The day I stop writing is the day I am dead

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On 6/4/2020 at 2:38 PM, Preety_India said:

 

I want to describe different concepts through images 

Crystal clear

 

 

 

 

On 6/4/2020 at 2:41 PM, Preety_India said:

Best of both worlds 

 

 

 

 

On 6/4/2020 at 2:45 PM, Preety_India said:

 

     The Juice 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

On 6/4/2020 at 3:06 PM, Preety_India said:

 

Devil's advocate 

 

 

 

On 6/4/2020 at 3:47 PM, Preety_India said:

 

Blurred lines

 

 

 

 

On 6/4/2020 at 3:52 PM, Preety_India said:

 

Silent Observer 

 

 

 

On 6/4/2020 at 3:55 PM, Preety_India said:

 

Infinite beauty 

 

 

 

On 6/4/2020 at 5:38 PM, Preety_India said:

 

Artist archetype 

 

 

 

 

On 6/4/2020 at 5:41 PM, Preety_India said:

 

Life is all about 

 

 

 

 

On 6/4/2020 at 6:19 PM, Preety_India said:

 

Middle ground 

 

 

On 6/4/2020 at 6:21 PM, Preety_India said:

 

Perfectionist 

 

 

On 6/4/2020 at 6:26 PM, Preety_India said:

 

Flaws 

 

 

On 6/4/2020 at 7:36 PM, Preety_India said:

 

Magnificence 

 

 

 

On 6/4/2020 at 8:15 PM, Preety_India said:

 

Principles 

 

 

 

On 6/4/2020 at 8:17 PM, Preety_India said:

 

Savvy

 

On 6/4/2020 at 8:22 PM, Preety_India said:

Reptilian 

 

 

 

On 6/5/2020 at 1:08 AM, Preety_India said:

Walking on a tight rope. 

 

On 6/5/2020 at 1:10 AM, Preety_India said:

The balancing act 

 

On 6/5/2020 at 1:13 AM, Preety_India said:

 

The juggling act 

 

On 6/5/2020 at 2:38 AM, Preety_India said:

 

Enforcer 

 

 

On 6/5/2020 at 2:40 AM, Preety_India said:

 

Walking on thin ice 

 

 

On 6/5/2020 at 2:42 AM, Preety_India said:

 

Passion

 

 

 

On 6/5/2020 at 3:45 AM, Preety_India said:

 

Wisdom

 

On 6/5/2020 at 3:48 AM, Preety_India said:

 

The brain and the heart 

 

On 6/5/2020 at 3:51 AM, Preety_India said:

 

The hexagon

 

 

On 6/5/2020 at 4:29 AM, Preety_India said:

 

Art

 

On 6/5/2020 at 4:35 AM, Preety_India said:

 

The pentagon

 

 

 

On 6/5/2020 at 4:39 AM, Preety_India said:

 

The Octagon 

 

 

 

On 6/5/2020 at 5:07 AM, Preety_India said:

 

Outside perspectives

 

 

 

 

On 6/5/2020 at 5:09 AM, Preety_India said:

 

The play of life 

 

 

 

On 6/5/2020 at 1:46 PM, Preety_India said:

 

The truth 

 

 

 

 

On 6/5/2020 at 1:50 PM, Preety_India said:

 

Spiritual blindness 

 

 

 

 

[Preety_India]

 

I always say Aum. OM is probably the better spelling than Aum. It's basically saying Om. 

More than sound of Infinity, it is considered the sound of the universe that is closely related to the holy trinity of Hinduism including Brahma, Vishnu and Shiva. 

So we say in hinduism, Om Brahmane Namah which means paying a salute to the Auspicious Brahma. 

This is saying Om, just like the trumpet of an elephant  or someone uses the Conch Shell or Shankh in hinduism to create a deep sound that resonates and sounds like the ocean. 

When the conch is blown with controlled breath, the primordial sound of "Om" emanates from it. This is the sound of the primordial, the beginning of the universe and life first began in water. So water is the primordial force 

Therefore Shiva, Brahma and Vishnu are all shown on water during primordial stages 

Mahavishnu rests on water with the serpent before he exhales for the universe to begin. 

Of course this is all mythology but ancient mythology was a patterned system of communicating ideas. 

