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I can relate to the whole Asian thing where people around you become toxic. I'm myself going through something similar. One day there'll be a revolution in Asia and we'll get ultimate freedom from this cultural rut. I hope that you continue to cope with your situation. I was writing about this in my recent journal.. And this is what I wrote. Soft beast with a purpose. A hard beast and a soft beast. Evil people become complacent because lack of humility and no driver or negative motivation. Evil intentions don't have a driver so they don't succeed Good intentions can exist with or without a driver. A negative motivation Good intentions because of negative energy succeed. The negative energy acts like an active component or torpedo. Evil intentions don't have this torpedo. I'll call this torpedo an emotional explosive. Bad intentions don't carry emotional explosives Godzilla. Be like Godzilla. Hang in there my fellow Asian friend!! We have to turn into a Godzilla and protect ourselves from toxicity and domination. We have to be a soft beast. Being good and decent is not enough, don't let the devil win, fight harder and one day victory will come to you. Just focus on protecting yourself from the harmful effects around you. Eat good food. Sleep well. Think of good things. Don't cry. Don't let yourself be weak.. Don't let it impact your psyche or it will turn into a hurt cycle. Keep yourself strong and resilient. One day things will be better for you and me. Right now you're just a soft person and there are hard beasts around you. But once you turn into a soft beast like Godzilla then you will see your path to freedom and healing. You will automatically see the path out of the situation.

Block Block Block Block anyone who is toxic. No need of such people and such friends Be with people who like to keep things decent and respectful. Block everyone else.. Whatever be the status quo of the system, regardless of whatever, a person should have to feel cared for and there is no excuse in the whole universe why a person should not have to feel cared for.. I want to be very careful with who I want to be friends with in this journal section.

The only true test of knowing that I've grown is when I realize I've outmoded myself. Kant Shakespeare Plato Gurdjieff David Bohm Ancient hindu texts Bodhidharma Nagarjuna Gnostic texts Socrates Thucydides Books on ancient greek civilization Books on ancient Roman civilization Maybe enlightenment works Transcendentalism Beat generation literature David foster wallace Stanley kubrick David lynch Alfred hitchcock Hegel Zizek Maybe even Freud Pascal Nietzsche Cioran Schopenhauer Spinoza Karen Horney Marcus Aurelius Descartes

The Enneagram, Instinctual Variants, Socionics, and Big 5 are all fantastic personality test resources to further expand your self-knowledge. It may even open some new doors, to your surprise! So we have subtypes like Dominant and Auxiliary. Depending on the stack. User can be aux, blind or Dom.. Aux represents the unutilized function. We have our strongest energies that usually find their maximum Expression. Then we have the weakest energies that are usually pushed down or rarely expressed. But it's all about blending and Integrating all energies that creates a more wholesome individual. Eventually how you use these energies, dominant or inferior is what matters most and not what personality you are.

The primary stack will come intuitively — and is comparable to the primary function in the Briggs and Myers system. The second piece is called the helper, and the final one is known as the blind spot (the ‘area of neglect’...or perhaps the root of bad decisions). Socionics If the 16-type indicator had a slightly wacky and soft-spoken cousin, then Socionics is its name. Conceptualized in the 1970s by Lithuanian Aushra Augusta, this test takes a unique approach on the original 16 types. It combines Model A (of the psyche) with a model of interpersonal relations. While the 16-type system uses eight cognitive functions to determine type, Socionics enters the scene and bridges psychology and sociology, hence its name. The ‘Thinking’ function is translated to ‘Logic’, and ‘Feeling’ is to ‘Ethics’ — another key difference in naming. Instead of focusing on the individuals themselves, it sheds light on interpersonal relations (in sociological terms, that would be symbolic interactionism). Socionics combines the classic four Jungian and the following 11 Reinin scales: Static — Dynamic Positivist — Negativist Asking — Declaring Tactical — Strategic Constructivist — Emotivist Result — Process Yielding — Obstinate Carefree — Farsighted Judicious — Decisive Aristocracy — Democracy Merry — Serious Eight functional positions (leading, creative, role, vulnerable, suggestive, mobilizing, observant, demonstrative) are present instead of the classic four (dominant, auxiliary, tertiary, inferior) in the 16-type system. The results from the Socionics test are known as ‘Sociotypes’, and focus upon Freudian values of ego, superego, id, and superid blockages — using the original Jungian typology as a base to build upon. The Big 5 As one of the most popular industrial-organizational hiring tools, the Big 5 traits-based test lives up to its name. It’s essentially an empirical coordinate system that translates answers into useful numbers or statistics. These iconic five pillars (taking OCEAN acronym) are: Openness (Novelty, Creativity, Exploration) Conscientiousness (Responsibility, Goal-Setting, Focus) Extraversion (Sociability, Outwardness, Expansion) Agreeableness (Diplomacy, Trust, Warmth) Neuroticism (Reactivity, Stress, Instability) The 16-type system and the Big 5 have very clear links: Agreeableness for Feeling, Conscientiousness for Judging, and Openness for Intuition (there's no correlate for Neuroticism in Myers and Briggs' system). What’s the major difference between them? Their framework: the type theory versus the trait theory. You can take a free Big Five test right here at Truity! It consists of 60 questions and takes around 15 minutes. The world of personality tests is a vast and ever-expanding one. It can be challenging to wrap your head around the functionalities of each system at first (all of those terms and graphs, ahem). As our personalities are being moulded by technology, it’s easier than ever to gain a better understanding of ourselves. While some traits may be biologically innate; others could be moulded through our later-day social interactions and first-hand experiences.

