The Princess Diaries

[Princess Arabia]

Leo tells people experience is king, to go out and get experience and to travel and expand your paradigm and whatever else he says in his videos about this, I believe it's how to have the good life or maybe others, but says vacation is fools gold.

Another subtlety on how freedom is chaotic and anarchic. It doesn't care to reason and figure out how it expresses itself, it does so spontaneously and free. How's vacation fools gold. You need that if you're taking care of survival needs by working to pay your bills and taking a break to recoupe from all that. He also says to take care of survival issues before delving into spiritual stuff but I guess taking a vacation from that is fool's gold.

It's not a criticism just pointing out inconsistencies in how life appears and how the dream interprets it. Nothing wrong with luxury, btw, it's an expression of love just as its opposite. Can't have one without the other; so if luxury is bad, then it's opposite is also bad. Consciousness is the dream, which is the same as the dreamer, which is also dreaming and imagining luxurious things. That's my take. Love you Leo.

Edited June 29 by Princess Arabia

[Princess Arabia]

There is nothing beyond anything. There's nothing beyond this. There's only what's appearing which is nothing being, including the appearance of a body referring to the concept of there being a beyond.

Where is this "beyond" appearing.

[Princess Arabia]

Everything in society, I would say life but life is just being life, is designed to keep the person thinking and believing it's a person. I don't know if this is intentional or not but it is. Everything keeps that energy in it's same form. Even though my take on enlightenment and awakening is different than most because I say there's no one to awaken and enlightenment is already the case, it doesn't matter in this instance for what I'm referring to. There's still an apparent illusion of separation that can be 'broken' meaning that energy can apparently fall away revealing to itself that it's not separate and maybe 'break through the illusion', seemingly.

Society doesn't allow for it to be easy. I'll go on the premise for now that enlightenment can be 'achieved' by a 'separate' individual and they can awaken to the 'true nature' of reality. I put those words in quotation because it's all apparent and seems to be happening but there's nothing to really break through or see through.

Tests we do to see what personalities we are, self-development programs, self-inquiry practices, therapists and psychological evaluations, spiritual teachings all addresses the personal self and suggests there's something for the self to do than can lead somewhere or to enlightenment, anything that says there's a self can work on anything to improve, evaluate and develop, I can go on to list more but just about everything in life/society confirms that there's a separate energy form that is responsible for itself and that it needs to do this or that to maintain it's illusory nature. 

Some will say enlightenment is hard and to open oneself to 'discover' the true nature of things requires practices and hard spiritual work and years of dedication to achieve this. We go to retreats and meditate(good practice, BTW, for the body's relaxation), listen to gurus and we engage in all these things as a self to try and get somewhere spiritually while engaging in societal things and programs designed to confirm the personhood that we believe ourselves to be. 

Some will even defend this stance by saying we live in the relative world and life goes on and we are humans surviving a body and lifestyle and that we have to be real about this and not engage in spiritual bypassing and pretend we're not humans or individuals. They'll keep the charade going while seeking enlightenment and awakening and do substances and practices while still engaging on a mental level in the material world. I say mental because we're all 'physically' here but mentally doesn't have to be. That statement is a bit off because it's all mental but there's a point here that's trying to be addressed and that's the only way to put it.

I'm not sure if anything I'm saying is being clear and registering and I'm not really talking to the person but to energy that might resonate with this. Just as some resonates with somethings being said and some it just goes right over their heads because it's just too 'contracted' and invested in itself as a separate individual all trying to survive it's illusory identities. For some, it may.

Can't have both worlds. It's either we're steadfastly keeping up with the Joneses or we're trying to keep the illusion going. The energy that thinks it's a separate entity can deny anything it wants just to keep itself separate because it's having a grand 'ole time wallowing in it's own illusory nature or it can seemingly 'recognize' there's something 'wrong' with how it's been operating and that it's constantly 'feeling' the 'effects' of separation and magically fall away on it's own. There's nothing it can intentionally do for this to apparently happen but it may result in an opening that may release the tension that it 'carries' along with it to reveal it's illusory nature.

Society doesn't do anything to help with this and it really doesn't matter in the 'grand scheme of things' anyway because there's no separate entity and it's all just appearances, all BEING; and it's all freedom and liberation; and what freedom and liberation is for the separate identity is freedom and liberation from itself which doesn't really exist and it's just a play of consciousness which is all but a dream and imagination which isn't even really happening. 