So here the message is celebrating and saluting and respecting the Universe with a salutory Om. 

Saying Om is used for Om Jaap Meditation which is a mantra bead meditation that I do. 

 

Here a dog says Om. 

I showed this video to my boyfriend and he has begun to say Om in his meditations and he feels very peaceful after singing Om. 

A conch used for creating Om sound 

 

While saying Om, say it slowly, deeply, peacefully and for as long as you can hold your breath, not putting too much pressure, just a gentle Om sound. 

Om is generally used as a prefix or beginning salutation in many mantras. 

In some ways om can be considered similar to the use of the word HOLY.

In Hinduism, many mantras begin with a salutation, either it is Shri (pronounced as Shree) or Om. 

Now in Buddhism, we use Om as well. 

The mantra that most commonly uses the Om is Om Mani Padme Hum which translates as "the jewel is in the lotus." 

When we say Om Namah Shiva or Shivay we are saluting the Auspicious Shiva 

In some way saying Om is like saying "now I'm one with the universe." 

 

Yes Om is also used in chakra healing to bring about the vibration of the universe within you. When this universal energy enters you through this sound or chant, it energizes and activates all chakras. 

 

 

Copied from this thread. 

 

 

[Preety_India]

Oh God, no, not at all. 

Sex is the primordial. The energy. 

I use sexual energy daily to get my motivation. I don't need to watch porn or anything like that. But yea, masturbation can be a part of it. 

I call it tantric energy. 

It's the creative force. 

Sexual force is more powerful than any other motivating force in the world. 

Imagine if your lover told you to do something. You'd do it instantly because it's central to your life. 

Sexual energy is like a spell. 

When wantonly used for mindless masturbation to porn or for Promiscuity, you waste it away for nothing but instant pleasure and tiredness. It kinda becomes counter productive because you tire yourself out and some people lose interest in sex because of over doing it, they get bored. 

Instead it can be used efficiently to motivate yourself, so no need to no fap and all the associated complex guilt but use it to your advantage by using it to motivate yourself to be a better matured person.. 

Now I'll say there are better uses for sex than entertainment of the body parts and dopamine release 

These are 

1 Sex used for procreation which is the fundamental use of sex. This is obvious. 

2 Sex for calming negative energy, growing intimacy and having a positive relationship with the opposite gender. Growing loving feelings. 

3 Sex for tantric energy for daily motivation. Using it as a motivating creative force. Sexual energy is the primordial energy 

4 Sex can be used to heal inner repression that came from trauma or by negative input during teenage years. For example in catholic systems or cults, there could be a demonization of sex leading to psychological issues. Such people can feel uncomfortable or just hate society and life knowing that everything is rooted in sex. This will need to be healed by sex itself. For such people, sex can serve as a therapy to cure the inner dissonance or discomfort or shadow. They can rid the shadow with the use of sexual energy. 

5 Sex for Openness. I've seen in my experience that when I'm having sex or feeling sexy or sexual, I have more Openness than usual. I also observe this in other people. People who don't have loving comforting nurturing sex can tend to be more aggressive and less open to other people, less generous or welcoming. They are like stuck up. Sex releases hormones that creates the energy of Openness. 

So those were my 5 ways in which sex can be used positively. 

Also how you use sex is important. 

1 if you have loving nurturing comforting sex it makes you a more patient calm caring gentle person. 

2 if you have sex in a violent way, where it is about torturing someone for pleasure or utilizing them as a toy or object and sort of disrespecting them while the sex is going on, it leads to feelings of hate or aggression and the person who indulges in such sex via actual sex or porn ends up becoming more aggressive. 

So 5 uses and the 2 ways of having sex or using sexual energy in life. 

 

[Preety_India]

 

On 6/6/2020 at 11:41 AM, Preety_India said:

 

Sometimes some people can be a threat just by the way they think. 

Only if people knew this. Only if people knew that thought crime is real and is as insane as Slander. 

It's one of the evils that doesn't come out as evil. 

Often times many people assume that evil is only when you are a rapist or killer. Or a criminal. 

But sometimes people become innocent victims to drama and ostracization and get persecuted to society's thoughts and fall victim to their judgment leading to death. 

Don't trust your thoughts so much. 

