The Princess Diaries

[Princess Arabia]

God doesn't dream up crappy lives. There is no God that's dreaming. There is no one that's dreaming. THE DREAM IS THE INDIVIDUAL. The dream is the one that thinks God dreams. The dream is the one that thinks it has a life and stands on its own. The dream is not real. There is actually no dream, meaning there is no individual. There is just energy appearing to be an individual.

God is energy. There are appearances. Appearances means there's nothing actually happening only appears to be. A rainbow appears when the conditions also appear for it to be a rainbow and those conditions also appears when conditions appear for them to be so and so on. A sneeze appears maybe after being exposed to pollen and a cough after exposed to smoke and a yawn after feelings of tiredness, etcetc. Everything is in relation to another thing simply because they have no true reality on their own. They are appearances. There is actually no relation, only appears that way. All appearances are empty. They have no substance to them. They cannot be grasped or held unto. They are not owned. They don't belong to anyone. That's the dream. This is energy speaking to energy. Responding and relating to energy. There's energy that has taken form to appear as........it's empty. Energy can become anything including the appearance of people seeming to be living crappy lives; including a forum where a poster asks why does God dream up crappy lives; including a reader that reads this and says she's full of shit. That's energy. The thoughts are energy, the ideas, the concepts the chair and the dog. The blood, the heart, the everything. All appearances, all empty and void of meaning and substance. 

There's a type of energy that thinks it's a separate energy. Somehow it ate from the tree of knowledge that knowledge thinks it knows (metaphor and analogy , didn't really happen, but that's what the story means). Now that energy appears to have a life of it's own, appears to have free will and choice, see other and thinks they're also separate from it and the rest of the shebang. Energy itself isn't dreaming, the body, which is also energy, feels like there's someone in there driving it, it appears to have feelings, emotions, sensations and is thinking and have control over itself. That's an illusion and the dream. It's not happening be cause that energy was never cut off in the first place and is not separate.

I'm not teaching anyone anything, this is energy appearing as someone trying to convey a message to other energy forms. It's an illusion. It feels real to the individual and can appear to have consequences. This is not to say life doesn't appear to go on and the felt sense isn't real. It is but tell me one person that ever made it out alive. Not one. Why is it that no one will ever live forever. Ever. Because it's just bodies, an appearance. Do you ever see a rainbow lasting for 100years. Do you see anything that appears, appears forever, maybe suffering but you get the drift. 

Nothing can appear and last forever. It cannot stand on it's own. It's not appearing out of anything because that thing has had to also appear out of something and so on. IT IS NOTHING BEING. Full on. No middle man.......to be continued. The brain is seeming to shut down and the thoughts appearing and the mind believing...lost it.

[Princess Arabia]

It's love because love is the absence of separation and there's none. Love is unity. The individual wants to "stick that dick into that ass" a forum member said that and because it seeks love and unity. I got upset by those terms because I saw a lack of love and unity. We seek what we think we lack. There's actually no seeker, only appears that way. Those words were said but by themselves. The anger towards those words was anger appearing. Energy turned to anger. No one did that. There's no one to do anything. It's all energy appearing including the person that may seem to say there's an avoidance of responsibility for one's actions. 

I invite for anyone to explain to me in detail or even slightly how they get angry or sad or moody or happy or whatever. Please explain to me the mechanics involved. Not why you got angry or the thing or circumstance that made you angry, but how you made anger appear. How you made sadness appear. How you build a chair and a house can be explained and taught. How the hands moved to build the house cannot be explained. Maybe scientifically but there will always be a gap somewhere as to how the motion was generated. It will always lead back to energy. God is energy it us how the hands moved. It is how the hands appear to not move (maybe a stroke or an accident). Also an appearance. God appearing as a stroke or accident victim. 

