Glimpses of Awakening and God at BOOM Festival

[Sebiwert]

I was on a Solo-Trip to BOOM Festival (psytrance festival in Portugal).

I do Meditation (30min) and Qigong semi-regularly.

I was on ~14 day semen retention.

 

1st day 10mg 2CB: usual trip

2nd day 1g+1g of Mushrooms + Safrol: usual trip

3rd day: 100+100ug LSD + Safrol: crazy realizations

 

On the third day it happened: At arround 19:00 pm I took 100ug LSD. I chilled for an hour. Then I ate a meal. The effects of the LSD were mild. I could still easily talk to people. I did some Qigong at the lake at sunset and meditated. The sense of "I am" was disappearing into "the moment", just my visual bubble and my sensations were left. I could watch my sense of self appearing with my thoughts about myself and present and future. For a few minutes it was clear that "myself" is only a thought.

 

At arround 23:30 pm i decided to take another 100ug LSD and some Safrol extract. I was walking/dancing arround the various dancefloors at the festival for the next 5-6 hours. In this time it was the first time something happened that was similar what Leo describes as God-Realization. Im still not full convinced that I didn't fully deceive myself, because there were also very mundane things intertwined in the trip. So here is what happened:

I was getting a profound sense that the world/the festival/the universe/consiousness was having a plan for me. Wants certain things to happen. And that in truth nothing can really go wrong, because every event needs to happen exactly as it does for "Gods Plan" to be realized. I was having insights into a beginning relationship with a girl, and how it was destiny that we met here, and why she behaves the way she does. (this was and is still the thing that I most doubt, because it could very well be wishful thinking) I was also seeing, looking up the stars, that the universe is not really as science describes it, but more as we see it in the moment. I also got a sense of how Astrology may be valid in a certain sense, though I cannot really articulate it. I got insights in how Love is actually the central theme within God, because through love/sex consciousness gets replicated. Even rape can be considered a very selfish kind of love. And I even got a sense of downloads from infinite conscousness / insights into "the Plan of God". I was getting really sure that Trump will be fucked in the ass by the Epstein case (which was not clear before I went there, and I didn't watch the news). The Plan of God is to get every stupid motherfocker to follow him for years and then see him revealed as a pedophile - the only way you can get (some!) of these MAGA people to rethink their own self deception.

 

I know this sounds crazy, and I was checking for self-deception about every 5mins within the trip. Still, I'm not fully convinced that it was not self deception, because I hat trips before, where I really thought it was profound, when later I saw that it was full self-deception. What I can say for sure is, that I saw something that really deserves the name of God.

 

Notes on taking psychedelics at Festivals:

Sure its more dangerous than at home and I don't recommend it. BUT:

- there are places, where people know that others are taking them and respect that and can help you and its legal

- it teaches you to not overstep your dose

- the psytrance music helps putting you in a trance state

- in my opinion its more alligned with truth seeking, when it comes to topics like solopsism, because when youre only tripping alone at home, sure, there are no others

 

I'm really wondering why some trips are so much deeper than others, at moderate doses.

 

@Leo Gura - I'd really appreciate your opinion. Thanks!

[Leo Gura]

Psychedelics insights about the future and "God's plan" are usually wrong and not to be taken seriously.

Don't try to use psychedelics to see into the future. Use them to look deeply into your direct experience.

Get out of concepts. Don't use psychedelics to get deeper into concepts.

Concepts is where self-deception happens.

Edited Monday at 08:27 PM by Leo Gura

[samijiben]

Lol did you watch the new vid?

[Verg0]

Boom was great! Even sober. 

Glad you've had such a profound experience 😁