I am doing a solo meditation retreat - accountability log

[Michal__]

Hi. I am doing a solo meditation retreat assisted by modafinil.

The technique is fire kasina.

The aim is 8 - 20 hours a day.

So far today I have done 2 hours. Its 13:37 here.

[UnbornTao]

We'll be watching you 👀

😉

[Michal__]

5 hours ago, UnbornTao said:

We'll be watching you 👀

😉

Day #1

It's been 8 hours. (Of practice)

I am gonna spend the rest of the day just meditating of my eye lids on the bed. Instead of on my chair with a candle like I did for 8 hours . 

Edited January 1 by Michal__

[UnbornTao]

2 hours ago, Michal__ said:

Day #1

It's been 8 hours. (Of practice)

I am gonna spend the rest of the day just meditating of my eye lids on the bed. Instead of on my chair with a candle like I did for 8 hours . 

Nice, eight hours is a sizable amount. Keep it up.

[AION]

arent you afraid of the health hazzard of that chem

[Davino]

Bravo!!!!!!❤️

All my support and love to you brother. Go for it!

This is the quality content I look for in the spirituality subforum. Thanks for doing the real work and inspiring others.

Be disciplined in the retreat and remember the biggest hindrance: distractions. Otherwise, relax into the practice and let it be as a river from heaven flows through the world. Concentration and Relaxation united make for perfect meditation.

[Davino]

12 minutes ago, AION said:

arent you afraid of the health hazzard of that chem

People with narcolepsy take modafinil every day. It's a well tested chemical with a low profile risk.

So it's not something to be seriously afraid of but just reasonably cautious not to overdo it and leave months after the retreat of no use. 

[UnbornTao]

Actually, not a doctor, but if you're taking antipsychotics, it might be worth checking for possible contraindications and other considerations. Also, as beneficial as retreats can be, intensive meditation can sometimes be destabilizing. Something to take into account. 

Edited January 1 by UnbornTao

[Michal__]

Basically there's some risk but because of the effects,  not because of the chemistry.

Similiar effects to meditation.

I am doing a visually intensive technique that my doctor definitelly would not approve off.

16 hours ago, UnbornTao said:

Actually, not a doctor, but if you're taking antipsychotics, it might be worth checking for possible contraindications and other considerations. Also, as beneficial as retreats can be, intensive meditation can sometimes be destabilizing. Something to take into account. 

 

[Michal__]

I am on my tea break. 3.5h more to go to get the minimum 8 hours. 

Why I chose a technique this visually intense?

To hear voices,  have 3d hallucinations and visit other realms of course .

 

Edited January 2 by Michal__

[UnbornTao]

@Michal__ I would consider talking to a doctor rather than to a language model. And if I may ask, what is your purpose for the retreat?

[Michal__]

6 minutes ago, UnbornTao said:

@Michal__ I would consider talking to a doctor rather than to a language model. And if I may ask, what is your purpose for the retreat?

Kasina is a visual practice that heavily develops visualization and concentration,  leading to siddhis, 3d visuals (open and closed yes) and a lot more cool stuff.

I don't know if 10 days is enough for realms but I am already experiencing jhanas.

Btw 

Day #2

8 hours done.

Now I am going to practice just of my eye lids, on my bed instead on the chair like I did for the main 8 hours , without a candle and in an hour jump on Zoom with Frank Yang and some other people.

Edited January 2 by Michal__

[UnbornTao]

@Michal__ Oh, okay. Take care.

[Michal__]

Some mild hallucinations from today:  the roof of the house just outside my window changing color.

[Michal__]

One more hour to go (to hit 8 hours). And I am gonna need to do some freelancing today. So I am hlad I woke up earlier today.

[Stick]

does modafinil help you stay still? or it is pure will power? dont tell me you've become buddha on day 1 lol

[Michal__]

39 minutes ago, Stick said:

does modafinil help you stay still? or it is pure will power? dont tell me you've become buddha on day 1 lol

It helps a lot to stay meditating, meditation reinforces modafinil and vice versa, its a loop  

It makes jhanas etc much easier.

Also, I am not disciplined enough to meditate for this long without it.

Edited Saturday at 06:19 PM by Michal__

[Michal__]

8 hours complete.

[integration journey]

Have you ever done Vipassana or kriya yoga? I wonder how they compare to Kasina practise.

[Michal__]

6 minutes ago, integration journey said:

Have you ever done Vipassana or kriya yoga? I wonder how they compare to Kasina practise.

I have done Vipassana. Kasina is basically a mix between Vipassana and Samatha.