A new car can appear to make someone happy but that someone cannot explain how that happiness was generated. It happened all on it's own. Everything is happening all on it's own including the appearance of a dead body. That body is no more dead or alive than you seem to be. It's an appearance just as a chair is an appearance. There was never anyone in that body. No soul or entity. Just a body. A dead body is not a body that died. There is just an appearance of a dead body. There is no real continuity. That's the dream. When I say this is magic, that's what I meant simply unexplained magic. No one can explain how this is done because it's not being done. It is simply BEING. Being cannot explain being, it just simply fucking is.

 

 

 

 

[Princess Arabia]

Men are out here chasing women instead of chasing careers and status to attract the women. Notice how easy it is for men of status to get women. Instead of calling women gold-diggers or money hungry or manipulators, maybe try and see from their point of view. Lots of men don't mind providing and providing protection the best they can for the 'right' woman. The woman that appreciates and respects them for their efforts. Those men get their rewards just from being with the woman herself and not what she brings to the table. Her presence is enough for them which enables her to be in her feminine in their presence. She can maneuver both traits back and forth when needs be but usually is almost in her feminine around him. He feeds off of that.

A lot of women become masculine because they are left on their own to fend for themselves. They get chewed up and spit out by men who can't see beyond her on a sexual level or the beauty that emanates from her being. They'll want to use her for their pleasure and also expects her to do all the work like raising children and doing house-work. That can mentally drain a woman and cause her to become bitter towards men and causes her to be in her masculine and close off her feminine side as a protective mechanism. 

Wrong journal. Just noticed. Anything can appear.

 

Edited Sunday at 09:28 PM by Princess Arabia

[Princess Arabia]

The seeker apparently seeks what it imagines to be lost.

Edited Sunday at 09:37 PM by Princess Arabia

[Princess Arabia]

 Life doesn't give anyone anything. In fact, if anything, it takes away. Notice we lose our hair, looks, physique, memories, health, senses, spontaneity, desires, friends, family members, pets... just about everything seemingly gets lost. Seemingly, because it wasn't ours to begin with. Yet, we're constantly trying to GET something. Nothing is gained or lost. Hoarders are the biggest 'getters'. They can't GET enough. Knowledge is hoarded, things are hoarded, ideas and insights can be hoarded, money, cars, jewelry, sexual conquests, you name it. We are all a bunch of hoarders. That's what the knowing energy does, it hoards. It's all about WHAT IF and not WHAT IS.

[Princess Arabia]

Everywhere we attach ourselves to, we criticize and judge. Families, workplace, forums, church, communities, social groups, wherever there's an identity as in here, I'm a forum member, or I'm a teacher, or I belong to this community, etc. It comes with the territory. We expect people to live up to our standards of the ideas and labels we place upon ourselves. "You're not being how I expect you to be so I can live up to my respectability and ideas of what my identity should resemble and if you are a part of what I identify with, then you're supposed to act and be a certain way so I can be proud of that identity". 

We will leave a particular place or even person and go in search of somewhere else to identify with in hopes finding a better environment that lives up to our expectations. We will go back to the initial place and start to curse the members when we can't seem to find a place to identify with that embodies the ideas we have of ourselves. "The people here are"......then the criticisms and judgements only to find ourselves coming back for more just to play detective and then criticize and judge some more after the analysis. What I'm doing here, in case anyone says I'm doing the same thing, is observation. Notice I use the pronoun "we". I try to include myself when I speak - out of habit and it just feels more natural and less finger pointing. Sometimes, but not all times. 

[Princess Arabia]

This is starting to get hilarious at this point. It is really acting up. It needs to calm itself down and chill the fuck up...or down...or sideways...or not.

[AION]

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[Princess Arabia]

I don't really have a problem with thoughts anymore. All I do is think about the Absolute, the Divine, the Beloved One, the All. Sometimes some other shit pops in and i may notice thoughts of another nature or whatever but they're not a bother. I don't even see them as mine any much more. They're just there. The nuisance ones may start to impact but I immediately shut them out after a few secs.

