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My ketamine story suits this forum. Several years ago I snorted some at a party. I had been drinking, which intensifies the effects of ketamine. At this point in my life I had several psychedelic trips under my belt. As soon as it entered my body I felt really heavy and had to get down onto the ground. The heaviness intensified and I felt ill so I crawled to the door and onto a patio to lay on the ground. At this point I couldn't physically move and began getting intense visuals. Not colorful psychedelic visuals though. My whole world tilted laterally and I entered into a black hole of sorts. It was just blackness that had a quality of depth to it. Infinite darkness that dove deeper and deeper and deeper. It didn't stop and I was very scared. As it kept going I thought to myself "what is this?" and as it continued I was like "oh yea, it's God." I had some familiarity with God already so I was open to seeing it. The experience lasted for what seemed like quite some time and I spent the rest of the night recovering from the whole thing as the body load was extreme to the point I couldn't walk for hours. I don't recommend it. It's dark and I saw several people get addicted and lose themselves in it. But if you do try, make sure you trust the source, the people you are with (don't do it alone), and the dose you take. Also, no drinking with it. Professional ketamine therapy is gaining traction these days as well so it does have healing properties when used correctly.

This or nicotine gum, it gives a buzz. Anything to get you off the smokes. They're so addictive that it's normal to have to taper off with a different nicotine ingestion method.

@Gabith there are actual classes you can take to desensitize you from phobias. The way it works is they gradually expose you to the trigger so you are no longer bothered by it.

@PepperBlossoms it may be helpful for you to grieve. Cry for yourself that you made this mistake, for the person you hurt, for the loss of how things used to be. Allow yourself to feel the pain and have it move through you.

@assx95 maybe they sensed the conversation wasn't going anywhere and got bored.

Somatic Experiencing. You can look it up online but finding a practitioner woupd be most effective.

What are some of the traits of a high quality woman? Here's a few I came up with: Takes care of and nourishes her body Dresses nice and clean Able to laugh and enjoy herself Is kind to people and animals Has hobbies Is in touch with her own spirituality and wildish nature Is confident in her sexuality Knows what she likes

@roopepa you don't have to wait for an official diagnosis from doctor. Self-diagnosis is valid.

Thats how comments online work sometimes.

@meta_male it can be really helpful to watch videos of other people going through a dark night. This man's YouTube has some good videos that you may like. https://youtube.com/channel/UCVv4cVyjKgc3EkFF7-lAwOA Also, don't try and escape it. It's a great teacher and you will learn a lot. Take care of yourself.

Yes. There is research that says regular use severely depletes your serotonin, forever. https://www.drugabuse.gov/publications/research-reports/mdma-ecstasy-abuse/what-are-mdmas-effects-on-brain

@Kamo desensitize means you will have a hard time feeling. But thats only if you use it heavily. Some damage will occur with light usage but it won't be very significant.

*entheogen

It's an empathogen. While it can create "psychedelic" effects, it's not a true "psychedelic". There's still a lot we don't know about MDMA.

Depending on how many times you've taken MDMA, even a micro dose will be disorienting. It would be a waste. Don't do MDMA though. It's harmful and is not a psychedelic

I've heard it's pretty cool if you're into that kind of stuff.

Because goodness is in God's nature.

@noticeom the psychedelic you take and the environment you're in all make a big difference, too.

@integral How painful are these periods? Are you talking debilitating pain where the person is in bed and has a hard time functioning normally? Typically with periods, there is a point at which the symptoms of pms are a sign that something is wrong. Extreme pain is one of those signs. But you'd want to know more about the person to make any diagnosis. Sometimes it's that the body is quite unhealthy. Hormone imbalances are also something to look at. Super painful periods are not normal though, so no one needs to just accept that.

@Blackhawk some people don't give a fuck about enlightenment

@Nivsch sometimes nothing will help and all you can do is sit in misery. Practices over time can help. As can movement, in order to get out of your head.

Not at all... Men can be very loving during sex.

@StarStruck it's not personal. Girls are like that. Keep trying and keep it lighthearted.

Are you actually being outcome independent? Neediness and desperation are a huge turn off and I can always sense it from a mile away.

Yea, find a place where you are not so obvious. It's not polite to show off your meditation like that.