Dealing With Unconsciousness

[SQAAD]

One of the biggest realisations of my life is that the number one reason i have suffered enormously and fell into addiction is because of traumatized low-level people who have deeply hurt me, over and over again.

How toxic and evil these people can be is very disturbing. Maybe for some it's their 1st human incarnation (just graduated from the animal kingdom). Lol.

I do my best to stay away from idiots and find high level people but it's almost impossible to find quality people in person.

Some may think i'm exagerrating but i'm not. I live in Greece. Greece is super low-level. 

Everyone here is an addict. Smoking cigarretes in the norm.

If you are pursuing higher Consciousness you will automatically be in 5% of people. And you will have to deal with the other 95% who are lost in the sauce.

I have been atttending NA meetings and stopped using weed as an escape. I'm very serious about doing my best and i am for the 1st time in my life , feeling like i am doing my best.

To make things short. 8 months i have been going regularly to meetings with no issues. 

Yesterday i went to a meeting and i had a bad experience. The guy who runs that meeting was very stressed and was verbally aggresive towards me..

I was kinda disturbed. But i don't expect better from people who have never meditated in their entire life.

Also he told me that i maybe should not talk 1st (when it's time for every member to share). His intention behind this was not pure. I felt it.

Maybe he feels threatened because he sees me going hard at it, with fearlessness and no hesitation.

I don't push myself to talk. Nor i suppress myself. I just talk naturally, effortlessly, with no stupid ego gimmich behind.

Afterwards when i was sharing, at some point i was talking about the mechanics of personalities and how each personality tries to dominate over the other.

He did not like that. And interrupted me saying that i should only talk about my problems. I replied "this is my problem". Then he continued.

I just left and not going there again. 

 

Edited July 3 by SQAAD

[James123]

28 minutes ago, SQAAD said:

One of the biggest realisations of my life is that the number one reason i have suffered enormously and fell into addiction is because of traumatized low-level people who have deeply hurt me, over and over again.

How toxic and evil these people can be is very disturbing. Maybe for some it's their 1st human incarnation (just graduated from the animal kingdom). Lol.

I do my best to stay away from idiots and find high level people but it's almost impossible to find quality people in person.

Some may think i'm exagerrating but i'm not. I live in Greece. Greece is super low-level. 

Everyone here is an addict. Smoking cigarretes in the norm.

If you are pursuing higher Consciousness you will automatically be in 5% of people. And you will have to deal with the other 95% who are lost in the sauce.

I have been atttending NA meetings and stopped using weed as an escape. I'm very serious about doing my best and i am for the 1st time in my life , feeling like i am doing my best.

To make things short. 8 months i have been going regularly to meetings with no issues. 

Yesterday i went to a meeting and i had a bad experience. The guy who runs that meeting was very stressed and was verbally aggresive towards me..

I was kinda disturbed. But i don't expect better from people who have never meditated in their entire life.

Also he told me that i maybe should not talk 1st (when it's time for every member to share). His intention behind this was not pure. I felt it.

Maybe he feels threatened because he sees me going hard at it, with fearlessness and no hesitation.

I don't push myself to talk. Nor i suppress myself. I just talk naturally, effortlessly, with no stupid ego gimmich behind.

Afterwards when i was sharing, at some point i was talking about the mechanics of personalities and how each personality tries to dominate over the other.

He did not like that. And interrupted me saying that i should only talk about my problems. I replied "this is my problem". Then he continued.

I just left and not going there again. 

 

you are not important, nobody is.

[Breakingthewall]

@SQAAD you are right , a lot of people is very toxic, it's how the human society is. We are heirs to war, slavery, class struggle, ruthless hierarchy, marriages of convenience, contempt and exploitation of the weak, and hatred and fear of those who are different. What did you expect? My strategy in those cases was always very simple: in the event of a confrontation, someone will leave with their energy diminished, so, better you than me. If someone spoke to me like that in a meeting, I would confront him absolutely directly getting totally out of the social rules despite the environment or if it's convenient or not, because the feeling of reacting too much was better than the feeling of reacting too low, that drained my energy. Now I try to maintain an attitude of detachment, since being reactive is weak, you do because you are vulnerable . It's something that shows you're manipulable. But of course, no one is invulnerable, you can't pretend that you are untouchable if you aren't , if you are going to suffer, as you are , better make him suffering more, that's life. 

Edited July 3 by Breakingthewall

[gettoefl]

You are cerebral not visceral. Which is good. But nobody cares. Button it, my friend. Save it for meditation. When you communicate, tell me something I can relate to. Make your words and message accessible. Don't vomit over me. Give me something memorable to go home with. You are wise I agree. Think deeply but share simply.

[SQAAD]

@James123

On 7/3/2025 at 1:58 PM, James123 said:

you are not important, nobody is.

That is a terrible, autistic response. As long as you eat, sh!t, piss, it means that things are very important.

Imagine telling a cancer patient, you are not important, lol.

Edited July 4 by SQAAD

[James123]

4 minutes ago, SQAAD said:

@James123

Imagine telling a cancer patient, you are not important, lol.

One must firstly realize that him/her not important in first place. 

Then nothing needed to be said. Hugging as never did is enough. 

[Breakingthewall]

2 hours ago, James123 said:

One must firstly realize that him/her not important in first place. 

Then nothing needed to be said. Hugging as never did is enough. 

Mental castration only works until uncle Vlad comes with his sticks to play with you and your family. Then it's all complaints. 

Edited July 4 by Breakingthewall

[James123]

35 minutes ago, Breakingthewall said:

Mental castration only works until uncle Vlad comes with his sticks to play with you and your family. Then it's all complaints. 

"will" or "did" is a mental construction.

Have you ever meet with present moment / now?

[Kalki Avatar]

@SQAAD Most ppl here have no idea what is to deal with these type of people everyday as you are forced into because of where you are located. Like Leo even posted some vid in his blog related to understanding how unconscious and psychopaths mind works in case of emergency at some point in your life when that’s literally my daily reality lmao. The only solution I have found is literally living as much as a ghost you can. Be silent, ignore. Don’t share or be too friendly. Don’t trust, rely, look up to ppl or nothing. Imagine you are alone in this world. That’s what you got. The rest is a jungle full of animals. Don’t even trust ppl who seem kind and friendly to you is all a trick. Lately I have been training on boxing, now I go out with a knife in my pocket and feel much more confident in case some conflict escalates as dealing with unconscious people is the same as dealing with a demon. It can get out of control real quick. Also, thinking of buying a gun soon. I’m so tired of this shit I almost want to go live alone in a mountain or jungle. Probably just do mahasamadhi as I grow dead tired of it all.

Edited July 7 by Kalki Avatar