Don't be so attached to your thoughts, lest they shall cause Slander. 

The devil attacked many a weak and planted seeds in their minds when he came as a wolf in sheep's clothing and he swiftly went away when the job was done and chaos ensued. 

 

Slander is not just speech, it can also be a thought. 

Slander is not just by the tongue alone  but also by the vision of the brain. 

 

Be wary of your thoughts, lest they cause Slander.

 

 

On 6/6/2020 at 11:49 AM, Preety_India said:

 

We can all try to do better in a smaller minor way maybe 

First time realizing that being around people is actually helping me. 

This is really good for me 

I'll call it a Coconut Grove

 

 

On 6/6/2020 at 4:55 PM, Preety_India said:

I have decided to use the spiral dynamics chart as model for my spiritual development 

 

 

 

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On 6/6/2020 at 4:25 AM, Preety_India said:

No amount of meditation, insights or enlightenment saves you from cognitive dissonance. 

 

 

 

Maybe it's just an ego trip for the narcissist and a way to compensate for the skeletons in the closeted self. 

 

 

On 6/6/2020 at 8:49 AM, Preety_India said:

 

 

 

 

[Preety_India]

What is evil? Could it have a purpose? Here is a view of evil from an adult rather than a childish perspective.

The first step in answering the problem of evil is this: We’ve got to get clear on what this thing “evil” actually is. It does seem to follow that if God created all things, and evil is a thing, then God created evil. This is a valid syllogism. If the premises are true, then the conclusion would be true as well.

The problem with that line of reasoning is that the second premise is not true. Evil is not a thing. The person who probably explained it best was St. Augustine, and then Thomas Aquinas picked up on his solution. Others since them have argued that evil has no ontological status in itself.

The word ontology deals with the nature of existence. When I say that evil has no ontological status, I mean that evil, as a thing in itself, does not exist.

Let me give you an illustration to make this more clear. We talk about things being cold or warm. But coldness is not a thing that exists in itself; it has no ontological status. Coldness is the absence of heat. When we remove heat energy from a system, we say it gets colder.

“Cold” isn’t a thing. It’s a way of describing the reduction of molecular activity resulting in the sensation of heat. So the more heat we pull out of a system, the colder it gets. Cold itself isn’t being “created.” Cold is a description of a circumstance in which heat is missing. Heat is energy which can be measured. When you remove heat, the temperature goes down. We call that condition “cold,” but there is no cold “stuff” that causes that condition.

Here’s another way of looking at it. Did you ever eat a donut hole? I don’t mean those little round sugar-coated lumps you buy at the donut shop. I mean the hole itself. Donut holes are actually what’s left when the middle is cut out of a donut. There’s a space called a hole, a “nothing,” the condition that exists when something is taken away. Same thing with a shadow. Shadows don’t exist as things in themselves; they’re just the absence of light.

Evil is like that. Evil isn’t like some black, gooey stuff floating around the universe that gloms onto people and causes them to do awful things. Evil is the absence of good, a privation of good, not a thing in itself.

When God created the universe, he created everything good. He made a universe that was perfectly good. Everything was as it should be. After God was completely done with creating everything, something happened that reduced the good in the world. That loss of good is called evil.

That’s why in Genesis 1 we read “it was good” many times. From the record we know that God didn’t create evil. But something did happen in which evil-the loss of good-took place, and as a result a lot of other grotesque things came about.

So donut holes don’t exist; they’re just the absence of donut. Shadows don’t exist; they’re just the absence of light. And evil doesn’t exist; it’s just the absence of good.

The next question is, if God created everything good, why would He allow evil to infect His creation?

Satan would be the first example of an independent source of evil. Adam and Eve would also be a source of evil with regard to the human race. They didn’t get Satan’s evil; they initiated their own. Satan influenced them—he made his own hole in goodness—but Adam and Eve made their own holes in goodness. They’re responsible for their own evil.

 

[Preety_India]

It isn’t that Satan did something bad and passed that stuff on to them, because evil is not a stuff. This is a key point in this discussion. They cannot “dip into” evil because it’s not a thing to dip into. When we make a shadow, we don’t do it with shadow stuff, but by blocking existing light.