The energy has to not be invested in itself as much for it to 'see' that it doesn't exist and when it 'sees' that it doesn't exist, it can be free of itself in the material world and the illusion of physicality and really start playing in it's own waters and all it's troubles won't be taken so seriously and the world around it will seem more magical and without see it for what it really is. NOTHING BEING EVERYTHING. 

[Princess Arabia]

You are not the space that all objects occupy. There's no real space. Self-inquiry suggests that you're the witness and observer of all that appears and that you're the awareness of all things that appears within your awareness. There's no real awareness as that suggests duality and a something being aware of something else. There really are no objects and there really isn't a subject. Self-inquiry appeals to the individual energy that thinks it's separate and that it can do something to discover it's true nature as GOD.

It says the space that occupies things is unchanging and never moves, it's untouchable and nothing can affect it and that's who we really are. If I'm the space that all objects occupy that what are those objects, what are they made of. Where did they come from. Space and time are effects; and to the observer, is really there and it seemingly here. If there isn't an observer, space and time isn't experienced. 

Notice how sometimes time seems different, and maybe on some substance, it seems to disappear once the sense of self disappears, also the illusion of space might temporarily be out of the individuals perception when it's trippin' and with no sense of itself being a person on it's own. That's because there's no observer present. All that wears off and the sense of self returns and now the observer is back and to it, there's a here and a there once again. One can never be permanently 'gone' while there's a body that 'thinks' there's a controller behind it. Saying I did so and so and saw so and so suggests that there was a person that did so and so and saw so and so. This is all illusory and no one did anything to reveal anything. It's all just happening but when the effects wear off and the observer is 'back' to claim anything, it's back in that felt sense that's not even happening but feels and appears to be. 

This is why i feel it's best to not even try those substances and not claim anything to have happened to it because it just strengthens that sense even more. The more it claims anything the stronger that sense becomes. It's all illusory anyway and doesn't really matter but within the illusion there can be a sense that may fall away to reveal something and that something is actually nothing.

This is all conceptual anyway, but there is no space that holds objects is the bottom-line. The Absolute is appearing as space and time and when the Absolute appears as a sleeping body and with no observer, space and time disappears. It was never there to begin with just as everything else except for what appears and when there's an observer then everything is in relation to it. I'm over here and everything else is over there. Where is all that in sleep. Self-inquiry doesn't acknowledges this, it says there's an observer that is witnessing everything and an awareness that abides as itself with no troubles and worries and that is all being witness even thoughts. No, there's no observer and no one aware of anything. There can't be if there's no separation and all is nothing appearing as everything which us the case and cannot be any other way because for something to appear it must have a source and a source has to be nothing for it to appear as something or else that source has to also have a source so source is nothing.

[Princess Arabia]

Why isn't anybody trying to feel bad. Looking for a worse experience. Wanting to be sad and miserable. Going about life trying to worsen it consciously. Everywhere you look it's all about how to be happy and how to be better off, trying to obtain things of value and trying to get something positive from life. Why?

The individual is in pain. The individual feels tension. It seeks to relieve itself. Even in temporary happiness that's not happiness at all, it's pain relief. Sob sob. It wants to make the world a better place. On it's death bead, it won't care then. It wants to make the world a better place for itself. So it can feel better about living in it. It's always about feeling better. Why?

It's in pain, it seeks relief. It's a default. Seek happiness to feel relief. Let's talk about it, write about it, advise on it, teach about how to attain it, seek others to help on how to achieve this state, help the world get there, help, help, help, help. Please we need to do something about this pain we all feel.

There's nothing to do to get relief. Do all the practices you want, be a slave to your circumstances, idolize happiness and ostracize pain. Invent all the pain medications we want. Notice there's no pill for happiness. Pain and tension is the default of mankind. Seek, seek, seek, seek, seek. That's all we do. Then we die and collapse into the ocean of love that's always been here. Why not be that now. Pain and all. Tension and all. Now. There's no permanent relief. Try to see this. It's impossible to see if one's trying to seek relief. The only way to see it, but not with the eyes or intuition, or soul, or anything of the sort, the only way is to just be. Be with the tension and despair and do nothing about it. Then and only then that energy just might collapse to reveal that it's not there. To reveal that everything is automatic and there's nothing to do. It's being done. Whatever it is, it's being done. Not even. It's just being whatever it wants to be. Appear. It goes away and appears again as whatever without anyone in the driver's seat. Hard to accept. Gate to fathom. The person cannot grasp this. It's ungraspable. No person, and it's all timeless energy appearing. 

