Witness The Unthinkable

[ivankiss]

Is this yet another I want her but she's not good for me type of a situation? Should I be single a bit longer? Is she really capable of following me? Co-operating and co-creating? 

If you're not about to jump out of your seat from all this tension and excitement, you're not doing it right. 

[ivankiss]

Jk I know no one is reading this. 

[ivankiss]

We're slowly starting to communicate normally again. But she's in pain, I can tell. And on her period. So yeah... It's best if we keep some distance now. 

She did point out a couple of my shortcomings during the argument, and it was spot on. Assuming instead of asking. Jumping to conclusions instead of communicating clearly. 

I can’t actually hold anything against her. Can't blame myself too much either. 

All is well. 

 

[ivankiss]

I'm open to giving this some more time and energy. I'm willing to negotiate. But I cannot afford to be thrown off track. 

If I read in between the lines, what her body language and overall vibe is telling me, is that she's here, that she's in, but she's very overwhelmed and I'm adding even more pressure and stress. 

Yes. Too fast too furious. For sure. And that's my fault, admittedly. 

 

 

[ivankiss]

It would be easier if she wasn't sleeping half naked next to me... 

[ivankiss]

Wow do I feel like a jerk now... 

Here's a girl that has a thousand and one problems, and all I'm thinking is how to put my dick inside of her. Of course she sees right through it. 

[ivankiss]

Yeah, it's best if I take a few more steps back...

[ivankiss]

Now she wants to go to Spain together again... Ok... 

[ivankiss]

I think I get it now. 

[ivankiss]

Yeah, it's a no for me. 

God bless her poor soul, but she's at least 3 times crazier than she is hot. And she's really hot.

Definitely not considering her for a long term relationship anymore. But maybe something short term...

If it’s too good to be true, it's because it probably is. 

[ivankiss]

Yes girl no girl, one thing is for sure... This is the best thing I've ever done in my life, and the story could not get any more epic. 

One day I'll tell you all about it. 

[ivankiss]

I can see myself staying here for the summer, even under these circumstances. Sure, why not, I'll do a little situationship for a while. I really need this room. 

[ivankiss]

Three months would be ideal, but really, I just need the room for a month, to save up a bit. Let's hope things don't become too wild. In which case, back to the hostel. 

[ivankiss]

Something tells me though, she has the idea of me paying both of our rents. Because we're together. Or what. 

Ahh... Pretty girls... 

[ivankiss]

For that, we need to have sex every day at least twice. And the numbers are far from that now. 

[ivankiss]

AHAHA Jk

No amount of sex could fool me into another half ass miserable relationship. I have become too wise. 

[ivankiss]

I'll give it time until the end of the month. Then I'm deciding if I'm staying or not. 

[ivankiss]

Oh wow it's much worse than I thought. 

[ivankiss]

She cannot be reasoned with. 

[ivankiss]

Bro. 

She wanted me to pay for both of our rents. And that's semi OK. I'd consider it. But then she also wanted 300€ for a debt she has back in Hungary, and 300€ for a new bike. And she wanted it... like... NOW! AHAHA! 

Then I was like, wait a minute, what? And she did not like that, one bit. 

She unleashed pure hell. And bro, it scared the fuck out of me, I tell you that. But I stood my ground. I was mostly calm and collected. Told her a couple of things. She hated it, of course. 

Yep. Definitely bipolar or some shit. On steroids. 

But... But! Something tells me, somewhere deep down she knows this, and actually wants to gift me this place. In her own words, she has other places where to sleep. 

So yeah. She's out the door. Said she doesn't know when she's coming back. I was like OK cool, I'm here if you wanna talk later. 

Holy fuck. Only in Amsterdam, I suppose.