[Princess Arabia]

I cry sometimes when I read a post from someone who's obviously just mentally ill. Just one or two posts with no comments or responses. It's not out of pity or anything like that and I'm not sure why I even cry, I think it's because I see love oozing out but because I may have my senses in tacked it seems like a mental disorder to me when analyzed. This is how powerful this illusion is. It's only words on a screen talking jibber jabs but all I see is love. I feel the same way when I see disabled children, the type that was born that way, you know, the lovely one's that look a little off and their eyes kinda cross and their tongues stick out and they just look like they're filled with love. I just want to hold and hug and squeeze them when I see them. Same how one might feel like hugging a tree. Crying right now just writing this post. 

 

Edited Monday at 12:12 PM by Princess Arabia

[Princess Arabia]

Notice how people, talking about reality and trying to make a point will say "if". If is not a reality. "If you hit your head on a stove" and so and so and so.....not happening, my friend, the only thing happened was a story was told about someone who might hit their head on a stove and a scenario of what might happen if that happens. That's the dream.

[Princess Arabia]

This is freedom and freedom is free to be anything; including being stupid and silly. Anyway it wants. It doesn't really want, it just is, including the judgments and criticisms about the different ways it appears. It isn't personal and doesn't see conditions, it's so free. Actually it does, that also is freedom seeing conditionally. It doesn't even see, that's how hard it is to talk about this stuff; how do you talk about everything.

Why do you think we needed rules and laws to govern this freedom. Freedom is governing itself. You think humans are silly and foolish and unwise and whatever else, no, they are expressions of freedom. How can something be free if it's not free to be stupid and foolish too. Goddamit, forget about yourselves for a minute, forget about your biases and agendas and prejudices and phobias and fears, forget about you for a sec, everything including all I just mentioned is freedom expressing itself. Anarchy. Try to see life as not about you, as nothing to get or gain, as nothing to become as noone to fix, as nothing to accept, let go of, or surrender to, nothing to judge or not judge, criticize or not criticize, love or not love, fear or not fear, see it all as JUST WHAT IS. Even your judgements of it. Don't try to accept, reject or needing anything to change. Nothing at all. Just for a day, try to live like that. Don't care how you look that day or even smell, don't care what you eat or drink or say or think or whatever...JUST FOR ONE DAY, GET A TASTE OF WHAT FREEDOM REALLY IS LIKE.

All that is miniscule in comparison. That's also freedom. Can't escape freedom. The feeling is what counts, what matters (to the individual), The individual is freedom's expression but it can't feel free; freedom is not personal nor is it catered to anyone; all one can do is try to get a taste of what it's like to feel free, not be free, but feel free and because we are expressions of freedom already and freedom itself appearing as....WE CANNOT BE FREE. It's like water trying to be fucking water. Do you get it or not. It's already fucking done.

 

 

Edited Monday at 01:48 PM by Princess Arabia

[Princess Arabia]

HUMANS ARE LIKE BABIES CRYING OUT FOR MOMMA.......in every way. LITERALLY. Cry cry baby, munch and darling take off your shoes and go to bed.

 

[Princess Arabia]

Self-Inquiry is just another trick intact to keep the illusion of self in place.

Keep noticing awareness. You are the awareness of these things. Place your awareness on your awareness. You are not the body, you are the awareness of the body. You are not the mind, you are the awareness of the mind. There is something that never changes and you are that. Focus on fucking that.

Just the mention of the word focus is a fucking self inquiry trap. Who's focusing and what is being focused on and why. Answer those questions and.....delusion galore. The person, the individual must get tired of itself one day when it gets exhausted of trying to become something it never will.