[Princess Arabia]

If I'm supposed to be God, why do I need a so-called human to tell me how to reach myself. Can someone please explain this to me please. Maybe what is meant by that is that God forgot itself and now a human being who has awaken to itself can teach me how to awaken myself as God. Is that it.

Why doesn't a cat have the choice to awaken as God or a dog or a mouse or a lion or a tree. Why is it only humans who awaken as God. Why do animals get to just bask in their being as animals while we have to put in work to awaken to God. Why are trees given a free pass, mountains and oceans and the birds. I don't see just humans here. I see everything else but nothing else is trying to awaken or get enlightened. 

This is a serious inquiry but I don't feel like making a post about it so if anyone is reading this and can give me an answer, I would appreciate it.

 

[samijiben]

34 minutes ago, Princess Arabia said:

If I'm supposed to be God, why do I need a so-called human to tell me how to reach myself. Can someone please explain this to me please. Maybe what is meant by that is that God forgot itself and now a human being who has awaken to itself can teach me how to awaken myself as God. Is that it.

Why doesn't a cat have the choice to awaken as God or a dog or a mouse or a lion or a tree. Why is it only humans who awaken as God. Why do animals get to just bask in their being as animals while we have to put in work to awaken to God. Why are trees given a free pass, mountains and oceans and the birds. I don't see just humans here. I see everything else but nothing else is trying to awaken or get enlightened. 

This is a serious inquiry but I don't feel like making a post about it so if anyone is reading this and can give me an answer, I would appreciate it.

 

Because everyone is one blahblah and animals don't have seperate consciousness blah blah 

It is true, Princess...

It is not because humans have some developed neofrontal cortex or some shit like that, but rather because the Princess is an awesome storyteller, and the evidence is above and on the pages before. 

You have written a cute little story within which Everything is contained. 

Bless.

[Princess Arabia]

50 minutes ago, samijiben said:

Because everyone is one blahblah and animals don't have seperate consciousness blah blah 

It is true, Princess...

It is not because humans have some developed neofrontal cortex or some shit like that, but rather because the Princess is an awesome storyteller, and the evidence is above and on the pages before. 

You have written a cute little story within which Everything is contained. 

Bless.

Thank you for that explanation. It has surely enlightened me as to the true reason why it is only humans out of everything else on this planet that can awaken to God. That separate conscious that we have where there's supposedly no separation and that animals and trees and mountains doesn't possess is the reason for this quest. I've also heard of something called collective consciousness, so I suppose there's a separate consciousness for humans as well as another consciousness for the collective or is this the same consciousness that can be separate and conjoined when it feels like it. Dunno. 

[Princess Arabia]

Why the fuck is anybody at all, ANYBODY, born by parents who fucked and had them without their consent and was just blapped on this earth to figure shit out just like the rest of us able to tell me shit about God. Why the fuck did God forget who the fuck it is just so some stranger has to tell me to awaken to it. What the hell kind of joke is this. Somebody I don't even know from Adam's eve like Ramana Majarshi, i'm supposed to follow his word and think of him as a wise guru who can lead me to some fucking destination where I don't even know what the hell is there. 

He doesn't even know I exist but he is capable of telling me something, through the living who teaches his word, something that's supposed to enlighten me about who I am and how I'm supposed to live this life to awaken to my true nature. I'm not dissing him whoever he is, and it's not personal, all I'm saying is don't put me here on this earth to supposedly fend for myself then tell me about some stranger in a grave. That's fine about him and what he did and stood for just as Einstein can talk about some relativity stuff like M=c2 or whatever that is or whoever invented the light bulb, Newton and Jung and whom ever else we consider to be geniuses, that's fine and we need people to help with developing the world and all; but when it comes to some man's or woman's word about how to enlighten me and awaken me and to awaken to MY true nature, now it took a turn to the personal. 

Inventing a lightbulb and Steve Jobs founding Apple and Bill Gates Microsoft and who ever else invented stuff for the world to benefit from and teachers helping students to read and write and comprehend and teaching trades and Professors teaching University students and chefs teaching cooking classes and construction workers building houses and whatever else the masses is benefitting from and what makes the world go round and is of use to for all.

