Being an Abuse Survivor.

[Preety_India]

I know it's hard. I'm trying still. 

Spend your money on quality therapy (you know, a qualified person working under an ethical framework), a mindfulness course or two, a nice weekend away, lots of ice pops. 

 

[Preety_India]

 

At the end these grubbers  make the “sound of who (they) are” while bagpipe music crescendos. For some reason. Then everyone leaves and goes back to their lives.

 

[Preety_India]

You can always pm me. 

I do not appreciate comments in my journal. 

I'm very sensitive to comments in my little private space of the journal 

Thanks for the understanding. 

 

[Preety_India]

I don't need anyone's advice or help on this journal. 

I've encountered too many people who say shitty things in the name of "trying to help" 

Just get off my back and LEAVE ME THE F ALONE.

[Preety_India]

@Michael569 thank you so much for the warning. 

You're a very humble and kind person. 

Someone I can trust on this website. 

I'll be careful 

 

[Preety_India]

One of things that you would need is a flask full of motivation. 

 

[Preety_India]

This is so motivating 

 

 

[Preety_India]

I really like the way he talks. It's so calming. 

 

[Preety_India]

Success without fulfillment is the ultimate failure. 

 

[Preety_India]

I'm focusing a lot on motivation these days. Like it's become my number one thing. 

My marketing work is doing great. 

I'm planning to take courses in marketing and sales. 

So that's going to be an advantage. 

It came very abruptly.. 

 

[Preety_India]

Andrew called me yesterday and gave me a prep talk. 

Honestly felt good 

Oh I love you Andrew so much. 

I'm thankful for the blessings. 

 

[Preety_India]

I had been watching some Tony Robbins videos. 

And honestly they were quite good. 

I'm planning to buy his books. 

Of course he is a great figure especially if I'm considering marketing and sales. 

He has a ton of information and techniques on successful dealings and sales.. 

He got a ton of info on sales and closing sales. 

Client holding and so on. 

 

[Preety_India]

One thing is true that Tony Robbins is a great example of excellent communication. 

No one better than him so far. 

His communication itself is so motivating. 

My two important focus areas 

1. Sales and Marketing and Finance. Communication. Becoming excellent at delivering for each sales target. Deliver. Deliver. Deliver. It's like NLP. 
2. Motivation 

 

 

[Preety_India]

Receipts or it didn't happen 

 

[Preety_India]

Just concentrate on your health girl

 

 

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[Preety_India]

I know it's difficult. But it's going to be okay. 

 

[Preety_India]

Don't lose courage. 

People don't have any idea how abuse works 

I'm fed up with the forum. I was verbally abused on here.. Someone said some racist things to me. Even after reporting I don't feel okay. It brings flashbacks of the times my ex boyfriend used to abuse me verbally with all sorts of racial insults. It was unbearable and somehow managed to break that relationship and set myself free. 

I remember being online during the time on another website for 3 months and I was repeatedly subjected to racist hate attacks and verbal abuse by an American woman. She wouldn't stop doing it and I had to leave that website eventually because the mods wouldn't do anything. She also packed up others to abuse me. This was all because she wanted my ex boyfriend back then and he didn't respond to her so she decided to take revenge on me and made my life a living hell with constant stalking and bullying. I was fed up and left that place. 

People have no idea how much racism and verbal abuse can impact the psyche, it's much worse for a person like me who has already suffered racial abuse at the hands of someone and physical and mental abuse as a child at the hands of my mother for more than a decade.

I wasn't expecting a racist word here. But it happened and nothing can change that. 

When you try to complain about it, you're treated as a victim player which is the absolute worst way, the least empathetic way to respond to such a situation. 

It's extremely hurtful and people don't get it. 

So even if whatever is done, the hurt remains and it's impossible to not feel bad or humiliated. 

I just don't want any comments on my journal. I hate it when people read other's vulnerabilities and instead of respecting it, immediately start virtue signaling.. 

When you don't have an idea of how much someone is hurt, just be yourself rather than trying to judge, it's not up to you to decide what's happening to the other person. My karma will haunt this website. When you do wrong things to others, it comes back in some form from the universe. The universe simply doesn't just sit and watch, there are always consequences to whatever happens. 

I cannot simply abuse someone and think that nothing will happen to me.. That's not how the universe operates. 

I was constantly gaslighted and told to shut up. When I took offense, I was told that I was playing victim. 

I mean in general this is the reaction that victims of racial hate have to endure on top of the racism they're subjected to. 

 

[Preety_India]

I'll use this journal to vent my problems and thoughts and feelings.