Finished the LP course

[Jannes]

9 hours ago, Jannes said:

I am too deep into that shit that I cant see clearly anymore, I need distance, I need vacation.

To test this hypothesis I did a tour today by myself. I cant believe how much better it made me feel. So much processed. So much more peaceful. And this evening I felt so much closer to myself even confident in a way which I had forgetten about myself in a small talk this evening. All my problems are bloated like crazy because of it. My emotions can change so rapidly.

Generally right now I CANT process or feel better when I just sit around by myself I will just sink deeper. I need to find routines/ things that force me to go out more.

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I am thinking of two things which could be very interesting to me as potential career paths:

1) Visioneering post AGI societies.

Vision and leadership what our potential in the future could be. Drawings, philosophy, ...

2) Youtube channel where I post ideas

I have all kinds of different ideas. I could make a channel where I just introduce an idea which then could be talked about. I have got fitness ideas, thoughts about society, ...

I already did youtube videos and it was kind of fun. I was gaming though which was kind of stressful to commentate on, maybe these different videos could be more interesting.

Edited May 1 by Jannes

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I felt like a changed men today. wtf - I am SHOCKED by how fast my mind can change.

19 hours ago, Jannes said:

To test this hypothesis I did a tour today by myself. I cant believe how much better it made me feel. So much processed. So much more peaceful. And this evening I felt so much closer to myself even confident in a way which I had forgetten about myself in a small talk this evening. All my problems are bloated like crazy because of it. My emotions can change so rapidly.

Generally right now I CANT process or feel better when I just sit around by myself I will just sink deeper. I need to find routines/ things that force me to go out more.

 

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I think its interesting that I find my own mind weird. I mean its my mind, why dont I find every other mind weird instead?

Well I guess it has to do with being a functional citizen to have this collective (common) sense of what is normal.

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On 1.5.2025 at 10:54 PM, Jannes said:

1. INFP – “The Inner Seeker”

Why they’re drawn: Deep need for personal meaning, moral truth, and emotional authenticity

Style: Poetic, mystical, emotionally guided

Themes: Goodness, suffering, soul, purpose

Typical path: Journaling, poetry, ethics, mysticism, personal spiritual practice

 

Wants to feel God or truth — not just define it.

I just read my own post again. This actually resonates a ton with me. I find that everybody is so inauthentic, often running after meaningless stuff, morally either a piece of shit or hypocritical, fake or manipulative.. and every role model is limited because you cant replicate something that was shaped in spirit because spirit is moving. So you gotta get to the source ultimately.

And yes I like to understand God as well but its more like a side project I am WAY more interested in feeling God.

Edited Sunday at 12:32 PM by Jannes

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I felt a little sick the last couple of days. 

Interestingly though I kinda improve at socializing through that. My system just has less resources to work with and appearently oversensitivity takes up so much energy that it gets very noticable cut when I am sick. Not sure how that is for other people.