Javfly33

Nice, thanks a lot for the info hehe

Some days I eat half a kilo of Broccoli. I make sure I wash it enough of course and either stir fry it or vapor it to make sure I don´t get any pesticides/illnesses I eat it almost every day.

I have them. There is indeed a plant that I know for induce/start developing an habit for lucid dreaming: Kratom. I started having lucid dreaming because of using Kratom. Just take a relaxing strain at night, be sure you go to sleep while you are still on the substance effects. However, I wouldn't recommend it. I think it's " a pain in the ass " because usually if you lucid dreaming is because you remember your dreams, and if you remember your dreams and most of them are tiring and stressing your sleep rest will be very poor. Is what happens to me, and I hate it.

I want to know, for those how who have healthy relationship with your partner, and watch porn, how would you say porn affects you relationship and / or in sex? It is widely known that abuse of porn can cause sexual disfunctions but I am talking about a normal use of porn. Not a daily 2-hour binge addiction. I ask because since I discovered Nofap/NoPorn movement, when I abstainede from porn I felt pretty good , so I start blaming porn for everything related going bad in my "datelife". However after being in this state of quitting/not quitting for over almost 2 years, I'm starting to think that: 1. The positive effects when I abstain from porn some of them are placebo 2. The negative effects (like how I feel socially after binging in porn the previous night) are some of them definitely "nocebo" . 3. And, mainly, that while obviously you don't feel very good after binging on a dopmaine session of porn , if go out running afterwards for a long time and I wait 6-8 I am already back at baseline of feeling more or less the same that when I peak into porn previous in the day. Yes, I feel more healthy motivation speaking if I don't watch porn but if do it about 3-4 times a week, let's say an hour and a half each time, I more or less can maintain a functional life and still have sex drive. Yes, the sex drive compared to abstaining from fap+porn obviously is 100 times stronger but that sex drive for me really haven't benefitted me really rather than feeling all the time wanting to fuck. However I see that I find myself blaming porn for stuff in my personality, and I cabt help but to think what if this tell me I'm full of shit.

I agree with much of what you said in your post. However it doesn´t answer the question "why sexual mastery is not an option". I can´t see how is not an option. Healthy sexuality important sure, but If you need to have mastery in ANYTHING in order to feel respected by your girl, then you should check again. (i´m not talking about you, im talking in general) There´s just something wrong about it . A human being doesn´t need to master anything to be respected. It´s about his values and his self-acceptence. That inevitably gets communicated in form of confidence into any other human being he/she comunicates with. Again, this is not be confused that you shouldn´t do personal development/mastery of your psychology, traumas, etc. But there are´nt neccesary. A consicouss human being knows he/she is 100% whole whatever his life situation is. This is about you are as valuable as a human being wheter you cum in 5 seconds wheter you do Tantric Yoga for 2 hours giving your girl 5 full blown orgasms.

Last night I had one of those awful nights of such a poor sleep rest and full of weird, intense, vivid dreams. At this point almost all of my dreams are always Lucid, meaning "I know" I am in a dreaming and I can´t wait to get the fuck out of it because im so tired of them. So last night in one dream (lucid dream) the "reality" of the dream was so intense that I was going really shocked at how that could be possible. I then woke up and I had this sense of, "fuuuck me" how this is possible. I went again to sleep. Then In the following 2 dreams I was so LUCID, I started doing self-INQUIRY in the dreaming, asking "Who is the one who is dreaming right now"? I tried to totally ignore the "narrative" of the dream (someone chasing me, someone to fight etc) to try to focus on the feeling of "I" i was having in the dream. Just like in "real" awake life. I couldn´t get anywhere however. (meaning i didnt get any insights) This seems totally insane but happened lol. I obviously couldn´t figured out shit. I had a sense that the "I" behind the experience it was awareness also, just like in awake life. The fact that when you are also dreaming there´s the untouchable awarenss also there seems to me absolutely crazy. I´ve never thought about awareness being also in dreams.

You need some Yoga. I do A LOT of Pranayama and consciouss breathing when I feel really fucked up mentally from monkey-mind, even if Yoga is also used for Spiritual purposes, there´s some practices that are just about balance and peaceness of mind, to make the mind humble and put it at it´s level. Consciouss chest breathing with a straght spine has saved me from several maniatic spiritual episodes, you won´t believe how important is to have your body aligned and have "dignity" over whatever your mind says.

Lol, that´s seems quite insane. I don´t know if that would be possible but yeah, I will update if i keep having so much lucid dreams. I guess i´ll have to try to take advantage of

I don´t think pasta is precisely bad for you, it´s just doesn´t have a lot of nutritional value. That if you can digest it fine, I can´t stand it because I have a very hard time digesting it, but if you can, go ahead. But beware you have to eat a lot of other food because there´s no much nutritional value in pasta as im concerned.

