Eager to evolve - Getting my shit handled journal

[flowboy]

Found this little guy/girl waiting for me on the stairs when I came back from a walk.

It immediately trusted me and crawled on my finger. I tried to let it go in the patch of grass across the street but it didn't want to let go of my finger. Guess we're taking another ladybug-rehabilitation walk today?

"Come on, buddy!"

Edited March 14, 2021 by flowboy

[flowboy]

Did 40 pull-ups today. Did 40 pull-ups yesterday.

I can really feel my back muscles being rebuilt, and I like it.

One day I'll do those 40 in a row. Then a hundred.

Also the gymnastic rings were a good purchase. Looking forward to using those again.

I've been running at least 4 times a week recently. Maybe more.

The more I do, the more I want to do. As long as I don't go too far past my limits. Going a little past my limit every day is really the key to staying motivated and also getting better. And not just the physical limit of what I can do, but the mental limit of what I am willing to do.

[flowboy]

Wrote a second article for my website today.

I had other plans, but I suddenly felt inspiration to write, and had the wisdom to go with it.

Every day I am putting some work, and if not some work, at least some thought into my upcoming coaching business.

Today's accomplishment was putting that article online, as well as including a link to book a call into my facebook profile summary. Something I didn't dare to do last week. Also I am having another mutual practice sales call with my friend Brian later today.

It seems to become a pattern that whenever I have just talked to my lover, the next day I feel extra inspired to work on it.

Not all women are distractions

 

Edit: SOMEONE BOOKED A CALL WITH ME????‍♂️?‍♂️?‍♂️????‍♂️?‍♂️?‍♂️

 

Double edit: THE SALE CALL WENT AWESOME??️‍♂️?‍♂️

The guy came in to "first orient himself" and thanks to my amazing sales skills I convinced him that he wants to start coaching right now, so he's super bought in!!!

However, he may or may not be able to come up with the money. He's figuring that out right now.

Doesn't even matter. What matters is that my sales pitch works, my message works, my whole thing is resonating because I know my market, because I AM my market. And whether this particular client works out or not, I now KNOW that I can sell this and help many people, and make money in the process.

This calls for celebration.

Edited March 16, 2021 by flowboy

[flowboy]

In the latter years of the 19th century, there were several instances where apparently perfectly ordinary human beings landed aircraft on dusty roads, spoke briefly with farmers who were haying their crops, and then flew off!

So what does this mean, in the light of... by fifteen years later, aircraft had been invented, and these things were happening?

Is it that the future arrives incrementally, almost as a particulate gas, first in fantasy and dream, and then more concretely later?

 

A quote I just heard Terence McKenna say and I had to look it up and transcribe it. I can listen to him for hours and just enjoy the amazingly unusual thought patterns. It really is like music to me. Or a live painting happening in your mind.

 

Edited March 18, 2021 by flowboy

[flowboy]

I don't need a 20+ year career in professional boxing. I'm already not able to eat soup without spilling.

[flowboy]

I'm definitely in that mode where I'm super tired, but still able to do mental work because I put stress on myself. Benefits of clean diet. Although I feel a bit like a crackhead, ironically. My eyes feel a bit hollow and I get random flashes of randomly negative thoughts, some thoughts feel stressful that totally are not.

Context: I was supposed to finish this thing for work. But also work on sales script for biz. But also process idea X, Y and Z.

I started out today feeling already with a feeling I can only describe as dry brain.

I was able to force myself to focus on programming and produce something beautiful, but I had to strain a lot. Same as yesterday.

Is it my diet? Am I just not taking enough downtime?

I'm just...happy that I can do it. I was afraid I wouldn't be able to and that would give me a disadvantage.

Haven't been outside today at all.

Edited March 19, 2021 by flowboy

[flowboy]

Amazing mental clarity and ENERGY this morning.

The day started with it being quite hard to get out of bed and feeling still stressed from yesterday. Which is not good.

However, after some shopping, I felt more energetic, and after a cold shower, the stress transformed into clarity and energy. Did some cleaning, too, which I was completely and effortlessly focused on.

Something that is pretty exceptional for me. Usually when I do something like cleaning, I have to put on a podcast or something so I don't get distracted in thoughts all the time.

Also

* flipping pancake break *

Also, the intermittent fasting thing is SO much easier when I'm doing something physical. Like right now, during shopping and cleaning, it feels amazing. During seated meetings, I struggle with hunger pangs a lot more.

 

I wonder whether I am in ketosis right now. Probably. Given the fact that I feel energetic and also light as air.

I guess we'll know after I eat those pancakes ?

 

Doing some diamond push-ups while the pancakes are pancaking.

Did 6 (or 7?) sets of those. Chest nicely pumped. Good thing I added some protein powder to the batter.

And, you know, eggs.

Edited March 20, 2021 by flowboy

[flowboy]

Not gonna lie, the process of soaping up my butt and shaving my ass did turn me on a little.

