Where Should I Work?

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I tend to overthink a lot and therefore wish to not make this one of those times.

However, after some very big life changing events, I have come to find that one of the things that I really need to anchor me into life is an aligned place of work.

Specifically, I feel that I need a place where I can really weave into a social fabric. 

For example, I used to work at a gym when I was younger. After time, I came to know all of the regulars and really felt like I was at home. Now that such a place has been missing in my life for some time, I have realized just how important it is for my system.

At the end of the day, I like engaging in deeper socialization and relationship building. I’m sensitive, but I’m also relatively mature for my age (22). Take that with a grain of salt obviously.

Starting too young, I dug into a bunch of philosophy and spirituality and somewhere along the way, got caught in the exact trap I was trying to avoid with it. Long story short, I had a nervous system breakdown which was the result of a “dam” building for months, if not years.

That was some months ago now. I’m still rebuilding. I have had a job since then. It was at a cafe, however, it ended up being too overwhelming and fast paced for my system. I was let go and felt relieved about that. 

I have learned enough to know that what I need at this point in my life is that social hub I just talked about with the gym. Doesn’t have to be perfect. I know how problematic chasing that pot of gold is. 

But I DO need a place that I am aligned with. My pickiness is truly a thing, and though I tend to be resilient and moldable, I ultimately work best in a place that is aligned instead of just settling for somewhere that is enough. 

What I’m doing at said place doesn’t concern me as much as how I’m doing it, where, and with whom. I want to be around people like myself in a way. I’d really love to make friends and open myself to the ability of intimate connections. Again, a social web that is more than just casual and not stale with only the same people. 

I am at a point in life where those things are at the forefront of my desires. Not going after them is just foolish to me. Not that I’m even chasing, it is just a system necessity. 

So, yeah.

Basically, what places of work would you recommend? I’m not looking for any spiritual advice or anything. I have no interest in that at this time. 

If you have further questions that’d help extract further direction, feel free to ask. 

I will mention that I’m definitely one who tends to latch onto others for self-authority. It feels very comfortable for me to try and outsource my self to someone or something that feels “higher” up than I am in whatever way that might mean. Health, relationships, money, etc...

I suffered with this problem big time watching a lot of Leo’s videos late into my high school years. Yes, I did benefit in some fundamental ways from watching his content. However, I also, at some point, allowed indoctrination to set in. A big part of that came from listening to what he had to say, digesting it, but not actually acting on it.

Indoctrination is a strong word. I'm not accusing. What I'm saying is that I came to develop a subtle, quiet, but very strong mental framework of beliefs, ideas, visions, etc... 

A lot of that came from Leo's content, because I held it as THE highest content.  

Now? I’m dealing with the fallout of those mental frameworks. However, unlike before, they now no longer apply to me. My system rejects them and I see them for what they are. Simply enough, they just don't fit me. When they appear, it is now a deep rejection instead of a mental cushion.

(I mean no offense Leo. I appreciate what your work has done for me. Even the bad.) 

I only mean to say all of that as context so that I might receive better direction for you, or anyone who wishes to comment. 

I'm looking for places to work based on my specific desires and needs. That is the real question here. I have ideas and have applied to places, but I’d like outside perspective from people beyond myself, family, and AI.

I tried to lay out everything essential here on the table. 

Again, I’m an open book. I'm willing to discuss most things.

Feel free to ask.