Unironically German

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OK what's been bothering me lately? 

 

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Maybe finally I can find some semblance of peace in the arms of my fantasy German man. Haha. 

Why am I in such an urgency to get my dream man? 

Probably because I don't wish to be spotted by a wrong man? 

So before the toxic guy finds me, I better find my right guy. 

Then I don't need to worry about other dudes. It's like I literally found my safeguard. My safety jacket that prevents me from drowning. 

 

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I'm literally fed up with these journals having this Hot label. 

Like why can't we not have it in the journal section???? 

I like speed posting where all my thoughts are in each separate post and not clobbered together. 

I hate how I post 5 times and it goes hot.... Ugh ugh ugh. 

Now I have to wait again before I can post some more. 

My mind is on fire. Too many thoughts. 

 

 

 

I'll leave some spaces and write here so this hot label calms down. So annoying. 

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I'm in an emotional flow right now. 

Like I want to be with my man right now and I mean it. I demand it. 

No idea why I feel like this sometimes. Like a deep desire for sex. 

 

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Yesterday I had been thinking about Zane. 

 

So I'm stuck between two now.. 

The fantasy character German guy. 

And the real life stalker dude Zane. 

That's the dilemma. 

Both are attractive. 

One is real and the other is Imaginary.

German guy = fantasy 

Zane = real life Indian dude

 

Edited August 18, 2021 by Preety_India

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I literally want to sleep in the arms of my German man and be completely devoted to him. Look into his deep dark eyes and drink his passion. 

I want to smile when he holds my face. 

Come and meet me near the tree. 

Come and make me yours. 

 

Edited August 18, 2021 by Preety_India

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My God I have so many feelings right now for my German man. 

He will hold me tightly and won't let go. He will hold my face in his hands and look into my eyes. He will kiss me softly on my forehead and then on my cheeks. He won't kiss on my lips right away because he knows I might feel shy. So he will wait. 

He will hold me and make me sit on his lap. I will look at him and get drowned in his eyes. He will smile gently. He will call me crazy. He will feel my undying love and I will feel his. 

I feel so emotional right now. My body is trembling as I write. 

His love will make me feel complete. 

Such raw tender look in his eyes. His soft glare cast on me. Never letting me feel alone 

His strong arms surrounding me 

 

 

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I really want to feel completely serenaded by him. 

 

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My fantasy German man is my ultimate favorite. 

He knows my heart, my soul. 

He knows how to please me. 

He doesn't play games. He is honest and simple. 

He holds me like I'm his Cinderella with the glass slippers. 

 

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Eye color or hair color doesn't matter, blue, black, brown, blonde, platinum whatever. 

I just love the sharp features on the face

His face and his look. 

The killer look. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Edited August 18, 2021 by Preety_India

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@Marcel I would tell him that I am absolutely in love with him.. 

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I would want an intimate connection with my man where he understands me inside out. 

I want to be able to communicate with him just through my eyes. 

My ex used to like that. 

 

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Plus I want to learn a lot of things from him. 

 

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I did a lot of stupid things in my life which I regret. 

I thought I was too smart. 

 

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The journal was originally titled "why do I give a fuck?" 

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That's how I need to progress. 

 

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I want him to fuck my brains out.. 

I mean he should fuck the brains out of my skull.

 

 

 

 

Edited August 19, 2021 by Preety_India

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To impress my German fantasy lover, I need to take some interest in German things, like music, their food and yes, German language. 

To my German lover,

ich liebe dich

 

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@Marcel I imagine so. 

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Btw I love these. They're so relaxing, both the French guy and the American one. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

This is what I used to do as a kid. Like wow. 

 

 

Edited August 19, 2021 by Preety_India

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@Marcel hehe.. Lol. 

I like chalk asmr videos. Even those where they slowly move objects. Just not eating sounds. Eating sounds can gross me out, haha. 

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I make nice pancakes.

But I want to be an expert at making pancakes for my German lover. 

I want to make sweet pancakes and serve him breakfast. I want to sit by his side and eat with him. 

Sometimes I want to sit on his lap.