The Princess Diaries

[Princess Arabia]

What is God-Realization. I thought everything was God. I thought God was Nothing. How can nothing be realized. How can anything be really realized in Oneness and no separation. What would one see. If not seen with the eyes, what sense is used to realize God. Is God an object to realize. Who is realizing God. God is realizing itself. How is that possible. Anything is possible with God. Is the person realizing God. That seems like God would be limited to a position, time and space a thing to be realized. How does the process of realization happen. That requires time and space which doesn't really exist. Am I realizing my myself. How am I doing that. Psychedelic use. There's a process that has to take place. I thought God was timeless. Let me stop before I realize something I don't want to realize.

[Princess Arabia]

What is Reality. Trees, clouds, animals, air, the stop light, the road, birds, stones, the ocean, mountains, thoughts, ideas, concepts, a bicycle, a light bulb, food, water, a cup, urine, fish, a rose......i dunno, what is reality. AIR? What is it. God.? Me? Consciousness? What is it? Existence is nothing, but what is Reality? Something?

How can Reality be known. Is there something outside of it to know it. Who is knowing it, is that a part of Reality as well. How do you grasp it. With the mind? Is the mind outside of Reality. Dunno.

Edited June 13 by Princess Arabia

[Princess Arabia]

You go into a room and completely forget what you went into the room for. Ever happened to you, I know it happened to me a few times. It's because walking is just happening with no one in the driver's seat and the person forgets because memory wasn't being 'deployed' at the same time. Walking is happening, memory is happening, only walking happened in that moment. Nothing walking. Nothing wasn't being memory then, so the body got stuck, then it remembered, the absolute appeared as memory.

[Princess Arabia]

The separate seeking energy is, by nature, irritable and it seeks anything out to blame for it's irritations, e.g. thoughts. It goes to silence retreats to try and find a cure for it's irritability. It might work for a while, but irritability seems to come back. Thoughts are just happening just like birds are flying.

Edited June 13 by Princess Arabia

[PurpleTree]

Do you know her? She’s funny 

 

[Princess Arabia]

9 minutes ago, PurpleTree said:

Do you know her? She’s funny 

 

No, never heard of or seen her before. Checked her out, she's ok. 

[Princess Arabia]

Spirituality is just spiritual materialism. Nothing special about it just in a different category, different labelling. Spiritual people are no more special than religious people, it's just on a different level and that level is illusory. One is no more or less delusional than the other. We can talk about religious people and their stupid practices, and they can talk about us and our stupid practices; neither is right nor wrong, both are what is. If you want to argue this, go ahead, if you want to come up with ideas and concepts about what's being said here, go ahead; won't change a thing. We are no more closer to or further away from God/Absolute than they are. Everything is immediate. No space.

If you think you're any more special than anyone else on an existential level, then you're right, if you think your practices mean anything other than to you and your dreamworld, you're right; if you think you're getting anywhere other than where you appear to be, you're right. That's the beauty of the illusion and nothing being everything. Freedom is everything and is free to appear as being right. If I'd said you're wrong, then that would have been the case, but I said right so that's what is.

 

Edited June 14 by Princess Arabia

[Princess Arabia]

We're all trying to feel better. To have better experiences. Nothing wrong with that, me too, just pointing it out. No matter what it is, it's an attempt to feel better. We add stories to what's being done to make it appear more meaningful and having other purposes other than just to feel better. Who wants to admit to themselves that they do things just for the sole purpose of feeling better. We have to make it meaningful and purposeful. Feeling better seems so vain and shallow.

Plus we have this idea that no pain, no gain, so no one wants to admit that they're just wanting to feel better by doing enjoyable things, we have to also feel pain in order to feel better. That's the insanity the human carries on with. It doesn't realize it's not a separate entity and every one of it's attempt to feel better is a by-product of this sense. Even the attempt to put oneself through pain and suffering to get somewhere is an attempt to feel better about the painful experience. When one says that they're happy and enjoying their life, it's usually that they're enjoying so-called objects. The monks who are just sitting there and are content are also using something to attain this feeling. No difference, just in content. It's all seeking.

 

[Princess Arabia]

There is no one dreaming. The person and the dream are one. The person is the dream. There is no person and the dream isn't happening.

[Princess Arabia]

This is where you'd like to get to - anyone that dreams of enlightenment. Let me give you a scenario. This man does exist, I'm just giving you my story of him.

