Calixtus

Hi, I really need help

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dont undervalue AI - it is as good as (even better) than so called persons on this forum. 

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5 hours ago, Calixtus said:

No, I am a real person, and you have no idea of the spiritual level I once had. I was very high on life, with what can be called, supreme bliss. I can share more if you want. Also, that's a picture of me at 5 I think, how can you think I am a bot. You can't see how real my story is?? He said I met him, because I asked God to meet a man of God, so God answered.

Ok sorry for my suspicion and welcome to this forum.

Your story is very unusual and interesting. Do you think about getting back to Kundalini awakening through meditation to experience the bliss once again?

Do you want to become a spiritual teacher again? Have you reflected why your scholars left you, what was the real reason?

 

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Thanks for responding OBEler! Can we talk on a more convenient means? My Discord is cleverandwitty_95959

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Ok, so what is your experience of Kundalini for yourself? My experience was massive, my body transfigured to the light body.

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1 hour ago, Calixtus said:

Ok, so what is your experience of Kundalini for yourself? My experience was massive, my body transfigured to the light body.

I have just mild Kundalini activations. But I know someone personally who went through a Kundalini awakening. She almost killed herself because of uncontrollably movement. But at the end she experienced infinite love and mystical experiences. Totally worth it, she said. And it was perfect the way it happened. But she struggled because she thought she goes crazy, only later she found out it was Kundalini awakening.

Is your awakening complete? Do you feel any Kundalini energy left in your body right now or like it never happened.

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If you read the story, over 20 years abandoned and without help, I lost everything. My reality is this, NOTHING. I feel nothing, sense nothing. I am dead inside. I don't know what to do. Can you help?

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Sounds like american spirituality to me. Had it, lost it. I was high on life,  now I'm low on life.. 

Still have no clue what you are, whether high or low, whether 20 yrs ago or 20 years later, there is a constant, that's you, thats Truth. Not the high, not the low, not what that "Guru" was teaching you. 

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The Guru said those who seek God on their own, end up in the madhouse. So basically I was so capable, the Kundalini energy awakening was ready for me, but because of my evil classmates, they threw down one of the greatest awakenings, one of the greatest minds of this era. That's how I see it.

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25 minutes ago, Calixtus said:

If you read the story, over 20 years abandoned and without help, I lost everything. My reality is this, NOTHING. I feel nothing, sense nothing. I am dead inside. I don't know what to do. Can you help?

I need more information to really help.

This sounds like deep depression to me. And that depression can you change if you improve your life quality overall. So basics like journaling, eating clean, exercising, job, relationship etc.

Also you need to forgive the ignorance of your classmates. Understand them first and then forgive.

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I was very high on life. Because that was my capability. When I came to know myself, I came to realise what I already know, that I was so beautiful inside. My energy was very high and pure. When my classmates threw me down, my whole body started burning up. My Guru wanted to help me, but over time he abandoned me. Left alone, with my energy channels sealed, it was in Army that I slowly lost my efforts. I became so weak, a Spiritualist said "you know weak spirits are controlling you", and I asked "if they are weak spirits, how can they control me", and he said "you are even weaker than them". Can you imagine how I feel, from so strong, to so weak??? Where is the meaning of my life now? Because they would have called me the strong one.

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@Calixtus if you would be really strong, others would have zero effect on you. What does it really matter if they call you the strong one or weak one. Your self love should not be dependent on others.

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5 hours ago, Nemo28 said:

dont undervalue AI - it is as good as (even better) than so called persons on this forum. 

Ai is good, if you are. 

If you are deluded it can just echo your delusions. If you are able to be very honest while investigating with AI and asking the right questions, it can be a very powerful tool. 

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1 hour ago, Calixtus said:

The Guru said those who seek God on their own, end up in the madhouse. So basically I was so capable, the Kundalini energy awakening was ready for me, but because of my evil classmates, they threw down one of the greatest awakenings, one of the greatest minds of this era. That's how I see it.

You are far from enlightenment,  you need humility and clarity, not kundalini. 

Guru, evil classmates, etc.. you are very mind identified. You need to cut through the story and find what is real now. To find yourself, not a serpent energy. 

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You have no idea of the truth, it is a tremendous bliss, there is humility in how blessed I am, and clarity comes before Kundalini.

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6 minutes ago, Calixtus said:

 

You have no idea of the truth

 

Oh, kush xD

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13 hours ago, Dodo said:

Ai is good, if you are. 

If you are deluded it can just echo your delusions. If you are able to be very honest while investigating with AI and asking the right questions, it can be a very powerful tool. 

most certainly 

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32 minutes ago, Calixtus said:

How was everyone's else Kundalini awakening?

In this forum very few people had Kundalini awakening. But that doesn't mean they don't know truth.

Kundalini awakening is not everything. Understanding, consciousness development etc plays a role.

Chasing bliss in spirituality will probably end up like you. It's ego who wants that. You have not transcended your ego enough so you are suffering . Because the bliss state you lost makes it even more harder for the ego. I think that's what the dark night of the soul describes. It's a common phenomenon on the path to enlightenment.

You need to return  to the spiritual path once again, but from the right intentions. Otherwise you will end up probably in misery again.

And prepare everything for serious work. Have stable income, good diet, sport etc so that you have a strong basis you can rely on when things get heavy. 

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