Breaking imaginary walls.

[Mellowmarsh]

Few would ever bother to escape those prison walls if they really knew exactly what lay beyond them. 

[No1Here2c]

Be them imaginary or not, I would appreciate them to stay mostly in place.

- Ego

[Breakingthewall]

35 minutes ago, Mellowmarsh said:

Few would ever bother to escape those prison walls if they really knew exactly what lay beyond them. 

The point is breaking those walls because your nature is not compatible to live between walls. Maybe the absolute horror of the absolute nihilism is what you are going to find when those walls are broken, but anyway, you can't avoid destroying them

[emil1234]

this post was made in your honor @Breakingthewall

[Breakingthewall]

4 minutes ago, emil1234 said:

this post was made in your honor @Breakingthewall

Seems so, I'm the one who talks about breaking walls. But those walls are not imaginary as @Mellowmarsh said, are as real than a wall made of bricks. 

[Someone here]

The title is offensive and rude (albeit indirectly )towards a very active and experienced member. Please change the title or delete this thread .

Edited Saturday at 05:20 PM by Someone here

[Mellowmarsh]

“Why struggle to open a door between us when the whole wall is an illusion.”

 

 

[VeganAwake]

The self construct is supposed to be the prison wall in this metaphor.

Watch example at 15:15

 

[Mellowmarsh]

[Breakingthewall]

On 19/4/2026 at 9:07 AM, Mellowmarsh said:

“Why struggle to open a door between us when the whole wall is an illusion.”

 

 

If anything is trapping you it's real, you can call it illusion if you want, but you will be equally trapped until you break it. 

[Mellowmarsh]

42 minutes ago, Breakingthewall said:

If anything is trapping you it's real, you can call it illusion if you want, but you will be equally trapped until you break it. 

You’re welcome to hold this opinion of course. 
 

But it’s not how I personally vibe. For me, there’s no trap. I’ve never felt trapped by life or anything else for that matter. Why, because I’m aware this limited temporary entity called “me” will cease to be at the death of the body. 

On the contrary,  I also believe that even if there were traps that are breakable, that doesn’t necessarily mean no more traps will appear in the future. So I’m not interested in talking on the roll of a trap breaker.
 

My personal experience has shown me to always expect the unexpected, as my personal life feels like it’s been a continuous stream of just waiting for the next bad thing to happen, and so far, it’s never disappointed me in that regard, I’m literally being stripped of everything in every moment, including the person I think I am, for even that is constantly changing all the time, to the point I hardly recognise myself anymore.
For me,  there’s no winners here, there’s only losers. As a finite entity, I lose everything, as nothing ever belonged to me. I even inherited a world that was not of my making when I was born. I didn’t have any choice but to fall in line to the world I was born into.

Also, as a finite character, I am fully aware that I am not real, I am just an illusory temporal image, something that will be here today, gone tomorrow. Appearing from nothing and returning to nothing, just like all dreams.

 

Now this may seem negative and depressing, but it’s just how I see things from my personal perspective, I’m not saying it’s true for everyone else.

 

That said, I’m totally accepting and have surrendered to the invisible life force that is living as and through this body mechanism that is me. I’m fully aware that this me was never in control of any of this living.

I have fully opened my eyes to a truth that I’m not afraid to look at. In fact I’m literally not afraid of anything. I am completely fearless of both life and death. In fact,. I can’t think of anything more blissful than existing as a dream character, or even not existing at all, as in deep dreamless sleep.

I used to be scared of certain things, but since my awakening, all that fear just completely disappeared. 

[Breakingthewall]

12 minutes ago, Mellowmarsh said:

But it’s not how I personally vibe. For me, there’s no trap. I’ve never felt trapped by life or anything else for that matter. Why, because I’m aware this limited temporary entity called “me” will cease to be at the death of the body. 

When I say we are trapped, I don't mean knowing you're going to die and then be free, but being trapped right now by energetic barriers that prevent you from opening up to your absolute nature.

That is, if you sit down to meditate right now, and focus completely on this moment, without interpretation, without mind, there will still be a barrier. You will be in a silent but closed-off experience. There is an atavistic fear of non-being, a need for control that goes beyond the logical mind, which creates this closure.

With the help of drugs, you can more easily look directly at this barrier and gaze directly into the limitless abyss that this moment represents when you strip it of everything. It is there that you can take the step of total surrender to the limitless.

If you do this many times, the barriers begin to relax. Don't deceive yourself; they are real, genetic, and powerful. At a certain point, you will be open to the totality and you will be the totality. Then the glass is filled, the prodigal son has returned, after a long and hard journey through a shitty desert of desolation, isolation and alienation.

