Being an "evil" character

[onacloudynight]

I am beginning to think that I must be an evil character on this earth...

I dont want to be, but it seems like all I am focused on lately is discovering my evil side. It seems as if I don't know the power I am capable of and it causes me to feel as though I am not aware of that aspect...

[Yimpa]

Yeah, I get those thoughts from time to time. Notice how those thoughts come and go, yet you don’t. 

[onacloudynight]

12 minutes ago, Yimpa said:

Yeah, I get those thoughts from time to time. Notice how those thoughts come and go, yet you don’t. 

I might be subconsciously identified with a character 

[Eternal Unity]

@onacloudynight You're Satan, incarnated.

[Yimpa]

15 minutes ago, onacloudynight said:

I might be subconsciously identified with a character 

“might be” are the key words here. 

[onacloudynight]

21 minutes ago, Eternal Unity said:

@onacloudynight You're Satan, incarnated.

That's scary 

[onacloudynight]

9 minutes ago, Yimpa said:

“might be” are the key words here. 

What? "I am" is the right answer? 

[Eternal Unity]

5 minutes ago, Loba said:

We're all liars...

Speak for yourself. Lovely mountain ?, beautiful and serene.

[Eternal Unity]

@onacloudynight yeah, immortality has that kind of thing ?

[Yimpa]

14 minutes ago, onacloudynight said:

What? "I am" is the right answer? 

The answer comes from the heart. Searching for an answer in the form of a thought or a belief won’t get you very far. 

[onacloudynight]

24 minutes ago, Yimpa said:

The answer comes from the heart. Searching for an answer in the form of a thought or a belief won’t get you very far. 

The deepest I am going seems to be mental illnesses. That is as far as I can go

My heart seems to be made of thoughts as well ?

[Yimpa]

13 minutes ago, onacloudynight said:

The deepest I am going seems to be mental illnesses. That is as far as I can go

My heart seems to be made of thoughts as well ?

I can assure you I have several mental illnesses, and despite that, I’ve been able to access deep states of love and connectedness from time to time. 

You’ve got this. 

[Eternal Unity]

@Yimpa Thank you!

[John Paul]

Be good 

[onacloudynight]

47 minutes ago, Yimpa said:

I can assure you I have several mental illnesses, and despite that, I’ve been able to access deep states of love and connectedness from time to time. 

You’ve got this. 

What am I missing here??? I am stuck on mental illnesses for some reason. There is one I am not aware of I think ???

[Eternal Unity]

@onacloudynight You're missing The Experience of Paradox.

[onacloudynight]

6 hours ago, Eternal Unity said:

@onacloudynight You're missing The Experience of Paradox.

Explain....

[Eternal Unity]

@onacloudynight 2 appearingly contradictory truths existing together in reality.

[onacloudynight]

8 hours ago, Eternal Unity said:

@onacloudynight 2 appearingly contradictory truths existing together in reality.

So which paradox do I need to understand?

[Eternal Unity]

The Arrow Paradox