There's a mad man that walks the streets everyday. He may live somewhere, i'm not sure but he's fairly clean most of the time, a little worn and hair knotted but not all dirty and doesn't smell. (he's passed by me a few times). Every time I've seen this man, he's talking to himself - EVERYTIME. He just walks by everyone and keeps on talking and sometimes smiling with himself. He might look in the trash at times but he always has a shopping bag with him - maybe with food, not sure what's in it. I've been seeing him for about a year now in the same vicinity and sometimes in another city close by that he might have taken the bus to because it's too far to walk that distance. He's always by himself, he walks up and down and talks to himself, bothers no one and doesn't really look at anyone, like how we look at other people. He just seems to be in his own world, but it's obvious he's a bit off. People in the area knows of him and no one bothers him and he doesn't bother anyone. Just talks and smiles to himself all day. He wears different clothes, mostly like jeans, sneakers and a t-shirt, but it's not always the same ones. He does changes clothes, that's why I'm not sure if he lives somewhere or not.

Point is, this man is obviously a bit off, most would describe him as a 'mad man'. He's not a bum nor is he just homeless looking for food, he's a bit off but he knows how to get dressed, knows that food may be in the trash, knows how to walk and find his way. He's never lost and I've seen him take the bus before so he knows how to do that where to get off etcetcetcetc. Once I seen him walking and there was snot running out of his nose but not hitting the ground and he was just walking as if it wasn't there. He walked back where I was standing and the snot kept going in and out his nose while he looked in the trash. He never looked my way or anybody's way, just into his own world.

This man had no sense of a self. This man had no shame. This man didn't see other humans, just bodies walking around.

 

 

 

. This man was like a baby, but in adult form. This man didn't sense himself but he was operating just like any other person meaning he wasn't walking in walls, he understood that food maybe in the trash, he knew where the busstop was, he has a sense of direction, every other sense but a sense of self. He didn't notice that snot just as a baby wouldn't wipe their own snot. A baby isn't going to crawl to a wall and bump into it wondering why he can't go through the wall. Why not? The body is operating itself. 

Just as this man's body is operating itself without him being there. If you saw this man, you would be able to tell he has no clue but he is still operating. That man is an enlightened being just as the rest of us. The difference is the sense of personhood is present in the rest of us. That man did nothing, that man doesn't even know he is crazy, he doesn't know he isn't there, hence when the sense of self falls away, there will be no one there to know it. Do you think if you ask that man these things he would even know what the hell you were talking about. No, he'd probably look you in the eye for a nano second and keep it moving as if you weren't even there. That man still functions, but without a human being there in that body, just like the rest of us - the difference is that sense is present in us but not him. There's nothing there in us, it's just a FELT SENSE. No shame or guilt or any sense of anything that humans feel only sense there was what the body needs to function. That snot is on it's own, nobody there that cares about it's presence. THAT'S WHAT YOU'RE DESIRING WHEN YOU DESIRE TO BECOME ENLIGHTENED. You want to be in the mad house. You want your absence. Well, you won't be there to know it just as this man isn't there, nor here nor anywhere. The only reason you're not like that man is because your sense of self is present and all the baggage that comes with that. Osho and sadguru aren't enlightened beings and any other sane operating guru. I say enlightenment is the case for everyone but that's not up for arguing here. My point is that the man I've explained in this post is a true representation of what enlightenment is but in it's raw state. A 'baby' in an adult body that just existed the womb of the Absolute and appeared as a mad man. You don't want to appear as that man, you want to keep appearing as your normal self. If you were to be that man, you wouldn't even know if you were coming or going much less enlightened. 

 

Edited June 15 by Princess Arabia

[Keryo Koffa]

Sounds like dissociated states of abstracted manual control, a flow a(ni/uto)mating body like IK as a dance with the universe.

With an awareness focused away from external identity boundaries, self and other, into intuition, sensation, like Stage Beige.

No self, no arguing, no reflection, no proving, no justifying, no convincing, no judging, no affirming, no thinking, no focus, just.

Edited June 15 by Keryo Koffa

[Princess Arabia]

1 hour ago, Keryo Koffa said:

Sounds like dissociated states of abstracted manual control, a flow a(ni/uto)mating body like IK as a dance with the universe.

With an awareness focused away from external identity boundaries, self and other, into intuition, sensation, like Stage Beige.

No self, no arguing, no reflection, no proving, no justifying, no convincing, no judging, no affirming, no thinking, no focus, just.

Yeah. When I watch him and others like him, it's so beautiful to watch. I just see a body in it's raw form with no care in the world, just being.