This is not an abstract or vague realization that you are consciousness or anything like that, it's the action of opening yourself to yourself: the reality.

Edited 3 hours ago by Breakingthewall

[Mellowmarsh]

21 minutes ago, Breakingthewall said:

When I say we are trapped, I don't mean knowing you're going to die and then be free, but being trapped right now by energetic barriers that prevent you from opening up to your absolute nature.

That is, if you sit down to meditate right now, and focus completely on this moment, without interpretation, without mind, there will still be a barrier. You will be in a silent but closed-off experience. There is an atavistic fear of non-being, a need for control that goes beyond the logical mind, which creates this closure.

With the help of drugs, you can more easily look directly at this barrier and gaze directly into the limitless abyss that this moment represents when you strip it of everything. It is there that you can take the step of total surrender to the limitless.

If you do this many times, the barriers begin to relax. Don't deceive yourself; they are real, genetic, and powerful. At a certain point, you will be open to the totality and you will be the totality. Then the glass is filled, the prodigal son has returned, after a long and hard journey through a shitty desert of desolation, isolation and alienation.

This is not an abstract or vague realization that you are consciousness or anything like that, it's the action of opening yourself to yourself: the reality.

I completely understand what you’re saying here. I’ve heard this same old story said many times in multiple ways. I get it, but it’s not something that’s been a a part of what makes me “me” 

So honestly, I don’t know if you will ever believe me when I tell you that I have always known my absolute nature from the age of when I first became aware I existed as a life form. I remember being 5 and thinking to myself I am nothing, I came from nothing and will return to the nothing that I naturally remembered coming from. I remembered being dead. Yes, I remembered that state of being dead, I intuitively knew I was just an imaginary character in a dream. 
 

 

My awakening was a continuous stream of feeling and knowing my absolute nature that I’ve been experiencing every day of my life. I first felt the awakening at age 5, and it’s never left my side as I’ve aged. I was literally born understanding my absolute nature. 

 

[Breakingthewall]

1 hour ago, Mellowmarsh said:

remember being 5 and thinking to myself I am nothing, I came from nothing and will return to the nothing

What means nothing? Why did you think that you are nothing if you are something now? 

 

1 hour ago, Mellowmarsh said:

, I remembered that state of being dead,

If being dead is nothing you couldn't remember it because it's nothing that could be remembered. If it is something it's not being dead, it's being in another state, so it's an idea that come to your mind. Imo any idea about what happens when you die is just an idea that is happening now in our human mind. The only possible real realization is what are you now.

It's not a "realization" in the human mind, it's the total absence of contraction now. It's not "nothing" or "something", both ideas are inside of the limits that makes definitions possible, it's the openess, limitless, totality.

I don't mean to know that you are limitless because limits are imaginary and that, but truly being limitless now. Then you don't know nothing but that you are, and that's everything, you see your true face, it's not any entity, god, soul, creator, or anything, it's the vastness , the unlimited, and you want to be dissolved in it because you are that. 

The problem with this is that human mind need limits to preserve sanity, feeling of ground. The mind prefers anxiety than freedom because freedom feels like death, then the work is inmersión little by little, adaptation. 

The real question is: do you have now a feeling of total fullness, totally present, alive, empty of contraction, or not? If not, there is contraction. Im in contraction 80% of time, or maybe 90 or more, and almost always with some contraction, but I can to dissolve the contraction totally sometimes. Then I know exactly how it works, it's like a delicate balance and alignment that have to be achieved, then the contraction falls. First time that happens you will cry loud and you will say alleluia. 

 

Edited 1 hour ago by Breakingthewall

[Mellowmarsh]

@Breakingthewall You don’t have to believe what I’m saying, it’s your prerogative to believe or not believe.

 

But it won’t change what happened here for me. I’m just sharing my experience that’s all. I remember being dead. I also know that I am nothing but an imaginary dream character right now as I type these words. Now ain’t that something grand. 
 

Woooohooo!

 

 

[Breakingthewall]

23 minutes ago, Mellowmarsh said:

@Breakingthewall You don’t have to believe what I’m saying, it’s your prerogative to believe or not believe.

 

But it won’t change what happened here for me. I’m just sharing my experience that’s all. I remember being dead. I also know that I am nothing but an imaginary dream character right now as I type these words. Now ain’t that something grand. 
 

Woooohooo!

 

 

Its not that I don't believe, it's that this is a mystical experience , liminal experience, call it what you will, but it's not a complete openness to what you are. Which should be a good thing, since it means there's more to see.