Post-Solilsism Realization Updates

[Zenterus]

Ever since I realized solipsism, last friday, I've had this very heavy feeling within my body.

 

At first I thought it was an emotional wound that got triggered somehow and tried to meditate and release it with little success.

 

What I eventually realized after a lot of introspection is that, while I was initially excited to have peered beneath the veil of reality last Friday, I now am dealing with the consequences of that and they're not very pretty.

 

So, if reality is merely a projection of my own mind, in which I have full unconscious control of, then that means that everything that I experience is a "simulation" of my mind.

 

Therefore my friends, my family, my routine, my hopes and dreams, my whole identity is an illusion. Not "real."

 

It makes my everyday experience meaningless but also very meaningful in its subtlety.

 

For example, while I was contemplating these new insights and feeling completely defeated in front of the grant repercussions of this insight, my best friend randomly sent me a message telling me that he's feeling very sad and that he is going for a walk as that always seems to cheer him up.

 

Very random message considering he lives in a different country so it's not like him saying that could be taken as him inviting me to join. 

 

It almost, I dare say, felt like my mind giving advice to itself. And i took it and it did feel somewhat better.

 

Anyway, I have questions.

 

What proof is there that there isnt a physical world out there?

 

I mean, yes, the entire world is a projection of our mind since our mind *could* be interpreting a physical world for us to navigate within our mind. 

 

Fuck, but then how can I explain how I could literally manipulate reality with my certainty?

 

Ok, i have more thinking to do. I feel like my ego is grasping at straws now.

 

Thank you for reading.

[Sandroew]

I think its a mistake trying to fully comprehend in your regular state of mind what you experienced on a hightened state of mind.

Sure, integrate what you can, but if you overdo it it'll just turn into mental masturbation that can lead to problems.

1 hour ago, Zenterus said:

my best friend randomly sent me a message telling me that he's feeling very sad and that he is going for a walk as that always seems to cheer him up.

 

Very random message considering he lives in a different country so it's not like him saying that could be taken as him inviting me to join. 

 

It almost, I dare say, felt like my mind giving advice to itself.

I have had very similar experiences as what you described in your other post. After one particular trip on mushrooms i can see this happening, but only if i actually listen.

1 hour ago, Zenterus said:

What proof is there that there isnt a physical world out there?

 

 

This is where i think you are going overboard with it and it turns into mental masturbation.

Edited 1 hour ago by Sandroew