I want to know more about this. Do you have a source/books where you got all of this? Last week doing some Pranayama I had a very meaningful moment where I opened my chest as wide as I could and I inhaled as profound as I could. I felt like I had to do that, that I was constrained. From that moment my body has been doing chest breathing a lot of time during the day and my awareness has been there. Also since that moment i have been having an urge to really breath in the chest and imagining opening my lungs to the air of the outside with little love emoticons absorving the air (LMAO I know but its true). I don´t want to sound corny but could that be the "heart chakra". What do you think all means? Or I am just bullshitting myself lol? (Chest breathing still I know is good for me because I felt constrained so its going to be good for my confidence/control, so that is actually real) BUt i mean the chakra stuff

With spirituality too. People say that you should first order your life, cure traumas, heal your "yourself" before approaching spiritual practices seriously, but they lack the holistic understanding that it´s all connected. You lack fear of rejection because you think you are ego. Wrong. Try again. You can always force yourself to be rejected but if the inside you are hurting in very real way you´ll end up very burned out psychologically and you won´t do it. Happened to me and until I realized I am not an a self I couldn´t put myself in "humiliating situations" but in the inside feeling totally grounded.

It´s 50% real 50% placebo. I love NoFap mainly because of the increased energy and motivation to do things: 1. You have more energy (this is not placebo) by the mere fact of the energy that you are not losing jerking off and ejaculating. 2. You have more energy because 2.A: of the placebo effect 3.B: nofap lifestyle makes you move more and exercise way more, both things are proved that increase energy (unless you do it until exhaustion) 4C: of the hypomanic/confidence that surely gives a boost of energy 3. You end up doing A LOT of stuff. You find yourself going to places or doing things that before you found boring but now since you are in this constant energy-edge slight hypomanic state you have to do things to alliviate the massive energy and mania for doing something. If you stay long enough in Nofap though, most of this benefits fade away since the excessive energy now is better managed and you don´t have to "bur it" in order to not jerk off. This doesn´t mean it´s bad, since now you are probably totally free from masturbation and enjoy a very healthy life of dopamine free sexual stimulation (people can say they abstain from porn but jerk off, but this is very difficult to accomplish). I wish you the best of luck.

Kundalini usually is misinterpreted by all sort of things... Kundalini is real but at the same time is just a metaphor, is not like if you feeling anything in your spine or belly is actually "kundalini"... However I don´t want to say to you what your "experience" was because I obviously don´t know. But with this kind of things one says "what was that" is better to just leave it there. I had strange experiences too but since they haven´t solved or clear any confusion really I just don´t give them much importance.

I still feel empathy for "humans" in situatinos of suffering, so I guess I haven´t yet embodied what I´m saying or else is just another concept of the mind. The future will tell. But truth is, everybody says "doubt everything, you need to see things outside of the perception of the mind/language" Ok. Well what I have observed is, I am not sure when you look at a human being, there is a person there. I don´t understand exactly how suffering is fucking possible. I have seen with my own eyes my own person being nothing more than a part of reality which doesn´t live at all more than the "lifeness" than the awareness projects onto this own body. It´s clear than awareness can´t suffer or feel. But is also clear than the body, or thoughts, also can´t suffer or feel. Then WHO the fuck is actually suffering or feeling?? Jesuschrist this is going to make me nuts (but, again, who is really going nuts here?) Broh If i start like this i won´t end until im exhausted and more confused than ever. I´m beggining to accept i´ll never sort it out and I will rest just in the breath. At least I will in peace.

That´s amazing that you say that. I´ve been doing that since yesterday´s morning. I had a brutal insight doing Yoga after a couple of miserable weeks of monkey mind and increased anxiety. During the exercise it was pranayamas and the last exercise was to just "be conscious of the breath". I realized my chest was fucking constrained by my ego-talk and anxiety i´ve been pain attention all of this time. I realized if I put my back straight, open my chest and breath slow and profound, I regain power. I´ve been doing this since yesterday and I think I can seriously change my life a lot if I keep doing it. However when I engage with work or whatever I have to let go a little bit of this concentration. But so far in the "doing nothing in particular" moments I am doing it.