Why are there people out there telling me who I am, why I was born, how to get saved from suffering and how to reach God. Tell me how to write a book, cook pasta, build a house, invent something, how to invest and all of the worldly things that needs to be taught so one can live in this world but why do I need someone to tell me who I am and what is not me and what is me and having courses and classes and zoom meetings and sponsorships and a secret member club just to tell people how to meditate and just be. What the fuck kinda world is this.

I just cannot buy into this shit. I'm OK with being taught practical stuff and I'm OK with anything in the material world and being told how to navigate it to survive and all that but I have a BIG problem with having to be told personal things about myself from strangers I don't even know like who the fuck I am and what am I doing here. If I didn't know then nobody else should know, if my momma and poppa didn't tell me then, nobody else have that right. You're not responsible for birthing me so you don't have that know how about who i am. I plopped out of my mommy's vagina, that's who I am. If I'm not, then whomever was responsible for plopping me out of my momma's vagina better tell me. Whoever made that possible better tell me who I am. Whoever planted that seed better tell me who I am; and if I can't find that person, then nobody else knows who I am because you never planted that seed. My momma and poppa called me a name and treated me like a human and a person. That's who I am. Anything else anybody says, I don't know about all that. 

As far as I'm concerned, I'm nothing. Not in the spiritual sense of nothing but nothing because anything I've been told is from another human being just like me and their momma and poppa I'm sure treated them as such just as the whole world. Everybody is going off of what they were born into and what everybody else is going by. Human. What's that. I don't know. So as far as I'm concerned I'm nothing until whomever invented me says otherwise. As far as I'm concerned, if I'm nothing, then no human can tell me about God and who God is because if I'm nothing then God, if that's what they're going to tell me that I am is nothing too and nothing cannot be described. So there. End of story.

Edited July 1 by Princess Arabia

[Princess Arabia]

There is no will. Whether free or determined or God's. Will implies reason and meaning. That's all dream stuff. It's all done. Will implies movement, time and space. Will Implies something or someone willing something into existence. There is no God that wills anything. That's the dream imagining. Will is being imagined and appears as such to an observer. Relativity is illusory as that's also the Absolute appearing as. Anything that appears is nothing as nothing is being that. So, all that stuff cannot stand on it's own and is all stories made up by the dream. All there is, is all there is. No separation, no movement and not still, no cause and effect, no time no space, no subject no object, no here no there, no now no present, no nothing yet everything. Real and unreal. No position, no bounds, timeless, causeless everywhere and nowhere. Cannot be pointed to. No reason or meaning. Say that's meaning all you want, that's just semantics and word games. No thing, no yet's, if's but's, why's, how's. Where's the will in that.

Edited July 1 by Princess Arabia

[Princess Arabia]

People are looking up to God and worshipping a diety. The God that's supposedly to be everything is also dog shit, would you worship dog shit. This ain't about God, it's about worshipping, looking up to, denying and partiality. Your God wouldn't like for you to deny his dog's shit now would it. or that pedophile, or that rapist or anything you dislike and hate. Is your God everything or is it separate from you. Where is the eye of God. What is God imagining that I'm not. See people don't understand what they're saying sometimes. 

I may be wrong in what I'm saying when I write or even deluded, but at least i understand my delusion and speak from the entire delusional premise and the jigsaw has no pieces left out. Can't say there's no separation then say God has something that i don't or God is over there and you're here or say God created this or that then say time and space doesn't exist or whatever. We misuse the word paradox to try and fit the broken puzzle we've created for ourselves and to make reality make sense to us. Then we speak about a God without an understanding of that God and say they are God but speak about their relations to it. If I'm over here and God is over there, how am I God; then we invent words to try and answer these questions like relative and duality and perception and whatever other word we've given meaning to to explain what's happening here. It's all nothing being so whatever we come up with is nothing. It's all just what's appearing to happen. Even all the mind stuff and the ideas, concepts thoughts and explanations. Means nothing because meaning is a limitation and a story which is simply just an explanation of what's appearing - THAT'S WHAT A STORY IS.

Edited July 1 by Princess Arabia

[Princess Arabia]

 I look through these eyes and I see nothing through them. 

[samijiben]

Are you blind, Princess?

