Preety_India

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Spirituality is a force and we are the agency, this material world, these circumstances and who we are, that's the agent/agency. The spirit works through us. 

The spirit manifests through us. 

If there is something the spirit is creating, it will manifest in reality through the agency of the physical world. 

What comes about can never be known. 

This is the greatest secret of the universe 

 

 

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OK what's been bothering me lately? 

 


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Maybe finally I can find some semblance of peace in the arms of my fantasy German man. Haha. 

Why am I in such an urgency to get my dream man? 

Probably because I don't wish to be spotted by a wrong man? 

So before the toxic guy finds me, I better find my right guy. 

Then I don't need to worry about other dudes. It's like I literally found my safeguard. My safety jacket that prevents me from drowning. 

 


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I'm literally fed up with these journals having this Hot label. 

Like why can't we not have it in the journal section???? 

I like speed posting where all my thoughts are in each separate post and not clobbered together. 

I hate how I post 5 times and it goes hot.... Ugh ugh ugh. 

Now I have to wait again before I can post some more. 

My mind is on fire. Too many thoughts. 

 

 

 

I'll leave some spaces and write here so this hot label calms down. So annoying. 

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I'm in an emotional flow right now. 

Like I want to be with my man right now and I mean it. I demand it. 

No idea why I feel like this sometimes. Like a deep desire for sex. 

 

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Yesterday I had been thinking about Zane. 

 

So I'm stuck between two now.. 

The fantasy character German guy. 

And the real life stalker dude Zane. 

That's the dilemma. 

Both are attractive. 

One is real and the other is Imaginary.

German guy = fantasy 

Zane = real life Indian dude

 

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I literally want to sleep in the arms of my German man and be completely devoted to him. Look into his deep dark eyes and drink his passion. 

I want to smile when he holds my face. 

Come and meet me near the tree. 

Come and make me yours. 

 

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My God I have so many feelings right now for my German man. 

He will hold me tightly and won't let go. He will hold my face in his hands and look into my eyes. He will kiss me softly on my forehead and then on my cheeks. He won't kiss on my lips right away because he knows I might feel shy. So he will wait. 

He will hold me and make me sit on his lap. I will look at him and get drowned in his eyes. He will smile gently. He will call me crazy. He will feel my undying love and I will feel his. 

I feel so emotional right now. My body is trembling as I write. 

His love will make me feel complete. 

Such raw tender look in his eyes. His soft glare cast on me. Never letting me feel alone 

His strong arms surrounding me 

 

 


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I really want to feel completely serenaded by him. 

 


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My fantasy German man is my ultimate favorite. 

He knows my heart, my soul. 

He knows how to please me. 

He doesn't play games. He is honest and simple. 

He holds me like I'm his Cinderella with the glass slippers. 

 


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Eye color or hair color doesn't matter, blue, black, brown, blonde, platinum whatever. 

I just love the sharp features on the face

His face and his look. 

The killer look. 

 

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It sounds like you are pretty into that german guy.

What would you say or do to him if he was standing in front of you right now?


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@Marcel I would tell him that I am absolutely in love with him.. 


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I would want an intimate connection with my man where he understands me inside out. 

I want to be able to communicate with him just through my eyes. 

My ex used to like that. 

 


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Plus I want to learn a lot of things from him. 

 


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I did a lot of stupid things in my life which I regret. 

I thought I was too smart. 

 


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The journal was originally titled "why do I give a fuck?" 


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That's how I need to progress. 

 


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3 hours ago, Preety_India said:

@Marcel I would tell him that I am absolutely in love with him.. 

That sounds so sweet, heartwarming and vulnerable of you.

I hope for you that he would be able to appreciate and reciprocate that feeling, that he is able to appreciate the courage it might take for you to be so open about the fact that you love him.

1 hour ago, Preety_India said:

I would want an intimate connection with my man where he understands me inside out. 

I want to be able to communicate with him just through my eyes. 

My ex used to like that. 

I bet he would love that as well.

 Sounds so erotic and romantic. 

1 hour ago, Preety_India said:

Plus I want to learn a lot of things from him. 

I guess it is a good idea to have some form of teacher you could learn from. Some form of teacher that you can absolutely trust and be open with.

1 hour ago, Preety_India said:

I did a lot of stupid things in my life which I regret. 

I thought I was too smart. 

I relate to this a lot. I also always thought i knew everything better and made a lot of questionable decision looking back.

But, i do not regret them, i did what i thought was best for me back then. 

Nowadays i can see that some of the things i did were good for me and others not so much.

Do yourself a favor and let go of the regret, it is a crippling feeling and it does not fit into your emotional nature in my opinion.@Preety_India

 


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I want him to fuck my brains out.. 

I mean he should fuck the brains out of my skull.

 

 

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To impress my German fantasy lover, I need to take some interest in German things, like music, their food and yes, German language. 

To my German lover,

ich liebe dich

 


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@Preety_India

He must feel moved and touched, do you realise that nobody might have said that to him in his entire life up until now?

Learning an entire language just to communicate with someone you love is quite the effort, he must be impressed by your commitment.


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