Relapsed again...

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@Javfly33 Well, from my own experience when I had this issue, I do believe that the acknowledgement that there is a problem, and the attempts to break free from it is in itself improvement in regards to ego-development. A lot of people who relapse can get completely discouraged under the notion that no progress has been made, and that discouragement can lead you right back into habitually using again. If you're putting in serious effort to better yourself that is already a step forward. Don't forget that. Write it down even: "I am making progress." You could write down in detail every small step you've taken to change and what the next small steps could or will be within the next week or even month. On the flip-side, write down everything that is hindering you from going further. In psycho-therapy, generally people go through a process of incremental improvement. One baby step at a time. It's also good to have someone who can keep you accountable. Going through this alone is not a good idea in my opinion. 

I had a similar problem not too long ago. It was as if the more I made attempts to better myself, and I actually did better myself, there was another part of me that was almost "enraged" for lack of a better term that I wasn't continuing the unhealthy habits. While my work ethic was skyrocketing at my job, home-life still had the aura of a shadow of trying to hide my drug use from family members. This really points to the idea to me that the ego seems to be influenced by a group of "personalities" contained within the unconscious and that somehow certain locations that have an association in the mind with a set of old habits seem to activate them. If I was to completely shift my habits for healthier living that kind of leads to the death of that "personality" within me. I need to study the shadow more to get a better understanding of this because I don't know what the answer is exactly yet other than just to push through. I wonder if that's even possible. Who's to say that pushing too hard will just make that "personality" push harder making it a self-defeating endeavor. I'm not exactly sure how to properly integrate it on a personal level. 

[Javfly33]

7 hours ago, Federico del pueblo said:

@Javfly33 @Javfly33

How's it going bro? Are you experiencing urges again? 

Just asking because if you need some loving kick in the ass there's probably gonna be some people here who will happily give it to you (no offense, it's just love ok?).

For some people a bit of negative social motivation can be helpful

No urges so far after my lsd trip 10 days ago. The thought of It just makes me laugh

[Federico del pueblo]

5 hours ago, Javfly33 said:

No urges so far after my lsd trip 10 days ago. The thought of It just makes me laugh

@Javfly33

Amazing. Man I really have to get into psychedelics soon. Seems like they can be super powerful.

Keep it up buddy ????

[Javfly33]

8 hours ago, Federico del pueblo said:

@Javfly33

Amazing. Man I really have to get into psychedelics soon. Seems like they can be super powerful.

Keep it up buddy ????

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[calibrate]

On 09/03/2022 at 7:57 PM, Javfly33 said:

No urges so far after my lsd trip 10 days ago. The thought of It just makes me laugh

While I do think psychedelics can have a very powerful and beneficial effect on ones mind, I think a more sustainable measure should be formulated or found to deal with this issue. Psychedelic insight in my experience is always in flux and cant really be relied upon long-term.

Unless someone intends to continually spend money on psychedelics, it just seems like a half-measure.

Edited March 13, 2022 by calibrate