Louis’ Journal

[PretentiousHuman]

Day 12-B:

Good things happened today as i got to the gym, eat delicious foods, had some pedicure, been myself. 
 

I won’t be worried on the things that is not good to me anymore. I will always believe in my self. I will just take things as they are and be grateful for everything that is happening to me. 

[PretentiousHuman]

Day 13:

I only got 5 hours plus sleep again. I will sleep earlier this evening after my duty. I don’t have the headache and dizziness i often experience. But the ringing of ears don’t usually go away. Lack of sleep is my number 1 issue. I will address this moving forward. 
 

I’m grateful that i have a job i like and being able to live the life i always wanted. 

[PretentiousHuman]

Day 13-B:

I got so fucking tired at my duty. I’m a nurse and working in a government hospital here at Philippines is very tiring. I don’t know if I’m going to wait applying for US or just expedite going to abroad via UK because the latter is faster than going USA. I just have to manage my expectations with my self and be more forgiving with myself and other people. 
 

You can do it. I believe in you. Thank you Leo. 

[PretentiousHuman]

Day 14:

I had 6 hours of sleep and i was very thankful. Though i am still sleepy, i will be sleeping most of my free time now. My addiction to Social Medias should be lowered from now on. And the Screen Time from iOS is very effective. 
 

Grateful for Leo in all of his works. I’m getting better and I’m healing. 

[PretentiousHuman]

Day 14-B:

I talked to a friend today that was related to the woman that i loved before. I told him that i am moving on and it is making me better. 

[PretentiousHuman]

Day 14-C:

I’m not going to go to any party anymore. 

[PretentiousHuman]

Day 14-D:

I’m gonna have my last tattoos tomorrow and I’m excited. I’m a nurse and there’s still a stigma that when you have tattoos, you’re perceived as a criminal, not accepted citizen, etc. I love myself now having tattoos more than ever as a personal choice or for personal development. My tattoos give me strength as well. And I don’t care now how people see me, I’m still in love with my self. 
 

Tomorrow would also be the birthday of my past lover, I won’t greet her, for the reason that i don’t want to reconnect with her anymore and I don’t want to expect anything from her anymore. 

Edited June 28, 2022 by PretentiousHuman

[PretentiousHuman]

Day 15:

I’m very happy. I will get some tattoos today. 

[PretentiousHuman]

Day 15-B:

Very happy to have my tattoos today and tomorrow would be the 2nd session and I’m getting a La Muerta Tattoo. Goodnight. 

[PretentiousHuman]

Day 16:

I was finished with my workout and it made me feel good. I will practice good sleeping habits too. I’m going later to the tattoo shop and i will have a forearm sleeve. 

[PretentiousHuman]

Day-16B:

I am so stoked. I already have the tatoos that i wanted. ??????
 

Goodnight. 

[PretentiousHuman]

Day 17:

1st day of catching all of my dreams. Let’s get it. Thank you Lord. ??????

[PretentiousHuman]

Day 17-B:

Today was very tiring. I still have some symptoms from Crohn’s Diseases like diarrhea and abdominal pain but will try alternative ways of controlling it. I will try intermittent fasting again tomorrow. 

[PretentiousHuman]

Day 18:

Last night was an overthinking slumber. I fucking watch porn, fapped browsed social media. But I still managed to read journaled. I’m on my way to healing. ❤️❤️❤️

[PretentiousHuman]

Day 18-B:

Photo of me and my favorite tattoo artist. ???

[PretentiousHuman]

Day 18-B:

A day without purpose. I just watch some movies and chilled. Time to sleep. Night!

[PretentiousHuman]

Day 19:

It’s been days since I have journaled because I forgot to do it. Anyways, I have planned 100% of working and living at USA as a nurse. I’m from the Philippines and it’s my ultimate dream to live at USA. I’m at the process of healing now from my past relationship and I’m beginning to, once again reading some NCLEX materials for my exam. 
 

Will be disciplined now more than ever. ❤️❤️❤️

[PretentiousHuman]

Day 19-B:

I have a wonderful day. I got to the gym, watched the Thor, and again used Social Medias. I think it’s a tool where you can connect with people but it should be also use in moderation. I’m inspired now to read Nursing books as it will make me a better nurse and can use it once i’ve been at USA. 

I hope that all is well. 

[PretentiousHuman]

Day 20:

Tired as fuck as I went to an overthinking again, ruminating about my ex Lover. I’m the only one making it hard for my self in moving on. Or am i just unaware of the things I’m doing for my self. I think i need some help now. 

[PretentiousHuman]

Day 12-B:

Taking the day as slow as possible, did not took it so serious. No gym, no reading. Just taking one breath at a time. I still have pain in me. And whatever it is that i am going through, i believe that it’ll only make me stronger. 
 

Onwards.