The poor body gets old and dried up before that will ever happen and shrivels up with exhaustion from looking out for and searching for this invisible awareness and empty space it thinks it is. Then this awareness and empty space dreams up an after life for it to come back to to do more hard and tedious work of trying to stay in awareness and become a nobody. The genius design of the Universe to keep this nothing into something and for nothing to be able to tell a story to it's children. Imagine nothing staying nothing forever; how boring and dull that would be. Please stop whining and bickering because you don't want to be nothing you want something to whine and bicker about so you can feel something. It's all magic. Nothing being something is magic. There cannot be something out of something, has to be no-thing before it can be something.  Would you bitch and wine for nothing. Self-inquiry keeps us in the illusion. Though, not really. All spiritual practices speaks to the dream. Though not really. All teachings and gurus speaks to the dream, though not really because the dream isn't really happening and the dream and the dreamer are one and there's only what is and what is is all there is. 

 

 

Edited Monday at 02:14 PM by Princess Arabia

[Princess Arabia]

I listened to this like 10-15x. It's still playing while I'm typing this. Whatever THIS is, it's truly an amazing singer. That's all i hear when this lady belts these chords. I hear Absolute melodical genius. 

[Princess Arabia]

No words.

[Princess Arabia]

Babies and toddlers make most people smile, especially when they're smiling back at them. We see innocence in babies and toddlers and very young children. They melt our hearts, especially babies when they're cute and cuddly. Adults are innocent too, but we project evil unto them. We walk around in seriousness and see people as the enemy and untrustworthy. Strangers and people we don't even know. Automatically they're the unknown enemy because of projections and memory and brain images.

Babies, toddlers and young children have done nothing wrong to us so we smile at them and keep it moving. If a cute little toddler, say 3-5 years old looks out the car window and smiles and wave, we wave back and say, awww, so cute. Adults don't do that. It's a no, no, unless you want to be considered a pervert or a homo, or she/he must like me. Random smiles and waves to be accepted and responded to innocently is reserved for babies and kids. Adults, however, watch out, you want something or you're weird.

Once we have lived enough to get rejected, disappointed and let down by people, we project that unto the whole world. Now we have to prove ourselves.....except for the automatic innocents' like babies, toddlers and young children.

Edited Wednesday at 11:24 PM by Princess Arabia

[Princess Arabia]

We say the Absolute/All There Is/God....whatever word....is undefined and indescribable. It is. It is every descriptive word. It is every behavior, it is every persona, every identity, every mood, sensation, state, phase....everything. It can be talked about; everything in life is it. It is mean, kind, loving, hateful, envious, dependent, happy, joyous, blissful, sorrowful, quiet, noisy, melodical, scary, bright, intelligent, stupid. 

What do we think is being all these things. It's the Absolute being all that. No one is doing anything on their own. No one is smart or stupid, intelligent or wise, or whatever trait. It's all being played out as/by the Absolute. No one built anything, the Absolute is being every creation. Nothing was really ever created. It's all the Absolute, BEING.

Do you really think that all 8billion people is doing all this and that we were taught anything and learnt anything. No, it's all the Absolute's doing. Nobody has ever lifted

a finger. No one has ever built any technologies, no one has ever went to Mars or the moon and no one has ever gotten pregnant and delivered a baby. No one has ever done a friggin' thing in the whole of existence. It's all the Absolute BEING.

[Princess Arabia]

That person is not you; there is no you.

[Princess Arabia]

Do you really think that person you see walking down the road, has a brain with electrical shit going on inside their head. Do you really think there are cells walking down the street in that body working like construction workers. Do you really think that person you see has kidneys, a liver, an appendix, a heart, gall bladder, irises, hair follicles, eyeballs, inner ear, outer ear, a skeletal and a muscular system, however many systems and bones that makes up the human body, a tongue, a nose that breathes air in and out....i mean I could go on and on about what the human body entails and all it's features.

Do you really think that person is walking around with all that in working order and working for decades while the person is just worried about sex, relationships, drugs, who they hate, what they like, survival and working from home to pay the bills. That's a lotta load. These bodies are fucking empty. Not a single organ is doing anything. Cut her open, there's a beating heart, that fucking heart is like rumpelstillskin. I'm telling you, this is utter magic.

Edited Wednesday at 11:54 PM by Princess Arabia