[Princess Arabia]

ENDLESS DEBATES:

 

Free will and choice

Veganism/Carnivore

Solipsism 

Enlightenment/Awakening

Absolute/Relativity

What is Existence

Peter Ralston (Infinite)

 

 

 

[Princess Arabia]

2 minutes ago, samijiben said:

Are you blind, Princess?

lmao, no.

Edited July 2 by Princess Arabia

[Princess Arabia]

@samijibenWhat I mean is when I sit and actually look through them, stare through them and notice them, there are no eyes there seeing anything.

[Princess Arabia]

I think that when we were born, we are the same way and everything that seems different like our growing into adulthood and learning things and knowing things and everything in between is all illusory. I think the body is still actually just like a baby's and attributes the same but the perception is what changes and just like magic we seem to ourselves to be growing into an adult, get old and die. There's something inside that never seem to change and I think that's still the innocent little baby in each of us. We're learning and gaining knowledge and doing actions but I think if we take away the sense that perceives all that like we perceive it now, all those things would be forgotten and we'd be just like a mute and a person who doesn't know or remember anything.

This must be the whackiest thing I've ever thought about and the mind concocted up. Even to me this sounds a bit off the top. It just came across my mind that what if I'm actually still a baby, even in body but there's a sense that allows for that baby to see itself or perceive itself as if it's growing. You know, like that inner child saying. 

Maybe that's why so many have trauma's because we're force ripe babies believing we're adults and all that happened to us even in adulthood is being perceived from a grown baby's perspective with the use of that sense which I don't have a name for. Ever seen those dwarfs and midgets how in the face they look like babies and people born with a retardation, when you look in their faces they have baby features. Some look like they're drooling (so cute i love to look at those people, the melt my heart), and they talk like babies sometimes. I think those are the ones with what we call down syndrome,

There's some kind of unknown sense that makes us perceive the body growing up and getting old and that's why we see the elderly as children again. Like they did a full circle, but only in perception and they never really left the baby form. Of course, this is all ridiculous, but so is the body coming out of a vagina and it's only the norm because that's what we know and was born into. 

I think I need to stop thinking about life for a while and go back to worrying about my problems......oops! Nope I choose thinking about life even though there's no thinker, but whatever, it seems that way.

[Princess Arabia]

My new profile pic is an old picture back when I used to model. I think I was about 22/23 in that pic. This was in my going out days and I think I only modelled for about a year after that because that was taken here in the US and i did most of my modelling in Jamaica as a teenager. I did some here too and went to John Casablanca's modelling school and did a few shows here and there (nothing like Naomi or Tyra or anything close), just a wedding and a calender and a fashion show in Newark and a lingerie show at the Flagship and a few local shows until I gave it up to be an exotic dancer....tadaah!!! Delilah's Den, baby!! and Purple Orchid in Philly. Loved those days. 

[Princess Arabia]

Free will doesn't exist, period. It's the dream and a story. Why would this have a need for a will. It's unlimited and timeless and free. If you want to say what appears is a will then go ahead but it's not free will. There's no willing but only to the observer that doesn't exist. That felt sense that's not really happening. If one has free will and choice, why can't that one choose to stop having free will and choice. Go ahead and free will away the free will that you possess. Can't. Where is the need for a will in All There Is but only in the dream of separation, that's where free will seems to be happening but it's only an appearance of free will and what that means is it's not really happening, it's empty of any substance, meaning and value and no one is actually doing that. God doesn't have a will either that's a story.

Nothing is God's will as God is everything and all there is. Your life is a dream. What is, isn't. I'm referring to what is. Free will is a concoction just like syrup and sugar and water. Nothing is separate or united or one. Everything just is and everything is nothing. So we can free will all we want there is nothing to it and it ain't going nowhere. Only the neurotic arrogant energy that cannot stomach to hear this will reject this message and call me crazy. It thinks it's saying something substantial and responsible by saying we are responsible for our lives and the free will to choose right from wrong, but it cannot die on the spot or choose to breathe or not and didn't ask to come here but all of a sudden it's supposed to be responsible for a life. There really is no life anyway just unpolarized energy that can appear to be living or dead. Where's the free will there. The energy keeps going and going and going, seemingly anyway, around in a loop of endless bickering and avoidance of itself and loves to play this sick game of cat and mouse and it can go on with this forever. 

[Princess Arabia]

Nite Nite. Enough for one day. It's 2. a.m. Talking shit at witching hour isn't good for the witches. We need beauty sleep. Hehe, I felt crazy all day. I must be. I think I am.