In the same way, evil doesn’t cause our actions. In fact, it’s the other way around. Our actions are what cause evil-or the loss of goodness-in us, and that loss of goodness does have an impact on future actions, giving us a predisposition to cause further evil.

God did not create Adam and Eve with bad stuff in them. What He did was to create them with a capability to rebel against Him or choose to do wrong. This is called moral free will, and it’s a good thing, but it can be used for bad. It can be used to rebel against God, which digs out a hole in goodness, so to speak.

Satan and man both used their free moral agency to originate actions that fell short of the goodness of God. I’m sure God had a good reason for allowing evil. It has caused a lot of suffering, but that suffering has, in turn, also brought about a lot of good under God’s direction.

When you forgive someone who’s wronged you and you treat him kindly, is that a good thing? Sure it is, but you couldn’t forgive him if he hadn’t done something bad against you. I’m not saying that we should do evil so that the good of forgiveness could come about. I’m showing that it’s not a contradiction to claim that good can come out of evil.

It’s not good to promote evil itself, but one of the things about God is that He’s capable of taking a bad thing and making good come out of it. Mercy is one example of that. Without sin there would be no mercy. That’s true of a number of good things: bearing up under suffering, dealing with injustice, acts of heroism, forgiveness, long-suffering. These are all virtues that cannot be experienced in a world with no sin and evil.

 

[Preety_India]

Now the real question at this point is, “Was it worth it? Good can come out of evil, but was it worth it in the long run, the measure of good that comes out of the measure of evil in the world?” And my response is that the only One who could ever know that is God. You and I couldn’t know that because our perspective is too limited. Only God is in a position to accurately answer that question.

Apparently God thinks that, on balance, the good is going to outweigh the evil that caused the good, or else He wouldn’t have allowed it to happen. Christ paid a tremendous price, an example of the tremendous love God had for us. God would not be able to show His sacrificial love unless there was something to sacrifice for.

Here’s the problem, and this is why we don’t think that, on balance, it’s really a fair trade. We think that life is about giving us pleasure and making us happy. That’s what we think. This view is very prevalent in the United States. Our personal happiness, pleasure, and enjoyment are the most important things in life.

That’s not what the Bible teaches at all, though. There are aspects of enjoyment, but the ultimate reason we were created was not so we can have fun and enjoy life. God’s purpose for creating us was to develop us into certain types of people who were fit to spend eternity with Him. He does that by conforming us to His image by helping us grow through the process of living in a fallen world.

This is part of the message of the book of Hebrews. Even Jesus was conformed-made mature-by the process of suffering. In God’s mind, the goal of the process-being conformed to the image of His Son-is a much greater good than the bad of the evil that we have to put up with on this earth. The balance is definitely on the side of good.

I admit that this is not an easy issue, and part of the reason is that we bring some baggage to the discussion. Part of the baggage is that we have this idea that if God put us here on this earth and created the world for us to live in, then it seems to make sense that the summum bonum-the greatest good-is our immediate sense of personal pleasure and satisfaction. Therefore, if there is some circumstance in which we can’t have immediate satisfaction, then God must either have abandoned us, not exist, or be evil for allowing such a thing.

Last weekend I had a conversation with a young man about homosexuality. He challenged me with this point: Why would God create people as homosexuals if He didn’t want them to experience the pleasure of homosexual sex?

Now, of course, I didn’t agree with Him that God created people to be homosexuals. It wasn’t God’s design that they have this desire. But even if I conceded such a thing, why must I admit that-since one was created with a capacity for pleasure-only a mean, cruel God would allow conditions in which they’d have to say no to that pleasure?

When you think about it for a moment, doesn’t it strike you as odd that we’ve developed a view that in order for us to acknowledge God as good, He must give liberty to all of our passions? And if God doesn’t give liberty to all of our passions-if He doesn’t allow us what we want, when we want it-if He ever asks for self sacrifice, if He ever allows a condition in which we hurt, in which we suffer, in which we are inconvenienced, if He ever allows a circumstance in which our bodily desires are not given full reign, then certainly He must be a cruel God? Isn’t that an odd view?

Do you know what kind of person thinks that way? A child. A child sees what it wants and goes to get it, and if it’s stopped, that child puts up a fuss.