First of all, let me say that I am not sure if my experience should be posted on " Meditation, Consciousness, Enlightenment, Spirituality" , or in " Health, Fitness, Nutrition" in fact I am writing this to see if anyone has experienced the same, or even better if this isn´t something as uncommon as I think and it is just a "side effect" of doing exercise sometime, and it shouldn´t be "deluded" with minor-awakening or shift of consciousness. However, since I have been running since I am 15 years old, and this experience only has happened to me 3 times, all of them in the last couple of months, I thought it was something worth to share and maybe pay some attention into discovering what is happening. So I´ll get to the point: Bascially it has happened to me 3 times while I am jogging/running , that I get a very strong "disorientation of perception". I´ll try to explain what happens: I am aware of my body running or my thoughts coming in as always, but suddenly, and out of the blue, basically I get this "shift" in which I do not know where to attach myself. Basically is like the most "fundamental I" inside me stops identifiying with the body, and I basically, during about 10-15 seconds I literally do not know where I am. During this short time, there is an increase heart-rate, and "minor panic sensation". It suddenly ends because I start talking again to myself" re-assuring of where I am" and it finally ends. This "feeling" doesn´t come from a thought, so its not like I start thinking, whoa, whoa I am feeling dizzy, where I am. No. It´s more like, when you are meditating, you know that "neutral place" where everything comes from? Well that place in that moment doesn´t know where it should focus/attach to, because it stops attaching to the body, so basically during some seconds that thing doesn´t know where it is located. After 10 seconds the thing again starts being located again in the thought and the experience ends.

Yeap, I remember when working downtown I used to hang out several days afterwork to grab a beer around 9:30pm, then I would get home around 11:00pm, take a shower and finally eat at 11:30 I wouldn´t say this style damaged my habits or healthy life, its definetely radical but depending on what society you live some times its what works best.

I read in psychedelicsociety that dosing is (obviously) much accurate and therefore safer, if it´s synthetic 5-MeO-DMT than if its "picked up" from the actual toad...Is this a concern regarding tripping at psychedelic retreats? Like, should I make sure the 5-MeO-DMT they offer me will it be from synthetic form? If its not should I pass and look for another one maybe?

It depends on the kind of life you have lived. If you have lived a very fast-paced life, with lots stimulation, etc it is very hard to not fall again and again during your spiritual road into the desires, hopes, and traps of the mind. Apart from that,I think there´s difference in each brain/sould/body and depending who you are, you will be more "prone" to awaken, or not. But the first point is very important. Difficult to awaken if when you get into daily life you have 100 desires and goals, lots of trips with friends, etc. So basically what the 90% of modern world is now designed.

From my research on several psychedelics/drugs forums, Datura and similar delirants, are very risky in comparison to reward. Apparently with this one the urban myth "you can actually never come back from the trip" is actually possible.

Yesterday´s night I woke up at 2.00am after having some kind of strange experience (in the "dream state" or wherever I was) which lasted about 5 seconds. This experience was similar to sometimes "hipnogonic hallucinations" which commonly include a "ringing sound" for some seconds which sometimes I had experience (I have experienced them maybe 4,5 times, they are quite common). Well, I don´t give much importance to it, apparently its something similar to sleep paralysis and so on. Can be uncomfortable, can be weird, but during the time it passes one has a sense of "I". But yesterday it was different. I remember during the first second or two I became consciouss of being the "Observer" and there wasn´t anything else there. There was fear but since it wasn´t anything more than that, I had to let go of fighting what was happening. What preceeded was an incrementing shining light (im not kidding) and then for some seconds just pure emptyness of being. When I woke up I felt like I had been somewhere else. I wanted to know if this could be related with Spiritual Development, since I have been doing important progress lately, or it could just be another sleep disorder/hallucination to not give much importance to.

Thanks friend. I wish you luck

Porn will be out of your life when you´re lifestyle doesn´t match with porn. For example, do you feel like binging on porn when you recently went out running/exercising? Do you feel like binging on porn when you have social appointments or a date that day? You get my point, right? There´s plenty of stuff to do but the "fastest" way to get porn out of your life is mainly fix your dopamine chasing habit (1. By exercising long-enough reguarly EACH DAY) and (2. ) by having enough social interactions/appointment conection with people. Start changing your life enough to do a lot of those two points (especially 2., but don´t forget number 1) and you won´t have to worry about porn. Don´t try to change but instead try techniques or "magic-pills" (like nofap, meditation, kratom etc) and prepare for a long time high and lows, suffering, hopes, and relapses. Source: Personal experience

1000 girls? wtf...man. I don´t know what to tell you but... I think you should focus in marketing. I think have enough skills with that statistics lmao... By the way, to fellow actualizer to fellow actualizer... what advice would you give me to start picking up girls? I used to do it about 5 years ago, where I was more shy than now, but now I can´t get myself to fucking do it lol, what surprises me because now I think I´m more confident than before...or not lol I´m so confused. Need advice. I think I have get very comfotable and because it seems so uncomfortable start picking up again i can´t get myself to doit.

I don´t think this would be flow state. I do programming and i have entered supposedly what they call "flow state" and yeah you "lost the track of time", and if you ask where I was during the "flow" i would answer you "in the program/screen" but there is never a change of awareness, in fact I would say is the opposite, you are total focused in the thing. Also flow state usually lasts a lot longer, this is just some seconds where I shit myself in my pants and then I come back to monkey mind haha...