Me and my boyfriend.

[Preety_India]

Just now, Marcel said:

@Preety_India

I am an open book to you.

And i am glad you are just as open to me.

You can look through my profile if you want, no problem.

Don´t worry about taking a while to respond for example.

Its completely fine, i cannot expect you to just completely focus on me and leave everything else haha

Thank you for not pressuring me in any way, i really feel free with you.

Hehe I am so happy reading this. It relieved my stress. 

I remember my ex stressing the fuck out of me with his 24/7 childish demands. He was so pressuring and narcissistic. Like constantly pressing my buttons.. 

[Marcel]

@Preety_India

1 minute ago, Preety_India said:

Hehe I am so happy reading this. It relieved my stress. 

I remember my ex stressing the fuck out of me with his 24/7 childish demands. He was so pressuring and narcissistic. Like constantly pressing my buttons.. 

My god that sounds awful. 

I promise i will never push your buttons in that way, just writing this out makes me want to vomit, that is so not aligned with my values whatsoever.

I want you to feel relaxed and not worried about doing anything wrong.

Feel free to do anything you want. Just completely be yourself.

Lets just feel the love and enjoy what we have, i think it is absolutely unique and precious.

[Preety_India]

5 minutes ago, Marcel said:

@Preety_India

My god that sounds awful. 

I promise i will never push your buttons in that way, just writing this out makes me want to vomit, that is so not aligned with my values whatsoever.

I want you to feel relaxed and not worried about doing anything wrong.

Feel free to do anything you want. Just completely be yourself.

Lets just feel the love and enjoy what we have, i think it is absolutely unique and precious.

Yep it is. 

Massaging your belly. 

 

 

 

[Preety_India]

33 minutes ago, Marcel said:

@Preety_India

Love you my princess 

[Preety_India]

I crave for your love and keeeeeeees

Goodnight sweetheart. 

I'm always yours. 

Dreaming of you. 

May this dream never end. 

 

We're inseparable. 

We're truly Romeo and Juliet.. Never apart anymore. Together forever. 

I rest my head on your lap. 

 

 

[Marcel]

2 hours ago, Preety_India said:

 

We're inseparable. 

We're truly Romeo and Juliet.. Never apart anymore. Together forever. 

I rest my head on your lap. 

 

 

We are definitely like that. I feel that i can be completely myself around you, i feel free and carefree.

I think i realised my life purpose while laying awake.

I feel like a women deep down at my core being, i am absolutely certain that i am a woman in a man's body.

Now, i really don´t know what this means for me in the future, if i may need gender alighnement surgery at some point or not.

But i am very happy with this realisation for now. And just let me to discover my life purpose.

I think my purpose is to make women all over the globe feel save and protected, able to freely embrace and live out their feminity without any consequences and universal euqal rights and emancipation.

This resonates with me a lot and touches something deep inside of my self.

Maybe i still need to truly figure out what this really means to me, but i have the feeling that this is the general direction my life will go into.

[Preety_India]

1 minute ago, Marcel said:

We are definitely like that. I feel that i can be completely myself around you, i feel free and carefree.

I think i realised my life purpose while laying awake.

I feel like a women deep down at my core being, i am absolutely certain that i am a woman in a man's body.

Now, i really don´t know what this means for me in the future, if i may need gender alighnement surgery at some point or not.

But i am very happy with this realisation for now. And just let me to discover my life purpose.

I think my purpose is to make women all over the globe feel save and protected, able to freely embrace and live out their feminity without any consequences and universal euqal rights and emancipation.

This resonates with me a lot and touches something deep inside of my self.

Maybe i still need to truly figure out what this really means to me, but i have the feeling that this is the general direction my life will go into.

Are you sure about this? 

[Preety_India]

I'm not a lesbian. 

I cannot make love to a woman. 

I have to love a man and the man has to love me. 

It's just that my sexual orientation is a heterosexual straight female. 

I cannot change how I was born. 

 

[Preety_India]

If what you are saying is true, then this part is hurting me. 

Because I don't know what to do about it. 

 

[Marcel]

@Preety_India

Not at all, i still need to figure out myself quite a bit. I still feel beyond confused about my identity and purpose.

But it does resonate with me, but the question is what exactly it is that resonates with me. 

I know that i have a very strong  feminine side,  but that does not really necessarily make me transgender. 

So yeah, im still absolutely lost

[Preety_India]

@Marcel you had me worried. 

If I have to make love to you, I have to have it as a woman making love to a man. I simply cannot have it any other way. 

I know that you are going through a phase of confusion. 

In that case, I won't pressure you about anything at all. You can always take your own time. 

 

[Marcel]

@Preety_India

Dont worry. Everything i said is speculative, im not sure about this at all.

Maybe this was also just some form of trauma protection, creating a female version of myself in order to not feel pain, you know what i mean?

[Preety_India]

1 minute ago, Marcel said:

@Preety_India

Dont worry. Everything i said is speculative, im not sure about this at all.

Maybe this was also just some form of trauma protection, creating a female version of myself in order to not feel pain, you know what i mean?

Yea I understand and support that. 

 

[Marcel]

@Preety_India

If i think about it, that makes a lot of sense actually.

Because whenever i picture this female version of me, its one without pain or any feelings whatsoever.

It might just be an escapist fantasy of mine. 

I mean i went through a lot of suffering in the past, so almost splitting my personality into the suffering male and the carefree female seems logical.

Edited August 21, 2021 by Marcel

[Preety_India]

3 minutes ago, Marcel said:

@Preety_India

If i think about it, that makes a lot of sense actually.

Because whenever i picture this female version of me, its one without pain or any feelings whatsoever.

It might just be an escapist fantasy of mine. 

I mean i went through a lot of suffering in the past, so almost splitting my personality into the suffering male and the carefree female seems logical.

Yea I understand that type of situation 

 

I have been through tremendous trauma myself. 

[Preety_India]

I'm not judging you for your Sexuality. It's just that I'm heterosexual and I can never ever be homosexual or lesbian. It's simply impossible. 

I never developed sexual feelings for a woman. 

 

[Marcel]

Just now, Preety_India said:

Yea I understand that type of situation 

I have been through tremendous trauma myself. 

I hope you´re slowly healing as well. If you need to talk about anything that happened, i am here and i will listen to you.

Letting the past go used to be impossible for me, especially because i insisted to do everything myself.

I am still alive today, but this could have easily gone either way.

[Preety_India]

2 minutes ago, Marcel said:

I hope you´re slowly healing as well. If you need to talk about anything that happened, i am here and i will listen to you.

Letting the past go used to be impossible for me, especially because i insisted to do everything myself.

I am still alive today, but this could have easily gone either way.

You know that I care about you. So don't talk such things. 

Don't get me worried please 

 

[Marcel]

@Preety_India

I am sorry. Let me be very clear, it USED to be this way.

Honestly meeting you has solved a lot of my mental health struggles.

I am stronger then ever now. The pain has made me wise and mature.

I love myself today and i would never hurt myself again. 

This chapter of my life is resolved and closed.

 

[Preety_India]

@Marcel thank you. I need to fix breakfast. I'll be back in a few minutes. 

Take care my sweet man