I was with a little two-year-old today who wanted to go into the house while wearing muddy shoes. She was stopped, and she put up a fuss when her shoes were removed. Mom and Dad knew, though, that there were other things more important than their daughter’s desires at that moment. Now she didn’t understand it. All she knew was what she wanted (understandably, by the way, she’s a two-year-old; that’s the way two-year-olds think).

 

[Preety_India]

Unfortunately, we’ve bred a society that are, in many ways, like a bunch of adult two-year-olds, grown-ups who believe it’s their divine right to feel every pleasure they can possibly feel, to never encounter any difficulty, any pain, any suffering. And if they do, then God must be a cruel God.

Now I realize that some of you might be thinking, Come on, Koukl, you’re really whitewashing this, aren’t you. How can so much egregious suffering be justified?

I don’t at all mean to brush away the terrible impact of evil on people’s lives. But I’m talking about a frame of mind that we do seem to have, a frame of mind that we are first and our pleasures are first and God owes that to us. And if He denies us our pleasures to any degree, then there must be something wrong with Him.

Now if God is a good God, and He denies us our pleasures, then I’ll tell you one thing, there’s a good reason He does so. That’s what it means to be a good God. I’m not going to buy the idea-the infantile idea that Americans have-that in order for God to be considered good, He has to give me everything I want, when I want it, or conversely, He must protect me from every injury and every difficulty. No, it’s fair to say that God has allowed suffering in the world for very good reasons, even though we’re not clear on all of those reasons.

By the way, what’s the alternative? If you conclude there’s no God because of the existence of evil, then there’s no possibility of ever redeeming that evil for good.

British philosopher Bertrand Russell said that no one can sit at the bedside of a dying child and still believe in God. My response to Mr. Russell is, “What would you say to a dying child?” What could an atheist say? “Too bad”? “Tough luck”? “Bum deal”? You see, in that circumstance, there’s no possibility of redemption for that evil. In fact, it doesn’t seem to make sense to even call it evil at all if there is no God.

But with God, at least there’s the possibility that the evil can be used for good. That’s the promise of the Scriptures.

And so, instead of the syllogism, “God created all things, and evil is a thing, therefore God created evil,” we start from a different point. “All things God created are good-which is what the text says-and evil isn’t good, therefore God didn’t create evil.” Then we can progress to, “If God created all things, and God didn’t create evil, then evil is not a thing.”

You see, those two syllogisms are just as valid as the first one (if God created all things, and evil is a thing, then God created evil), and it seems that the premises are more reliable. The premises seem to be accurate and true.

The questions we have to ask ourselves are: Do we have reason to think that God is good, and do we have reason to think that evil is not a thing? If we have good reasons to think those two things, then our new set of syllogisms work.

We can then strongly trust that when God does allow a privation of good (evil) to influence our lives, He does it not for evil designs, but ultimately for good purposes.

 

[Preety_India]

On 6/6/2020 at 2:15 PM, Preety_India said:

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

On 6/6/2020 at 4:55 PM, Preety_India said:

I have decided to use the spiral dynamics chart as model for my spiritual development 

 

 

 

[Preety_India]

 

On 6/6/2020 at 6:54 PM, Preety_India said:

Some tips 

• You're a winner 
• Don't give attention 
• Be yourself 
• Ignore ignore ignore 
• Trust yourself 
• You're powerful 
• You won't fail 
• Truth always wins 
• Be true to yourself 
• Eventually the good wins 
• There is always a bigger eye 
• Trust the universe 
• Walk on your path 
• Don't blow it up 
• The devil will die in ennui 

 

On 6/6/2020 at 7:45 PM, Preety_India said:

 

The Session

 

I booked a Reiki session because I was curious if there was something to it. I figure the best way to find out is something is true is to experience it first hand.

 

First I laid on my back on a stretcher. She started by laying her hands on some parts of my head, almost immediately I felt a tension in my throat and had to cough and swallow every 5 seconds, when she moved on my throat was normal again. 

 

She kept moving around to different parts of my body and depending on where she went I would feel deep calmness or deep anxiety. When she touched my legs I felt calm, when she touched my chest I felt darkness and fear. 