(gathered from the web) The classic Myers-Briggs personality inventory is one of the most popular and renowned personality profiling systems. With over 88 percent of the Fortune 500 currently using it, it holds the crown as the choice questionnaire for people development and team-fit processes worldwide. But, as freakishly accurate as this personality test can be, you’ll get a much more holistic breakdown of your personality as well as the individual traits that influence it when you combine the 16-type with other tests. Since personality psychology is extremely complex and multifaceted, one test cannot tell all there is to your identity. Whether it’s team formation, relationship building, or personal curiosity (yes, looking at you!), personality tests have many useful real-world applications, which can guide you on your journey to personal fulfillment. Enneagram Personality Test Conceptualized and derived from the early teachings of Claudio Naranjo and Oscar Ichazo, this nine-pointed dreamcatcher-like Enneagram maps out the primary mottos, motivators, fears, vices, virtues, and ego fixations behind the actions and behavior of each individual. Its geometric structure traces back all the way to the mathematical Pythagorean era (approximately), and has striking similarities to various religious symbols. Energy is displaced based upon your core motives and desires, which is then reflected in your behavior. The Riso-Hudson Enneagram Type Indicator (RHETI v2.5) is a choice-based test with 144 paired statements, developed by some of the most recognized experts in the field. Or, you can take Truity's free Enneagram test. Here’s a quick breakdown of the nine roles (and each core motive): 1 - The Reformer (Principles) 2 - The Helper (Relationships) 3 - The Achiever (Status) 4 - The Individualist (Self-Expression) 5 - The Investigator (Understanding) 6 - The Loyalist (Security) 7 - The Enthusiast (Experience) 8 - The Challenger (Competition) 9 - The Peacemaker (Mediation) There are extensions, or “wings” that further elaborate upon how intricate your personality could be, and these can be either one of the neighboring types — this is called a ‘subtype’. For instance, an Achiever with Helper tendencies translates to the 3W2. This would look significantly different from a 3W4, which has individualist tendencies. It’s also possible to stick strictly to one role and lean toward neither wing. In contrast to the 16-type indicator which focuses on personal judgement and perception, the Enneagram emphasizes how each of the nine types (or eighteen total subtypes) handles personal vices and deals with pain points, as well as emotive and thought patterns. While the MBTI® may describe your outlooks and choices, the Enneagram can help uncover core motivations that drive your hopes and fears. A great application of the Enneagram is solving your internal and external conflicts with more clarity by understanding exactly what makes you tick. It’s like doing intensive detective work within yourself! Instinctual Variants Test With blocks arranged as a hierarchical stack, the three Instinctual Variants (Self-Preserving, Sexual, and Social) effectively expand upon the Enneagram. The Instinctual Variants Questionnaire (IVQ v2.0) is a choice-based inventory with 37 sets containing three statements each. There’s a focus question each type aims to align with their actions: Self-preserving (SP): “How can I conserve my own energy and resources for the future and live securely?” Common topics of discussion with SP-firsts involve finance, food, clothing, real estate, interior design, and home decor. They may relish in lavish lifestyles and indulgence under extreme stress. Sexual (SX): “How can I achieve inner satisfaction through the intensity and merging of my energy with another (person/object/passion) into one?” Personal likes, tastes, fantasies, desires, dreams, and gleaming visions for the future are what SX-firsts bring to the table. The intense, inward-facing energy can appear to the outer world as brooding or rumination. Social (SO): “How can I better facilitate the functions of my group and understand where we stand in society, together?” Politics, relationships, friendships, family, social gatherings, trends, and global news are a few of the many topics SO-firsts enjoy discussing. They seek to figure out exactly how they fit as a puzzle piece in the world around them. These three blocks then turn into six combinations (the final block is usually omitted): SP/SO SP/SX SX/SP SX/SO SO/SP SO/SX

