belgium its 01:30 in the morning. Take care!

First off all many thanks to all the people involved in making this forum a reality. I am in self-actualization for the past 6 to 7 years and nobody in my life knows about it. In the past I tried to tell this to my parents, but that was a mistake. My parents didn’t had a clue what I was talking about, and they felt that there beliefs and comfort zone ware very much in danger. So this forum is my first opportunity to interact with other people. Thank you!