 

Then I laid on my chest and when she put a hand on my tailbone and neck I felt deep sadness and almost started crying but since I had to cough again she removed her hands quickly, I guess she sensed it was bit too intense. 

 

 

Psychic

 

She sat down and basically started telling me about things Ive been thinking and feeling deeply everyday for the past 6 months... I cant explain how this happened...

 

 

She said I was struggling between being detailed, creative, relaxed versus being quick and getting things done... She said I love the puzzle of it and basically being in that meditative flow of creativity... and made a motion with her fingers which is very similar to me using the computer to make music. Making music on the computer is basically like laying a puzzle. Its very nerdy and pinpointy. 

 

and this is 100% true since I am a musician and I have been struggling with getting my songs out quickly and also not being able to push my creativity, I have to wait for it to arrive which sometimes takes time but I dont how to balance it. 

 

Then she said "You make music or something like that dont you?" I just said mmhm... and had my mind blown... 

 

Then she asked if I had a domineering father because she could feel it in my energy... And I just said... "Spot on..." What more can I say... she was basically telling me things with her eyes closed so it wasnt as if she was gauging my reaction or anything. When we talked it felt like we had known eachother for years and I didnt have to explain anything to her... I mostly just nodded and said "Mm" It was beautiful!

 

... I dont know how to process this... I hadnt told her anything except that I have social anxiety but thats it!! 

 

My rational mind is in cognitive dissonance right now.

 

 

On 6/6/2020 at 7:59 PM, Preety_India said:

Let that fear go out of your mind and the object will cease to exist. 

 

 

On 6/7/2020 at 1:31 AM, Preety_India said:

 

I have realized that I have never used a Counterintuitive approach in my life or rarely used if I ever did. 

If you focus on the universe, you'll attract the universe. If you focus on love then you will attract love. 

Focus on the needs of your heart. And automatically your destiny will open up new opportunities for  you. 

I'm going to try this counter - intuitive approach and maybe the universe holds the key? 

I have to ask myself how could I have attracted such a situation or what I could do to dissolve such a situation. 

Remember that the heart is a wonderful device. The Egyptians knew that. 

 

 

On 6/7/2020 at 2:01 AM, Preety_India said:

One thing I was really frustrated about was the nature of good and evil and I needed some insight into it during my morning meditation. 

Hopefully it will happen some day 

 

Saw this woman somewhere, don't remember where. Need to follow up on her content. Reminder. 

 

 

 

On 6/7/2020 at 4:45 AM, Preety_India said:

 

Don't look at it as a bad situation. Look at it as conflict resolution or crisis handling. 

 

 

On 6/7/2020 at 5:27 AM, Preety_India said:

 

Some of the things that I want to follow in this counter intuitive approach are 

• Paying attention to self 
• Focus on what matters 
• Don't pay attention to the source of conflict 
• Improve focus 
• Don't focus on the source of fear but on fear itself. Let it dissolve when you focus on it 
• Deflect not resist 
• Don't be impacted at all 
• Stand firm 
• Look at what outcome the devil is trying to achieve. Don't let that outcome happen. Because that outcome will lead to chaos 
• Have a laser focus 
• Strengthen yourself 
• Try to see how you are attracting the situation 
• Attract love and peace 
• Invoking and banishing 
• The emotion which is created by the situation, don't let that emotion exist. Dissolve this emotion whether it's anger, hurt, fear, sadness. 
• If you feel provoked by the situation, don't be provoked and dissipate it 
• Believe it is already here. This is the main principle of the secret. Believe until its true. 
• So move towards abundance but do not live in lack while expecting abundance to come 
• Do not imagine devastation and plunder or downfall. 
• Rather imagine growth, Flourishing 
• Remember nobody can beat the mind, because the mind is so powerful, it will wreck the mountain 
• Have faith and the mountains will move. 

 

 

 

I'm trying to use counter-intuitive universe approach to deal with such toxic situations. 

I imagine that the universe holds the answer. And instead of being negative and depressed about the situation, because being depressed only makes it worse, I try to focus on what positive I can create. 

I have just started exploring this approach so I can't have a lot of feedback. I don't even know the practical way to go about it 

But I believe that the answer lies in positivity. 

 

 

[Preety_India]

 

I can't believe that I'm actually thinking that a new future for me is possible. 