[Princess Arabia]

Life cannot be boxed up and sold as a course. It can be, but that's like buying a stale box of chocolate. It cannot be told as a story. It can be, but that's like taking to a history class. It cannot be reminisced about. It can be, but that's like digging up the grave of a skeleton. It cannot be thought about. It can be, but that's like thinking about your pee after peeing. 

[Princess Arabia]

The seeker (spiritually speaking) will never find what it's looking for simply because seeking depends on not finding. A seeker never becomes a non-seeker. The seeker dies and it's revealed to not have been but to no one. If there's a sense of a person there it automatically seeks, seeker dies, it collapses and there's no one left to even know the difference.

[Princess Arabia]

No two fingerprints alike because this is Oneness. It's like having just one print. There are no exact duplicates of anything and nothing is ever repeated. Infact, there are no things.

[Princess Arabia]

Ever find yourself staring into space for like a quick second; that's like a glimpse into nothingness. The sense of a person apparently came back, but not really because it's not really there. 

Ever talking to someone and lost your train of thought. It's not your thought, it's thought "thoughting" (already the case), but wasn't being claimed in that moment and it slipped by without a sense of a person claiming it. Nothing can be grasped or held unto and in that apparent moment, that was experienced. Something like a non-dual moment, but not really. No such thing as non-duality. We're just making shit up. No such thing as anything, really. Even Nothing is a made-up word by nothing. It likes to talk about itself and name itself. It's nameless. It's not a void or a black hole, it's nothing. What is nothing? Nothing. Hehe....being everything...which is still nothing....hahahehehoho...i love this shit. Won't be saying nothing when asked what's that hit upside the head.

Edited June 16 by Princess Arabia

[Princess Arabia]

This screams to itself. It's everywhere. 

Somebody took my cheese. Some (body) took my cheese. There's a body that took my cheese. 

Nobody is at the house. No (body) is at the house. There are no bodies in the house.

There's no one in these bodies. It's bodies apparently talking to other bodies with no sense of someone inside. That sense of a person is energetic and belongs to no one. That sense is the you that you think you are. That's the I AM. The I AM isn't real. Be still and know that IAM - Nothing is still or moving, knowing is an illusion and the I AM is an appearance of a sense of separateness.

This isn't an attempt to change anything or to say you must realize this and awaken to your true nature or to stop being delusional or anything like that. Nor am I pointing to anything. It's just an activity called writing happening and something here intuits that presently. I'm not going about my life in a state of no one and saying to people you know youre just a body. No, that's not happening here. It might someday, because anything can happen but it's not at the moment. I don't care to live in that mode and don't care if they're anyone or not anyone in these bodies. Either way it is what it is. 

[Princess Arabia]

Something there intuits that something isn't right with this madness. It feels off and turns to objects and substances to try and feel a sense of balance. It turns to therapists because they seem to be in control of this and l8syen to teachers and gurus for a sense of comfort, safety and reassurance. This is all THIS being all that. 

It cannot truly be defined but if I was to define it I would say it has child-like qualities, actually baby-like qualities. It longs for and seeks safety, something to hold unto and cradle like a child does with a teddy bear. It seeks direction and guidance just like a child does and it is drawn to innocence and a sense of peace and tranquility. It can seem curious and combative, temper tantrums when it doesn't get what it wants and looks to authority figures for whatever it feels it lacks. 

This is what it appears to be like but in actuality it is already whole and complete and fulfilled. It could not appear as those opposites if it weren't. The limited cannot appear limited if it's not unlimited, that goes for every seeming dual state or appearance.

 

[Princess Arabia]

We don't want freedom and liberation. No we don't. We want to be trapped and caged like a puppy dog so we can keep whining for attention and food to feed the 'soul'. Why would energy that escapes it's mother's bosom to roam the world looking for it's independence want to be free and liberated. Irony is, that's exactly the reason why. It seeks freedom, liberation and safety through escape. It wants to obtain any and everything it can to remain free of captivity, not realizing how wanting, desiring and getting what it wants, is the very thing that enslaves it. Will it stop eating after one pistachio; no, it wants the entire bag and will not stop until it's full. After it's full, it will pause until it hungers again. Then it wants some more to fulfill the hunger and when it's full again, it wants some more. Repeat. It never stops wanting.

This is how the body works. It hungers, then it feeds itself, then it hungers and feeds itself some more. Repeat. It's a never-ending cycle of wanting, needing, having, getting, feeling full....repeat. How is that freedom and liberation. If it doesn't eat, it craves, if it's deprived, it whines, when it whines, it feels bad, when it feels bad it suffers, when it suffers it looks to end it's suffering. It ends the suffering temporarily.....repeat. Is that freedom and liberation. YES, true freedom and liberation.

