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@Corpus you snorted freebase?So the burn is not that bad?

Yeah It's so simple and obvious if we just wouldn't be totally hypnotized in the mind + thoughts 24/7

? @Rilles Sit in silence and just ask yourself "What is Conscioussness?". Don't look for an answer in the mind. Try to recognize directly what it is. Try to become consciouss that conscioussness can't be a thought, therefore can't be an intellectual answer.

When I make an important decision in my life (career) my first thoughts are not about the consecuences to my life about this decision, but rather the opinion/acceptance of others about this decision. I can see if I don't solve this, life won't get better anytime soon. I know psychedelics could help me face the this fears but ironically I've been avoiding for a lot of time precisely because I always have thoughts of "what if I lose control during the trip and I start calling people or whatever withouth inhibition". Ironically this is exactly what needs to happen in order to trascend this fear. This is exactly what I REALLY want to do. But the ego is terrified of this. The ego wants to control the damaged/hurt identity he believes itself to be. This kind of thoughts (of losing control and maybe call a family member and be totally me with them) makes me always postpone the trips. Of course I know is precisely this fear that I have to surrender in order to liberate myself from the fear of the opinion of others. This has been the root of all "stories" of my life. The root of 99% suffering of my life has been this "disorder". I guess Spirituality is called a "samsara" or karma from past lives. EVERYTHING has been ruled by this in my life. I am sure this is the major roadblock, withouth a doubt, in my path towards Enlightement. There's no way I get Enlightened before surrendering and trascending this fear/ego identity story. And it seems like hiking a monstrous mountain and the ego won't let go.

That's a good start, notice how different those two paragraphs are from the above ones. All are totally understandable, be sure to "pity yourself" long enough, and be ready to start going forward mate. The fact that you lost 35k, Take it as a " good lesson " (or a good remainder). Recently I was able to choose between towns around my city to start working, and because I didn't want to ask too much, i got the worst (more distance from my home) located work. The first days I was lamenting intensely of how I have 'fucked things up' yet the latest days I realized is this kind of things that make us be aware of our problems or things that might want to solve. In your Case, it could be a great "heads up" to you to start doing serious plans about your career or life purpose.

@kag101 Which one?

Of course, but according to the late narrative in this forum, that wouldn't be enlightenment. We don't really know what is possible. But of course we should strive for the best possible scenario

Enlightement is the realization of Truth... Sometimes just a "trip more" is what it's next to realize what is true . Doesn't matter if it's trip or meditation retreat of course. I'm just saying

@Nahm By the way, the work you do in this forum helping others its so fucking awesome. Keep being awesome please.(even though I know you can't help yourself ??

@Nahm Thanks man I took a small trip today and heart again felt amazing ✨ it's all good. Remembering I live in the present and not in thoughts ??

Lol YOU ARE GOD! You'll have to ask yourself!

Amazing. Thanks for sharing.

We are waiting for the trip report bro @James123??

No, not at all. That's exactly why both can exist .

Are you sure 'mental image' is a thing ? Isn't "mental image" just a thought?

Of course to keep living you must keep on with the story. But the video you are talking about is about Absolute Truth. When doing a video of politics, is normal to use relative truths.

Would you agree he would have a right to shoot him at least? I mean there´s gotta be some kind of repercusion of stealing police officer´s gun.

Last months were special, I had some mystical states, and lately I was deeply consciouss and knew that my thoughts weren't me. (In reality it's state, not a knowing). Then something happened 3 days ago in my life. A radical change and unexpected decision in the last moment. I've been totally lost in thought stories and deeply identified with my thoughts. Basically last 72hrs have been painful, a lot. Who know if maybe I would have suffered more if I wouldn't have done all Spiritual work I've done, but to be honest, this "hit" has make me deeply skeptick of the theory of "baseline level of consciousness".

Good for you that Alcohol works for you to loosen yourself up. Lots of people do it. Unfortunately (or fortunately) alcohol never really worked for me to socialize, had to resource to harder drugs, which made it un-doable in the long run so I had to come up with a sober, solve-the-root of the problem plan. But for one time if it has let you see that you can let go, even that can be therapeutic. Just try not to use it as a crotch. It will make you lose opportunities of working on yourself in the long run.

Beautiful.

Do this kind of things work?

Here's what I heard in this forum: "God is making it easy for you to wake up" "When you wake up, you realize all of your fuck ups were just a perfect design so you arrive at that precise moment to experience the Truth" Those kind of affirmations seem to imply that God's nature is DEEPLY PERSONAL to the life (story) of the ego. But also I have heard in this forum: "God doesn't care more about a human than an ant" "Nothing matters" "The ego mind wants to think it is special. But nothing further from the truth, because not even the "I" exists. Just surrender to the present moment. You dont exist" Those kind of affirmations seem to imply the contrary thought. If you guys are interested, I can give a clear explanation of why I am asking this question. I am starting to see a pattern in my life that it's making me think truly God is teaching me a lesson.

The last few months I rarely eat meat but I have always resorted to eggs for easy protein but Lately i´ve been feeling like eggs are somewhat nasty, I cant explain it my body is just saying "noo" to eggs lately. So I am naturally choosing cleaner foods and that ends up resulting in that Im not eating enough protein probably. I like lentils, but do you eat lentils every fucking day? Its soo easy to make 3 eggs in 5 minutes and get the protein of the day as easy as that So any idea? I want to think that the body does´t need such much protein as they say, but honestly I am not in the mood of doing legumes more than 3 times a week. It takes at least 2 hours of my time each time i try to cook them

Cbd doesn't get you stoned as thc does

Amazing post! Yes, you are so right that all judgments towards others will eventually backfire you and separate yourself, I have lived that in my first experience and it ruined my connection and social live for most of my life. Serious stuff . I'd like to put it like this: Since everything is You, when you judge other, you are literally judging a facet of yourself! Let's say your thin and you judge a far guy, well if someday you get fat you will judge yourself because that you haven accepted that facet yet. I actually have discovered an "exercise" to practice this. I don't know about you but sometimes when I am watching a movie or a TV show, some "cringe" situation will pop up where I used to skip that part because of so much cringe it gave me. But recently I realized I NEVER should do that! No matter how cringe it is that situation, ITS ME! I must go through the hard process (for the ego) of accepting a part of me (anything thing or anyone that I see in reality) that I feel embarassment or cringe. Once you accept that there's a new level of Self acceptance and love that you have about yourself. It's all YOU! You better not judge YOURself then ?