One day I will be free of everything that has held me back. 

One day. 

But the fact that I'm believing in myself is already a big step. 

 

 

Edited May 17, 2022 by Preety_India

[Preety_India]

On 6/8/2020 at 2:48 PM, Preety_India said:

 

It's a 3 character set that moves on a chessboard. 

God. Swan. Devil. Goat. 

 

Wolf in sheep's clothing 

... The challenger.. 

They all glorify goodness 

.. The provocateur.. 

Wolf the warrior 

Swan the persecuted 

Goat the Devourer and sinner. 

 

2 sides 

God, Swan, 

Devil, wolf in sheep's clothing, goat, the sinner, the jester 

 

 

On 6/8/2020 at 3:59 PM, Preety_India said:

Orynx tarot deck 

Orynx 1 

Orynx  2 

Orynx  3 

Orynx  4 

Orynx  5 

Orynx  6

 

 

On 6/7/2020 at 7:03 PM, Preety_India said:

 

I don't know why I am feeling so depressed right now. 

The same feeling of helplessness is coming over me. 

 

 

On 6/8/2020 at 8:07 AM, Preety_India said:

 

Today I'm feeling better. 

Not so depressed right now. 

Once again I can have the motivation for a good day. 

 

 

On 6/8/2020 at 9:27 AM, Preety_India said:

I can't believe that I'm actually thinking that a new future for me is possible. 

One day I will be free of everything that has held me back. 

One day. 

But the fact that I'm believing in myself is already a big step. 

 

 

On 6/8/2020 at 2:29 PM, Preety_India said:

 

Remember that you have to be afraid of anything. 

 

 

 

[Preety_India]

 

 

Invoking and banishing 

Invoking that which is good. 

Banishing that which is bad.

 

As a weapon to defeat 

Or as a challenge 

 

 

 

Universe tarot deck

    1 matter

     2.time

     3 space

    4. energy

     5.state

     6 flow

      7 Invoking 

       8 banishing 

      9 energy and message you put out in the universe 

      10 message you receive from  the universe 

 

 

 

 

You need to have a successful communication with the universe 

You should give out messages to the universe for the universe to understand you better. 

This is like the energy you put out in the universe. 

Also be a good listener. 

That is, listen carefully to what the universe is telling you. And you will know what to do. 

 

Absolute absurdity

Do not look for answers in absolute absurdity. 

You don't realize that you are looking in all the wrong places for love and acceptance. 

Now one of the main things that human beings crave for is love and acceptance. Love and acceptance is the source of life. And denial or deprivation of this is like rejecting a person's need for love. Almost denying a person their humanity. 

You're not able to get unstuck from your reality. 

So what you imagine in the universe is beauty. And what you see the reality in front of you, it's absolute garbage, absolute absurdity. 

But you try to seek validation in this absolute absurdity. 

That's the flaw. That's your mistake. That's you being ignorant. 

If you want to follow the way of the Universe then you must embrace  principles 

 

 

 

• The Universe is Abundant 
• That reality and its possibilities are infinite 
• Believe that everything is infinite. Anything and everything is possible. Fear nothing. Think abundantly 
• Reality is absolute absurdity 
• Your abundance will cause the doors to be opened. Doors opening to new opportunities 
• God moves in mysterious ways and so does the universe 
• You're stuck in reality. You need to get unstuck 
• Love and acceptance is a universal need 
• You have to invoke the good and banish the bad 
• When you believe in the abundance of the universe, you walk by faith, you live in faith, you stop living in fear. 
• When you live in reality, you live in fear. 
• When you live in infinite possibilities, you live in abundance 
• You allow the universe to take its natural course 
• Accept the reality around you. The universe has created it. 

 

When you open yourself to the abundance of the universe, you're cured of your fear and insecurities and your depression. 

The love of the universe enters your heart and mind. Once you have the universe with you, you see everyone as a tiny insignificant speck and what they say or do becomes insignificant. So even if they hurt you or ignored you or mistreated you, it doesn't matter to you. Your sights are on receiving the love and acceptance from a true source the universe. The love that you receive from humans is at best only selfish love. It's not pure love because humans are Incapable of selfless unconditional love and acceptance. What humans give you is conditional and so it's lacking and deficient in some way. True love comes from the source, which is the universe. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Edited May 17, 2022 by Preety_India

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On 5/16/2022 at 3:34 PM, Preety_India said:

 

 

Heart Chakra. That's where you meet God. 