Do we want to go hungry forever, no; deprived forever, no; whine forever, no; crave forever, no; feel bad forever, no; suffer forever, no; that's freedom and liberation. Free to feel deprived, whine, crave, feel bad and suffer. Is that what we want, no. We want to be happy and joyful all the time free from suffering. That's not freedom and liberation. Freedom and liberation is just that; free and liberated to be and feel whatever the hell it wants to. That's what's happening here, but we seek for better, we seek to feel happy and joyful and contented. We seek to feel fulfilled. We seek for conditional freedom and liberation. That's what we want. We want it for us. To satisfy us. 

When we eat, we eat for ourselves, not for other bodies. When we feel hunger, we feel it ourselves, not other bodies. When we seek, we seek for ourselves, not for others. Everything we do we do for ourselves; even when helping and caring for others, it's to feel good about ourselves. Yet, freedom and liberation isn't personal. It does see us nor relate to us, nor has any reason or purpose to because it's free. If it catered to us, it wouldn't be free. Yet, we seek something that doesn't even acknowledges our presence. 

We want from it, yearn for it, desire it, crave it, pray for it, ask for it, suffer for it, get addicted to it, think about it, kill for it, do everything in it's name and it doesn't even know we exist. Freedom and liberation couldn't care less about us and our desires and wants. That's how free and liberated it is. IS THAT WHAT WE WANT. NO, THATS WHAT WE'RE RUNNING FROM. We run to illusory objects, people, places and things for freedom and liberation. Illusory because they have no reality on their own. They are simply appearances. What is this appearance. Nothing. Freedom and liberation. Nothing because freedom and liberation cannot be anything because then it wouldn't be free and liberated. It would be limited and constricted to being that thing. It's nothing and everything.

So, the moral of the story is we don't want 'nothing' (excuse the double negative). We've turned nothing into something so we can grab and hold unto and achieve and get nothing (something), which is nothing. We've become neurotic beings because of this dynamic and we suffer for it. That is the human dilemma. It cannot be helped. It's the nature of what's happening. Nothing suggests that anything should or can be done about it either. It's utter perfection and for no rhyme or reason. This is FREEDOM AND LIBERATION. It is not us and we are not it. IT IS ALL THERE IS. Independence means nothing, captivity means nothing, wanting, desiring, craving, having, getting, needing, rewarding, asking, denying, whatever, it is means nothing - LITERALLY. THIS IS WHAT SEEKS. It seeks nothing - literally. That's why there's nothing to get, obtain, understand, know, want, desire, need, crave, because it's all nothing. It's ambiguous. It leaves us with nothing. 

Reality screams this. Born with nothing die with nothing. Nothing needs to change and nothing needs to be done. It's already done. It's already home. ALL IS NOTHING AND NOTHING IS ALL. Let us continue to do and be what we've been doing, seeking and all, no seeking and all, suffering and all, joyful and all, wanting and all, desiring and all, craving and all, fighting and all, loving and all, hating and all, nothing will change and can change - literally, simply because it's ETERNALLY NOTHING and no-thing is eternal. Nothing need be accepted, let go of, surrender to or deny. It's all freedom and liberation. We don't want that, we want to not be freedom and liberated because we want something and some-thing cannot be free and liberated. THIS IS WHY WE DON'T WANT TO VE FREE AND LUBERATED, It's the game of cat and mouse freedom and liberation plays but will eventually lose.

 

 

 

[Princess Arabia]

You cannot live non-dually. Non-duality is death. Death of the individual. It's already the case, so your life is an illusion. Not life itself but the individual that calls it "my life". That's ok and it doesn't need to change. I say my life too. It doesn't matter. Calling myself 'this' or by my name is not necessary and is trying to apply it to myself. Sometimes I might say "this character" but it's still referring to something separate so it doesn't mean anything. 

Oneness is impossible for the individual to see because it implies using consciousness which is not a thing to be used unless it is in the context of 'i am conscious of...' which is dualistic. The eyes cannot see itself. One cannot feel oneness either because that's also dualistic. If one says they have experienced no separation, that also is dualistic. I think it can be intuited but I'm not sure. It can't be known either because that's also dualistic. The knower doesn't exist on it's own. It requires a source. Source implies 'source of something' and there is no source in oneness because it's all there is. The oneness one thinks it has experienced is illusory and an appearance. It has no real reality.

Edited June 18 by Princess Arabia