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I'm more wondering you deal with the difficulty of working a full time job, a tiring one at that, and building your purpose at the same time?

Yes. They go great together imo. Smoke at any point. It can amplify the experience so be aware of that.

Down the road, yes. Right now, no. That's inspiring. I'm still growing the skills I need to excel at my life purpose. In two years though, I could definitely be somewhere.

I dont know if you can ever get away from that filter. As long as you're human it will always be there. Being aware of it though will help you see through it. Also, try expressing yourself creatively.

Things that lower your vibration are all very personal. Do you feel like it lowers your vibration? Do you know exactly what it looks like when your vibration is lowered?

I've been trying to get in touch with my feminine more lately. I feel like I've always taken it for granted. I don't really know how you would go about getting in touch with your feminine. Some of the things I've been doing mostly surround my body and how it looks/feels. Wearing pretty clothes that make me feel girly, taking excellent care of my hair and skin (facial massages, brushing my hair 100 strokes every night), wearing some sort of floral essential oil and smelling good. Also, doing hatha yoga, paying attention to how my body feels throughout the day and making adjustments, making sure I look good both at home and when I go out. Really amping up the self-care of my body has been big for me and feeling feminine. I also feel very feminine when I am connecting with other humans. When I go out and express myself clearly, I feel like a very powerful and beautiful woman.

Take some time experimenting with different things. Maybe you do some yoga, eat, get ready for the day. Maybe you meditate first thing or drink some water upon rising. There are lots of morning routine videos on YouTube that gave me ideas as well.

Do you wear sunscreen?

If you're gonna do wheat/gluten try and do organic. I notice a huge difference in the way I react to non organic/organic wheat. I wouldn't even fuck with non organic wheat. It's that big of a difference.

If I want to post a YouTube video, is that done through the video's link, through an "embedded" link, or another way? Thank you.

The reason you're inspired is because you enjoy creating, and watching someone express themselves in that way makes you want to do it. The thing being created doesn't matter.

Find out what YOUR highest value is, then worry about what the highest value of "the world" is.

@JonasVE12 sexuality OCD is a thing. It's where people obsess about what their sexuality is. And it can affect their ability to perform.

Weed is like that sometimes. In life you may make lots of progress and feel really "tapped in" and then other times you'll feel like you're going nowhere and "what was all that progress about anyway?" Good job on your work

got it

On this forum, not YouTube.

That's good. You need a healthy understanding of the physical world. You may have the feeling to do both at the same time even. That's fine. Explore both.

It depends on the type of women you're dating. A mature woman who has done an amount of development on herself won't have a problem with it.

I dont know if there's anything necessarily wrong with daydreaming. Even when you think you "should" be working on something else. Maybe try allowing yourself to daydream and not have anxiety about it.

Now that you mention that I do notice a difference when I have an gentle movement practice.

Update: drank coffee today (cold brew nonetheless ?) due to a special occasion.. reminded me why I don't keep this habit. Another thing is the acidity in my stomach! It's so harsh. I think I am going to implement a caffeine tea back into my routine though, I really enjoy having a bit of an energy boost when I'm working.

It also makes me very anxious. The anxiety coffee gives me sounds kind of like that, but not as severe to the point I feel like a heroin addict withdrawing. I do really enjoy green tea, a nice boost for sure. I really like all your ideas. I am eating a lot of sugar right now. I've been working on the expression part, it does feel so good. Thanks for mentioning that.

@SLuxy I actually was diagnosed with ADHD lol. I haven't taken any action on the diagnosis though.

I'm trying to figure out this Karma thing. Sometimes it just feels like I NEED to play out a particular drama in my life and work through that Karma. Its almost like I can't do anything about it. But I dont know if I'm taking a victim role in my life or what exactly is the deal here.

I dont think that it will block anyone off spiritually or that it will prevent anyone from becoming enlightened. Do some research on it. I'm apprehensive as well and that's ok, just stay away from the fear mongering