Schizophonia’s Journal

[Salvijus]

22 years old... I'm so terrible at guessing people's age lol. Happy birthday. 

[Sugarcoat]

@Salvijus how old are you? 28 right. I feel like you’ve told me before you’re 27

Edited June 6 by Sugarcoat

[Schizophonia]

2 hours ago, Salvijus said:

22 years old... I'm so terrible at guessing people's age lol. Happy birthday. 

Eheh how old you thought i was 

Thanks, if even baltic jesus christ wish me hp this year risks to be furtunate. 

[Schizophonia]

3 hours ago, RendHeaven said:

wow you're actually the goat

I don't deserve this medal i just eat half a kilo of peanut butter in some days lol.

3 hours ago, RendHeaven said:

I'll answer here to not derail the other thread:

No pb

3 hours ago, RendHeaven said:

Yes, the perception of sexual purity in Japan is still massively valued, as is the case in all traditional patriarchy structures. Women still fight to appear like utterly innocent virigns, if not outright asexual; and men demand that women be "pure" and "untainted."

But the crazy thing about living in the densest, most overstimulating, high-turnover metro city in the world in the age of social media and digitized everything (+the whole country is psychospiritually sexually repressed), is that women are able to project outward perceptions of sexual purity while getting DICKED in private with no evidence trail and absolute plausible deniability.

Furthermore, the most killer players are all aware of this dynamic, and decisively lead girls towards isolated, low stakes encounters without drawing any attention (calm, stoic, still, detached). It's a fascinating, well-oiled machine of people in the know getting all their needs met in secrecy; people not in the know being hopelessly lonely, touch-starved, and rejected; and the whole of society is in denial while upholding the appearance of 'tradition' and acting like nothing is wrong.

This is unique to Tokyo due to the architecture of a cyberpunk steel jungle and an Instagram-first culture. As mentioned before, if you step outside of Tokyo into the countryside (smaller towns and villages), you are expected to court a woman the old fashioned way by cozying up to her family and playing a slow, loyal, responsible long game (for better or for worse).

I couldn't live in this country, it seems quite inhumane.

And you so, did you managed to get a girl eheh

If you don't mind.

[Schizophonia]

@RendHeaven What I meant was, why don't girls want long-term relationships in a traditional country?
I live in one of the most socialist and atheist countries in the world, and oddly enough, most girls want a boyfriend, a long-term relationship, love, etc. I've never met a girl who wanted to hook up or anything like that; it just doesn't exist.
And yet I know plenty of people.

It seems that the more individualistic and capitalist a country's culture is, the more manic people become, and sooner or later this will wipe out any collective consciousness, no matter how reactionary it may be at its core.

Edited June 6 by Schizophonia

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4 minutes ago, Schizophonia said:

When I was little, I was very "normal," and then I witnessed violent events like my drunken father (probably) kicking my mother out of the house for being distant, and even sleeping with the gardener or something like that lol. I remember crying blood.
There were also other things like regularly seeing my mother cry because of her boyfriend, not having any friends at school, being last on the list of girls, etc.

I can't really say what triggered it exactly; it was probably the cocktail effect, but I basically became ultra-serious, neurotically, with borderline neo-Nazi views. I was also very interested in Black Pills and had eating disorders, even using steroids a few years ago, thinking it would help me get a girlfriend. That was before girls started showing interest in me here and there, by breaking out of my isolation.

Today, everything is going well, even though my life still seems to revolve around the idea that I'll "never be good enough," that I "give without receiving," that I "can only count on myself and possibly my family," etc; a kind of negative hamster wheel still more or less present

Blackpill is closely linked to the family unit, particularly the Oedipus complex.

[Sugarcoat]

On 2025-06-07 at 9:31 PM, Schizophonia said:

 

Is this type of croissant criminal:

https://www.instagram.com/reel/C9sHxZfCkgn/?igsh=MW5zZnc0aWt6azlzNg==

[Schizophonia]

59 minutes ago, Sugarcoat said:

Is this type of croissant criminal:

https://www.instagram.com/reel/C9sHxZfCkgn/?igsh=MW5zZnc0aWt6azlzNg==

Eheh, no it looks good.

Not very skinty-compatible that said.

[Schizophonia]

@Sugarcoat Croissants also taste good with savory things in it.

Typically ham, cheese or butter; it's done.

[Sugarcoat]

27 minutes ago, Schizophonia said:

Eheh, no it looks good.

Not very skinty-compatible that said.

Hahaha that’s right. I wanna try it sometime. I’ve never seen a dessert like that. I love pistachio too

[Sugarcoat]

25 minutes ago, Schizophonia said:

@Sugarcoat Croissants also taste good with savory things in it.

Typically ham, cheese or butter; it's done.

I love that too! There’s cafes in Sweden that sell croissant sandwiches. And when I go to hotel breakfast they can have croissants. Yum

[Schizophonia]

1 hour ago, Sugarcoat said:

Hahaha that’s right. I wanna try it sometime. I’ve never seen a dessert like that.

And this is how Natalia once again begins a "new beginning" for her weight loss   🫡

1 hour ago, Sugarcoat said:

I love pistachio too

Ahah yes i noticed that for a while now.

 

Maybe i should try the next time i go to restaurant, i'm just afraid it's a bit "bland".

2 hours ago, Sugarcoat said:

I love that too!

Obese face

2 hours ago, Sugarcoat said:

There’s cafes in Sweden that sell croissant sandwiches.

Cool, you shall show to me if you go for it.

2 hours ago, Sugarcoat said:

And when I go to hotel breakfast they can have croissants. Yum

It's been a long time since I've been to a hotel but I remember yea, It's always pleasant even if quality isn't great.

Idk if you eat it sometimes but i love pain au chocolat too, roughly equal.

Pain suisse too eheh, i recomand if you fall into it; it looks like pain au chocolat but with a kind of pastry cream inside, you should like it.

 

[Sugarcoat]

2 minutes ago, Schizophonia said:

And this is how Natalia once again begins a "new beginning" for her weight loss   🫡

Every day is a restart

2 minutes ago, Schizophonia said:

 

Ahah yes i noticed that for a while now.

 

Maybe i should try the next time i go to restaurant, i'm just afraid it's a bit "bland".

 

Try

3 minutes ago, Schizophonia said:

Obese face

Cool, you shall show to me if you go for it.

 

Yea

 

3 minutes ago, Schizophonia said:

 

It's been a long time since I've been to a hotel but I remember yea, It's always pleasant even if quality isn't great.

Idk if you eat it sometimes but i love pain au chocolat too, roughly equal.

Pain suisse too eheh, i recomand if you fall into it; it looks like pain au chocolat but with a kind of pastry cream inside, you should like it.

 

I’ve tasted something similar to pain au chocolat

Sounds good 

[Schizophonia]

Turbo cool 

 

[Princess Arabia]

8 hours ago, Schizophonia said:

Turbo cool 

 

First time hearing this song. Nice voices. Beautiful sounds.

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15 hours ago, Princess Arabia said:

First time hearing this song. Nice voices. Beautiful sounds.

Yea, I too am an anxious angry person who watches manifestation videos to wonder if God is with him, I like these strong musics  😝

But now I'm moving towards a calmer and more grounded concept of self, so I'm not really in the vibe anymore, I prefer listening more soft stuff.

 

Edited Thursday at 06:22 PM by Schizophonia

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