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Lol the second time I did mdma I actually watched a mojiji satsang. Call it coincidence but I had my first glimpse of no-self that day.

@Nahm I wish I could see that clearly. If I could there wouldn't be any "path", thought The path itself is the biggest delusion ?

Well, seems like it. If I keep being "honest", there´s no other destination that go towards Truth. I could always go back to delusion, but I never had truly liked the life that delusion gives. So it seems I´m not looking to stop it. It just seems kind of scary at first. You know, that this spirituality thingy is actually real and all of that.

Yes, If there´s anything as a "path" in the first place anyways.

The worse, or great thing is (I don´t know it yet), is that once you started, there´s no way you can stop it.

No, it's not evident. The body is programmed to survive, and the mind collaborates with this. But the sensation that you are the one who is in charge of the mind and body and is collaborating along with this two to survive, THAT is a fiction you have a created for yourself to create yourself an individual entity. The mind fuck is, (supposedly, I haven't verified this yet) that you are actually God but since you wanted to experience duality (there's nothing else to do) you became this fictional entity , and now you are fucked Lol. Enlightenment is supposed to "unfuck" yourself from this confusion that you got yourself into.

Pretty much. There's a show about people living in Alaska and all they do is being concerned with the next shitty thing they have to do to get food, improve shelter, fix stuff...etc. Most people would idealize it as a holidays, but it's far from reality. That's why people that say I'm going to live in cave until I get enlightened it's an utopia unless they have someone which brings them food every few days and basically care for them while you are meditating. If not it's impossible to get enlightened if you are thinking on survival most of the time LOL!!

Of course!

You too? Recently It was revealed to me that once I get enlightened, I have discovered my life purpose will be opening a psychedelic retreat to enlighten and heal people.

Omg ººº...that gave me chills. I hope soon I can discover wtf you guys are really talking about.

That's what I was doubting, if both would be equally intense. Yeah I never have snort it anything with liquid it seems gross. I will go with plug it then. Hope it works for me. Thanks for the info!!

Did you try to burn it with some dry herb below the powder?

Cool, that "recipe" also is the same for plugging, right?

I imagine this has already been asked, but couldn't find it... What is the batch that is best for snorting? I have freebase and I read is the best for smoking it but I'm not looking forward to smoke it as a my first time.

You're welcome. We couldn't have done it without you

I have tapped into some states of true joy, yes. But they have been like 0.000001% compare with the rest of time I have been living on this earth (excluding the years of childhood. Although I don't remember that much from childhood) I would compare true joy with the joy that a child feels just looking or doing something extremely simple. Because of course deep down they feel how magical and a miracle reality is. If you get in this state of realization you will have true joy. But of course it's will be rare since your monkey mind will be very concerned with survival problems. If you want true joy you will have to take survival less seriously. Ask yourself, if I didn't care about survival and I knew I was infinite, that I am going to be here for eternity, wouldn't I be just amazed by each second of reality? I imagine this is why high conscious beings walk around always with a smile on his face, for example Sadghuru.

Hallucinations that can occur in the consciousness state between waking and sleeping. Of course you interpret the meaning "hallucination" as you want. Some people will call it Kundalini Awakening. Others energy raising. Others just that the body needs the rest. I don't know about you, but I would say it wasn't an hallucination, I recall that the leg did tremble intensely. But it doesn't matter much if it was 'real' or not because as Leo says, everything is an hallucination.

+1. It could be some kind of hypnogogic state. I had a similar experience like the OP I while ago.

I wouldn´t jump into conclusions. My direct experience I have no direct experience of "other things happen simultaneously". If I am the truth this must be the whole universe. I mean sure I can think that the life of Hitler is happening NOW too but that just be a guess/imagination. Things might change though, I´m open to be wrong.

You starting to get it, yeah. Reality is Infinite singularity. It would be impossible to not be life. Life is unavoidable. There´s no "point", just what is unavoidable.

It´s the most intense yoga i´ve tried, but I wouldn´t consider it "a head trip".

I just change between sitting in half lotus and sitting just on a chair. I think the only solution is really to develop flexibility enough so you can do full lotus with your spine straight. If you have enough flexibility the legs and spine will be relaxed so there will be no problem.

That's a very interesting story. The funny thing is, the word sad itself has negative connotations. I wonder if after you did that (you accepted and sat with the sadness) it was still sadness. Or did it convert into something else? I can't imagine how a "negative* emotion can still be itself, after you totally accept it and sit with it, like one would do with joy or excitement. So simple, yet almost everybody tries to deny certain emotions. It doesn't feel good to surrender to them. How do you do it?

Hmm yeah, I´m preparing a trip for this summer finally...luckily I´m getting closer towards the end of the seeking.

I used to ask myself a similar question like that some time ago. The question would arise after or during going for a run out in nature, where there are many rocks around. I would be like "how is it possible that this rocks are still there, being themselves, existing, even when I am not around?" I don´t know why but I would find really really weird that those rocks would be there, being "maintained" by this "universe" while I was in the city, having a shower, or even me in another country. LOL. Idk but I made an intimate connection with this rocks and I couldn´t sort out why it felt so weird that they could exist withouth me there. Now I know I was into something . But unfortunately nothing has happened Even though I know I am using the materialist paradigm to explain why this rocks can exist withouth me being there, well, I can´t see why not. Damn I´m trapped I have been brainwashed. I want my enlightment!!!!