Fixing myself.... (no comments please)

[Preety_India]

@Marcel you're my apple pie. 

(so excited - jumping with joy) 

 

[Preety_India]

Trying to keep a track on my progress. 

Today I meditated for half an hour. 

I already felt a tiny difference. 

 

[Preety_India]

I'm just hoping that tomorrow will be fine 

 

 

[Preety_India]

 

Talking to myself - 

 

I can't tell you how much I'm excited to start all these new projects in my life. 

 

One is an art class, the other is a psychology one and now I have recently added language classes. 

 

I have my plate full 

 

 

 

I am also going to join a meditation, singing, dance and cooking classes in the future when I'm done with these classes. 

 

 

[Preety_India]

I'm planning to get a new job in February 2022. 

 

Life is only getting better now. 

Seems like good things are about to come into my life. 

 

I need to brush up my reading skills. 

 

[Preety_India]

I just read in the dating section this comment. 

"In what sense above me? Guys typically date someone who is on the same "level" as them, or slightly below them. While girls go for someone above them, but would never date someone below them."

 

In what sense and to what degree is this true? 

I have dated guys who I perceived as below me. 

Because  I just don't care too much about the value thing. Kinda not embodying love. 

 

 

[Preety_India]

Yea I need to continue my criminal psychology case study on Jodi Arias. 

 

[Preety_India]

@Marcel

Oh honey this one, this one, this one, this one, this one, this one..... 

 

Look at how incredibly cute 

 

 

Edited November 12, 2021 by Preety_India

[Preety_India]

 

After the fall of the Roman Empire, Columbanus, a missionary from Ireland, built the monasteries which became Europe's first universities, established a  writing system, and risked his life when he demanded leadership from kings and even popes

 

 

[Marcel]

50 minutes ago, Preety_India said:

@Marcel

Oh honey this one, this one, this one, this one, this one, this one..... 

 

Look at how incredibly cute 

You found the one hehe 

So cute ☺️ 

I lub you my sweet honey ? pie ? 

[Preety_India]

Criminal case study and Profiling of Elliot Rodger. 

The case of Elliot Rodger has fascinated me since day 1 of my criminal profiling research days. 

I have studied the whole Elliot Rodger case in depth during my criminal psychology case study last year. 

And I read his manifesto. It is noteworthy reading it. 

What I discovered is that he has been branded wrong since his death and much of the details regarding his life and death have been heavily obfuscated by the notorious media. 

If you care to look deep enough, he did not kill only women, as was the interpretation of the silly media. He killed men as well. 

He had a lot of resentment built up inside and this resentment came from multiple psychological factors in his immediate environment. 

For this you need to explore his childhood snaps, there is a certain innocence in his eyes and he was a pretty good kid. There was absolutely nothing suspicious about him. He was partly Asian and that heavily showed up in his appearance. He was hard working and he had great writing skills and pretty good grasp of the world even at the age of 18. 

You have to understand that this Elliot as a kid had been put through a nightmare. He wasn't raised as some rich spoiled prince as many people would like to believe, and this was the media narrative back then that he was some kind of a obnoxious privileged prince whose parents lavished him with gifts and stuff like cars etc. 

If you scratch the surface and do a deep study underneath all the media bullshit the way i did, you will see a completely different person. 

He wanted a great life. He wasn't lazy either. But his parents divorced when he was just 7 years old and barely able to process it. His father had another girlfriend, a pretty Moroccan woman, right after the divorce, not even 1 week into the divorce. His father literally pushed out the mother from his life by alienating mother and son completely from his life. I would say that the father is totally selfish and narcissist and he played this cruel game and sort of got rid of them. They were literally treated like an outcast. He had bought a small house for his ex wife and he wouldn't check on them. He was quite ruthless. He would even tell his son that he was good for nothing.. 

Elliot grew up under the shadow of his dad, he had no navigation tool to understand things, his self worth was deliberately sabotaged by his asshole father.. His father would tell him to get out of the house whenever he came to visit him. His step mom, the new actress wife of the father was very brutal. There's not a single picture that woman shared with Elliot. She always made Elliot feel like the "unwanted child," but pretended to be nice in public. 

I also went through the private email exchanges between father and son and it is apparent that the father was not very keen on helping his son financially when the son is just a teenager. He simply wanted to discard him and he sent him away to university in a bid to be as far away from him as possible 

Elliot was regularly harassed, bullied for being an Asian teen and made fun of. Food was thrown at his face, I mean you can't imagine something worse, he faced a barrage of racial bullying and harassment and Isolation by the people who were studying with it. He was being literally set up to turn into a ticking time bomb.

Plus these teens were wealthy teens. They could afford lavish cars and flaunt their wealth and get girlfriends who would only date rich guys. Elliot felt ignored and humiliated by their display of wealth. Elliot also wanted the same stuff they had. He was beginning to feel like a pariah and nobody wanted to talk to him. He hasn't received a hug from his dad for many many years. 

The dad was always busy with his career like a typical narcissistic parent who don't spend time with their kids. 

Elliot hated his Asian roots because he was subjected to so much racial humiliation by his environment that he began to develop a sort of self hate towards his own race, which is quite understandable because he was never appreciated for being an Asian, in fact he was mocked and ridiculed. 

All of these factors transpired into turning him into a ticking time bomb. 

When he saw other guys get girls he was hurt because he wanted that happiness for himself, I don't think this makes him an incel, he saw simply an average teen looking for love, pretty much like anyone else. The media dubbed him as an incel. 

Inside he was a ticking time bomb because there was so much pain inside of him waiting to release in dramatic ways. 

He could not get a job because he did not have the skills for it, he was plainly unlucky and he made mistakes like any other teenager and foolishly spent his money on lottery tickets. His father wasn't ready to help him financially anymore so Elliot knew in his mind that the future was not looking good. He could not deal with the shame that he would be considered a loser meanwhile his peers will get a great job and girlfriends and wives and he will be doing nothing. This made him very frustrated and desperate and the lack of love in his life made him feel a sense of derision towards humanity. 

Remember that nobody showed him love, as an Asian struggling among white teens, he felt unwanted, abandoned, inferior and ignored. He did not feel accepted wherever he went. 

So he decided that if he had to leave the world, he would make an impact in whatever way he could, although that wasn't healthy, but he had to throw his anger at the world. 

I think that his crime and his subsequent suicide were all a very big cry for help. It didn't have much to do with girls as much as his void created by his bullying narcissistic father and a loveless step mom, a helpless poor mother and not having any source of love and encouragement from anyone at all and being treated like a loser by his spoiled rich colleagues who would look down on him. 

This case was way more complicated with significant factors responsible for his psyche and the resultant tragedy than how the media portrayed him and his actions after his death. 

It is shameful that nobody wanted to hear his story. His manifesto was never discussed. He was given no dignity at all. And I do see a whole racial component to this tragedy. 

 

 

Edited November 13, 2021 by Preety_India

[Random witch]

Hey @Preety_India I'm sorry for commenting,

but.... I just want to say that I like your interest in those aspects of psychology and I'd love to read more of your researches which I find so dope ♥

[Preety_India]

@Random witch I have seen you before on the forum. Your posts are excellent. I love reading your stuff. 

 

[Random witch]

15 hours ago, Preety_India said:

@Random witch I have seen you before on the forum. Your posts are excellent. I love reading your stuff. 

 

Same. thank you!

[Preety_India]

 

Am I incapable of loving someone? 

Am I too selfish? 

Is it wrong to be selfish?