Different methods of learning and expanding /exploring Questioning Opening conversations Scanning for material or foraging (shorebird technique) Storing and recording information Analyzing information Implementing and using information Observation Awareness of Self and Environment Studying topics Making notes Recollecting digested information Brainstorming information Reading and hearing exhaustively Contemplation and coming up with insights Logical interpretation Applying reasoning Gaining depth and understanding Connecting dots Reading and memorizing Engaging in debates Finer interpretation Cross examination Interrogation Asking polarizing questions and opening controversial content Challenging status quo Playing Devil's advocate Using Intuition Nuance Body language analysis Microscopically examining minor details Integrating Silly banter and gossip (you learn through gossip important details that aren't public but this information may or may not be credible Profound realizations Open mindedness Basically being a huge information scanner if you want to be a safely surviving machine and don't wanna get in trouble. Authentic expression Introspection Direct experience https://i.imgflip.com/4xunwy.jpg So we have subtypes like Dominant and Auxiliary. Depending on the stack. User can be aux, blind or Dom.. Aux represents the unutilized function.

@LSD-Rumi well good to know then.

@LSD-Rumi now of course I'm going to listen to a doctor. I can't outsmart a doctor. I mean they are not simply reading things. They are dealing with patients in real life. They get to see test results. So I guess they know better when they say LDL is bad? I mean who wants to take a chance against a doctor's opinion?

@LSD-Rumi and LDL is bad?

I guess saturated fats. I would that at all costs. Don't know about carbs. How are you supposed to get energy?

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@Marcel I love you in a thousand different ways. My words fall short in describing how much I love you. How deeply I need you. The sound of your voice saying "I love you" makes my heart pound. You're my lovely gifted Prince Charming and I never wish to part from you. Hearing your voice makes my whole body quiver with joy You are the reason for the butterflies in my tummy. I have given into sweet surrender with you. Prince of my heart, you're amazingly dependable, reliable and you fill my life with unspeakable joy. This is why I love you with undying love.

I haven't tried visualizations so much. But both affirmations and visualizations help.

Lmao @ white Christmas.

@Mason Riggle can you show how? With pictures.

That's impossible to do. I scratched my brain so hard.

I used to watch him before watching Leo. He used to appear smart and intelligent. But I always felt something was off about him and I couldn't put a finger on it. Maybe his delivery. His constant smiling. It felt as though it's all an act. Who knows. Also there's a hypnotic feel to all these New Agey people which I seriously do not like because I'm come out feeling a bit groggy after watching Teal Swan or Ralph Smart. For me someone like Adyashanti and Rupert Spira are way better and they don't make me feel hypnotized. They are pleasant to watch and hear and I never had any issues with them. Another one is Matt Kahn.

I'm not sure about One Note. Because last time I used it, I lost my entries About Evernote, it doesn't allow more than 90 mb upload for a free user per month. I can't use notion because I gave my private email id to someone else and so they can see all my private entries. Royally fucked up. So abandoned it. Won't make that mistake again.

Yessssssssssssss. I remember now. I got it now. I wanted to desperately vent about this cat who has made my life a literal hell for the past 3 days. So there's a cat around my balcony on the roof and it keeps climbing there (I'm very sensitive to sounds. And the only time I find peace is when it rains) This notorious male cat has been going around my house and other houses and making non stop meow sounds. It's not even like a meow. More like a maow. It's so loud and harsh. It is very annoying. It's not pleasant at all. And this grumpy cat has been continuously maowing for past 3 days.. I don't even find it when I go looking for it. It keeps walking everywhere especially in the night when I'm asleep and keeps picking fights with other cats. Loud fights. Mind you, I love cats a lot and I never found any cat to be annoying. I have petted the most wild feral Hostile cats when I was a child. Meowing doesn't annoy me since I'm used to those sounds and in fact that's the most healing sound to my ears, that's the first animal sound I heard as a kid, I mean I saw cats when I was just 2-3 years old. So imagine how annoying this cat really has to be if a cat lover like me is getting annoyed. Yea wanted to vent about that. Really annoying sounds 24/7 from this male cat. I can tell it's a male cat because these sounds and the meowing style is distinct and typical of male cats. Especially if they are in heat or something. Good Lord, catty please find someone and stop maowing, it's annoying.