No Nut November

[Emotionalmosquito]

@Danioover9000 8 more hours to go. Although I have practically passed the challenge, I don’t feel as accomplished as I should; and I blame it on the fact that I cheated by gooning half the time. 

I would like to be able to put in a full year without a single wank as a New Years resolution but unless I make some serious improvements in December there isn’t even a chance. But before that, one things for sure, I’m having a helluva party once the clock strikes midnight tonight.

 

 

[Danioover9000]

   My No Nut November report:

   Extreme levels of energy and productivity.

   Healthy sense of self confidence.

   Less overall negative mood swings.

   Better sleep, and better stamina throughout a work out.

   Less feeling too hot or cold, less of the shakes and phantom itchiness.

   Some confidence in exerting my will power and self discipline to stay in integrity with the No Nut November challenge

   Some confidence in self control and not giving in to the cravings and masturbate in an unhealthy way(at the end).

   Also increase in appreciation, and easier access into the 'zone'.

   Much respect for sexual cravings, sexuality and sexual energy. That energy helped fuel more of my creativity in some side projects I was doing.

   Some boost in mental activity, like my contemplations are more broad and deeper. Also, brain storming is more easier and I generate more ideas. I ended up resolving some problems prior to No Nut November.

   So, all in all, another very interesting month for me, and proved myself yet again capable of dealing with a lot of problems I sometimes thought were impossible, if not really difficult, if not difficult due to lack of resources and energy, time, money ect...

[bloomer]

No Nut November report:

So I passed NNN. But I looked at porn a few times but didn't bother to masturbate. It's because I had sexual cravings and thoughts. Just wanted to see a naked woman and sex. Didn't masturbate and I spent like an hour a few times just watching porn which is a bit mental. Had I not being doing not nut I would have spent much less time viewing porn. So ironically doing NNN lead to me watching more porn not less. Which is of course bad. I hope this month I can avoid porn and any masturbation entirely. 

The justification I used when viewing porn was that I'm breaking the automatic switch to seeing pornography to masturbate. It does actually require a lot of discipline to watch porn and not masturbate for an hour plus. Quite painful actually but I still was hooked by porn just it's self. The act of viewing is in it of itself a pleasurable experience. Like eating junk food. But without masturbation you never get full, you can just eat and eat and eat. 

The hit of prolactin achieved by orgasm temporarily kills your sex drive. Since I never had that hit I just continued watching. This left me in a sexual frustrated mess. One night I couldn't sleep because I gave myself blue balls. This is how sick my dependency on pornography and masturbation has become. Since I can't and have never had a woman to satiate those sexual impulses or really comfort me. 

It's made clear to me just how addictive porn is and how compelling it is. As for benefits I've experienced. I'm far more sexually frustrated. It's like this hunger and shame. The fact that I'm even here typing this makes me feel ashamed. I have a lot more shame after this challenge. Just seeing how much of a depraved monkey I am and how I've conditioned myself to get off to a screen and not a real living woman.

Reading @Danioover9000 No Nut November report, I'm just going to use his as a comparion.

On 12/2/2021 at 10:23 PM, Danioover9000 said:

Extreme levels of energy and productivity.

I have more energy but can't use it because my mind is so dominated with sexual thoughts and cravings that I can't think straight.

So no additional productivity and am more depressed.

On 12/2/2021 at 10:23 PM, Danioover9000 said:

   Healthy sense of self confidence.

Definitely not.

On 12/2/2021 at 10:23 PM, Danioover9000 said:

Less overall negative mood swings.

Just overall more sad.

On 12/2/2021 at 10:23 PM, Danioover9000 said:

Better sleep, and better stamina throughout a work out.

I think I'm more angry lol. So when I work out and lift I go harder than I would usually. Actually fucked up my back. Not sure if that's a result of NNN but I definitely have been more enraged this past month. As for sleep I haven't felt an improvement.

On 12/2/2021 at 10:23 PM, Danioover9000 said:

 Less feeling too hot or cold, less of the shakes and phantom itchiness.

Funny you said that cause I'm shivering rn as I'm typing this. Think it's because my room is cold as fuck and I'm only wearing a t shirt and shorts.

On 12/2/2021 at 10:23 PM, Danioover9000 said:

Some confidence in exerting my will power and self discipline to stay in integrity with the No Nut November challenge

Not really. It just seems like an arbitrary challenge. I'll be happy if I can do it this month without looking at porn. Ideally to beat that 90day challenge.

On 12/2/2021 at 10:23 PM, Danioover9000 said:

Some confidence in self control and not giving in to the cravings and masturbate in an unhealthy way(at the end).

I have more self control I think now.

On 12/2/2021 at 10:23 PM, Danioover9000 said:

 Also increase in appreciation, and easier access into the 'zone'.

Nope

On 12/2/2021 at 10:23 PM, Danioover9000 said:

Much respect for sexual cravings, sexuality and sexual energy. That energy helped fuel more of my creativity in some side projects I was doing.

I have no control over that energy. If I did have an outlet for it then maybe I would be capable of handling it. 

Well guess that's that.