[flowboy]

I am so sharp, focused, and energetic it's ridiculous. I'm also a substantial dick to people. But in a loving way

Going out for gymnastic rings humiliation in a moment, that'll set me straight. It's a very kinky workout.

 

[flowboy]

After 8 weeks of not ejaculating, and also fully decaffeinated...

My energy levels: INSANE.

Before, working out was something I made myself do so as to feel strong. Now, it's something I HAVE to do in order to calm down and feel sane.

Cold showers used to make me cold. Now, after one minute I am already overheating and want back in. And my shower goes seriously cold.

This is basically my frequency:

I've liked this music for a decade, but I can appreciate it on a whole new level now.

The man who makes a beast out of himself, gets rid of the pain of being a man.

 

I think I ran one of my best 4km laps this morning, too bad I forgot to charge my phone so I didn't record it.

Working out and then not eating until 12.00 makes me feel like a beast. A hungry beast. Especially with this breakfast?

Edited March 22, 2021 by flowboy

[flowboy]

On 24/08/2020 at 9:28 PM, flowboy said:

Happy

I realised today that I've never been this okay before.

I'm delighted to announce that I am so much MORE okay today

[flowboy]

Naps

I am slowly and stubbornly learning that I have to take powernaps as soon as possible, when my sleep was not sufficient for any reason, if I want to be any measure of productive. Yes, I wish that I could just power through it on 6-7 hours, but no, it totally doesn't work. I will learn this lesson over and over until I remember it.

Today I actually did that well, and I do indeed now feel like I can sit still at a desk and focus on a screen.

Edited March 24, 2021 by flowboy

[flowboy]

New Morning Routine

Old morning routine:

• 7:45 Make bed and do Wim Hof Breath
• 8:00 Brush teeth, shave, shower
• 8:45 Hopefully be dressed in time to start morning meeting at my dayjob

The problem with it is, that I (and people in general) tend to be slow and sluggish in the morning. So before I know it I have meandered around for twenty minutes before doing the breathwork, leaving me no time to shower.

Also, the breathwork doesn't sufficiently wake me up and get me going. I thought it would, but it doesn't.

So instead, I have come up with a solution I really like:

 

COFFEE!

Just one cup will immediately get my adrenaline pumping and get me in a state to finish my routine quickly and start my work excitedly.

It's actually great!

I can't believe I demonised it for so long!

 

 

 

Hah, jk. I'm so happy to be off that delicious dirt water. Perhaps I'll drink it on special occasions, but it's just so spectacularly bad for brain chemistry balance (and also hormonal balance).

No, instead I just do a quick workout. That gets my blood pumping, gets the dopamine production started (it feels like) and I actually feel awake in no time.

I let go of the morning workout in the past, to save time, but it turns out that I really need it, or I lose hours of effective time in the morning.

New morning routine:

• 7:30 Make bed and do workout (Freeletics or running or yoga)
• 8:00 Brush teeth, shave, shower
• 8:30 Empty my email

Turns out that if I work out, I also do my shaving and showering faster. Very happy with this improvement.

 

[flowboy]

I actually feel like I've had coffee, except my body is way less stressed.

It's a familiar level of energy and motivation, without the negatives.

So I am a maniac... it's not just the caffeine...

How long did I have to be clean for? Let's see... 30 days.

It took 30 days to function at a good level again after cutting out caffeine.

Well last time I did it, it was 50 days, so I suppose I'm getting more adaptable

[flowboy]

Is This What Taking Care Of Myself Feels Like..?

I noticed yesterday when I went to bed, how it is actually a joy to go to bed now. And how I'm actually looking forward to the next day!

And how unfamiliar and new that is to me.

My bed is freshly made. I have food prepared for days. My floor is clean. My desk is clean. I have a good plan for the next day and the next week, that is not impossibly stressful. Everything is taken care of. And I love it... It's like someone else did it.

Not too long ago, it would be months sometimes until I remembered to refresh my bed again (Ew, I know). I would get up and it was just an immediate "ugh" with the dishes stacked up in the kitchen, the couch covered in random objects, messy desk, no clear plan, dust and hair on the floor everywhere, and an impending sense of doom stemming from the abstract notion that I had "many things to do"...

[BlackMaze]

Do you do this for more than 2 years? Great job man. Gymnastic rings belong to my long term buying list 

 

[flowboy]

@BlackMaze They were under 30 bucks, why wait

[flowboy]

Benefits of shaving your ass: feels nice.

 

Drawbacks of shaving your ass: farts are LOUOUDD

[flowboy]

March Retro

[flowboy]

Insight of the day: it's not just about the money

Sometimes I worry that I'm so focused on financial freedom that I might be forcing myself down the wrong path because of it.

But as I read about how others are building their website and funnel, I realise that I actually CRAVE to build something. A resource that helps people. Something I created. A "thing" that I built and is now out there.

That will be so exciting.