 

 

 

20 hours ago, Preety_India said:

Why am I feeling like I'm closer to death? 

 

 

18 hours ago, Preety_India said:

Shades of my ex ???

 

If you love me for my flaws then you really love me. 

 

Or else you don't. 

 

 

18 hours ago, Preety_India said:

Living in eternal love with my man

 

18 hours ago, Preety_India said:

The importance of Purity and fake values. 

 

 

18 hours ago, Preety_India said:

If you lived in dirt for too long, you won't realize what dirt is. 

 

18 hours ago, Preety_India said:

I don't wish to be popular among sexists, racists and spiritual bypassers. 

Meow meow epic rant

Rantology. 

 

Edited May 17, 2022 by Preety_India

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18 hours ago, Preety_India said:

 

This journal is my personal catharsis journal. 

 

I vomited some aspects of my personal life in this journal.. 

 

But I don't like to stay in cathartic emotional state for a long time. I don't plan to.. 

 

My plan is to vomit it all out until nothing is left to purge, most likely it will be happening throughout this month. But this month will be the last. I'll be in a hectic raw emotional chaotic state during this whole catharsis period after which I will eventually smoothen out in the following months 

 

This journal at this point is like looking at rough sketches. It's not the final draft or the final copy. I have stuff to do, I have to grow and evolve and change and go through spontaneous metamorphosis combustion and then come out refined and hammered to a degree of excellence that will guide my future journey both spiritually and physically. 

 

But before I get to the magnum opus of my "Self", which by the way is already a huge process in its own right and will take a life of its own, I have to first go through this violent emotional, aggressive, open, no strings attached cathartic process so I'm done resolving and processing all the baggage and trauma and finally on my launchpad to a newer better existence and a more positive fine tuned version of me. 

 

Cathartic barf. 

 

 

 

18 hours ago, Preety_India said:

 

What is gross.. 

 

 

When I'm being emotional 

Person A - why are you so emotional? Don't. 

 

 

When I'm joking? 

Person A - this is not something you joke about 

 

When I'm relaxed 

Person A - you are too cool. 

 

When I'm tensed 

Person A - don't be so anxious. 

 

When I'm angry 

Person A - you shouldn't be angry 

 

When I'm reacting 

Person A - you're overreacting 

 

When I'm expressing 

Person A - why are you seeking attention 

 

When I'm feeling bored 

Person A - you're lazy 

 

When I'm being funny 

Person A - there's nothing to laugh about 

 

When I'm being serious 

Person A - why are you so serious. Chill 

 

When I'm being private 

Person A - you don't talk to anyone? 

 

When I try to talk 

Person A - maybe you should shut up 

 

When I give my number 

Person A - you're not a friend 

 

 

When I don't give my number 

Person A - you don't like friends? 

 

When I say life is unfair 

Person A - you're playing victim

 

 

When I do makeup 

Person A - you're vain and petty, 

 

When I'm not doing makeup 

Person A - why aren't you like other girls. 

 

 

When i am flirty 

Person A - you have a problem 

 

 

When I'm not flirty 

Person A - you are too stiff 

 

When I'm not being friendly 

Person A - I'm offended because you are not being friendly. 

 

When I'm trying to be friendly 

Person A - takes advantage and says offensive shit. 

 

 

 

When I don't defend myself 

Person A - you have low self esteem 

 

When I defend myself 

Person A - you're being defensive 

 

When I say leave me alone 

Person A - I won't leave you alone

 

When I come back at 

Person A - damn you must be triggered. 

You just cannot ever deal with these kind of people. F them..

 

 

 

 

If people accept you for who you are, they are the people you should be with. 

 

If they pressure you to be something that you're not or cannot be, then leave them 

 

Finding accepting nurturing people is very different from creating an echo chamber for yourself which narcissists do. 

 

That's the reason often times, victims and vulnerable people get mistaken for narcissists.. 

 

The point of the point is 

 

I can be whatever the shit I wanna be.. 

 

And you're the gross one if you judge me..